Good afternoon.

This is Sunday May 19, 2013. In this morning’s meditation there was one thing that came to me: Thy kingdom come. Just three words, but the more I turned it around and rested and looked, the more I wondered how many people know what that means. Oh, we hear the Lord’s Prayer said all the time; maybe we say it all the time. Thy kingdom come, thy will be done on earth as is it is in heaven. Right? Or in earth as it is in heaven. We say the words all the time, but what does – what are we asking for? What are we saying when we say “thy kingdom come”?

In the first place, does God have a kingdom some place where he’s a king and there’s all these servants wandering about? Or does kingdom mean consciousness? Does kingdom mean spirit? Spirit and consciousness are the same thing, you know. When John says “I was in the Spirit on the Lord’s day” in Revelation he means he was in that high consciousness. So – God is a spirit says our dear friend, Yeshua. God is a spirit. Don’t you know – God is a spirit and you must worship him in spirit. God and consciousness are one, and you must be one with that consciousness.

And so thy kingdom come means that higher consciousness, spiritual consciousness, Christ consciousness come. Manifest. Be. Is. And so we’re asking for that higher consciousness, but we’re living in a physical realm. Oh, Joel tells us over and over you can’t add God to your humanhood. And here I am, a little human being, praying up there to God somewhere, “Please give me your kingdom. Let it come.”

Oh, in metaphysics we thought that meant let us have harmony of purse, pocketbook, wallet. Let us have harmony of health, body, mind. Let us have harmony of relationships, of friendships, of companionship. Right? Thy kingdom come. Now, however, we are more advanced on this path and we have a little bit different meaning to that. If you haven’t done that, if you haven’t done so, take that into meditation.

Thy kingdom come. What does that mean?

I noticed, or I was led to this chapter, these one, two, three, four, five pages called The New Horizon, because the new horizon is – well – thy kingdom. Joel has experienced that kingdom. And he says:

Above this sense-life, there is a universe of Spirit governed by Love, peopled with children of God living in the household or temple of Truth. [And] This world is real and permanent: Its substance is eternal Consciousness. In it there is no awareness of discords or even … temporary … material good.

So we know from that, from his little hint there, that when we say ‘thy kingdom come’ we are talking about an invisible spiritual universe. We’re asking for an invisible spiritual consciousness to come. And what happens when we experience that? Well, he tells us that too.

[When thy kingdom comes] The experience at first is like watching the world [this whole world] disappear over a horizon and drop down from before us. There is no attachment to [the] … world [anymore], no desire to hold onto it …

Are you experiencing that? Have you experienced that? Have you experienced thy kingdom come, thy kingdom coming? Have you experienced thy kingdom, this invisible spiritual realm, invisible spiritual consciousness? Do you think you can pull that invisible spiritual consciousness into this world? He tells you right here:

the experience does not come until a great measure of our desire for the things of “this world” has been overcome.

So you cannot experience this spiritual realm, which is permanent. Cannot experience ‘the water that I shall give him’, which is life everlasting. You cannot experience spiritual being, invisible spiritual being – your invisible spiritual being – until you have no more desire for this world. And so you can’t enter this higher realm, this realm of Spirit governed by Love, peopled with children of God. You cannot meet these people and experience the spiritual realm until the desire for this world has been overcome.

So those who are living the metaphysics of the message and trying to demonstrate a heart, a liver, lungs, a companion, or financial harmony – they’re not ready for this higher consciousness, are they? And Joel tells us that. They’re not ready for The New Jerusalem, which is the following chapter in this book. That state of consciousness we talked about where you enter the Sabbath. They’re not ready for that, are they? No, they’re still demonstrating things. They’re still having rounds of demonstrating things in this world. Yet, he says you can’t have it until you overcome that.

And is that not what Christ means when Christ says specifically to us, “He that overcomes will I give to eat of the hidden manna”? The hidden manna is again in an invisible realm. There’s an invisible realm closer than breathing, nearer than hands and feet. It’s in your very midst, right here, just less than a breath away. Yet you have no contact with it if you’re trying to pull it into this realm.

And when you do have contact with it, Joel says:

At first [you] … cannot speak of it. There is a [feeling] … of “‘Touch me not; … I [have] … not yet ascended’ – I am still between the two worlds; …

And the two worlds are this world, this heaven, this earth, these concepts of heaven and earth – and the invisible spiritual realm, which is right here and now in your midst. Again, he says:

The more fascinated we are with conditions of human good and the greater our desire for even the good things … the more intense is the illusion. … Think neither on the discords nor … the harmonies of this world.

Because both of them keep you chained to the old earth and the old heaven. They keep you chained to the mind, which is trying to demonstrate things. The ascension, we understand, is always, always rising above mind. Remember that from Beyond Words and Thoughts? Here he says:

[The] … ascension is understood now as … rising above the conditions and experiences of “this world,” [and we look into the invisible] and we behold … “many mansions” prepared for us in spiritual Consciousness – in the awareness of [the invisible] … .

And finally he says:

Let us not judge … our good by [the senses] … . No good thing is withheld from us as we look [above the senses], above the physical evidence to the great Invisible [realm]. Look up, look up! The kingdom … is at hand!

And the kingdom at hand is this Great Invisible realm. So he recommends that you look up into that Great Invisible realm.

So when you pray “thy kingdom come” it’s enough to stop there and rest and let thy kingdom, that new consciousness, that new heaven, new earth come.

Let that new consciousness manifest and form itself. You have no idea what that new earth is going to look like.

It’s your necessity to continually form pictures and concepts in the mind into which you want to pour that invisible, that Great Invisible realm, that’s keeping you from attaining it.

Thy kingdom come – and stop! Thy kingdom come – and behold.

Since Joel was at that place where he had attained that consciousness and could go in and out at will, he was at the same state of consciousness as our friend, John. Now listen to John as he explains thy kingdom. This is Revelation 21, and he says:

And I saw a new heaven and a new earth: for the first heaven and the first earth were passed away; and there was no more sea.”

Now the sea is that level of consciousness known as material consciousness. And here he says he stood in silence and saw a new heaven and a new earth. He saw that invisible spiritual realm form itself as something new, something new, even a new self. And the old had passed away, and there was no more material consciousness. You see? This is exactly the same as Joel saying this world drops down from before us and we rest in that spiritual consciousness. This is the same.

And I John saw the holy city, new Jerusalem, coming down from God out of heaven, prepared as a bride adorned for her husband.”

New Jerusalem, we learned, is that state of consciousness in which you rest back and are carried, carried by Christ consciousness. I’ve experienced it in thousands of meditations and sometimes with eyes wide open driving or talking or walking or shopping.

And I heard a great voice out of heaven saying, …”

Now he looked into the invisible and he beheld spiritual consciousness forming itself, and he heard a voice saying:

Behold, the tabernacle of God is with men …”

Yes, in your very midst, I am.

And he will dwell with them, and they shall be his people, and God himself shall be with them, and be their God.”

Now that’s the experience: Touch me not, for I have not yet ascended. I am still between the old heaven and the old earth and the new heaven and the new earth. I’m still between them. I cannot yet discuss it, but I am watching. I am waiting upon the Lord.

“And God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes; and there shall be no more death, …”

No, because when the Infinite Invisible forms itself as your being, who is there to die? When the Great Invisible, when you look up and rest back and behold the Spirit move over the face of the deep and form itself as a new heaven, a new earth, a new self as you, your being – there is then no one to die.

and there shall be no more death, neither sorrow, nor crying, neither shall there be any more pain: for the former things [humanhood has] … passed away.”

“And he that sat upon the throne said,” …

This is Christ consciousness – he’s still listening. First he watched, now he’s listening.

“And he that sat upon the throne said, Behold, I make all things new.”

And that includes you. You want to be born again, then let the human die. Yes, pray. Thy kingdom come. Realize you’re asking for the Great Invisible to form itself where you stand and to stand there as your being.

Behold, I make all things new. And he said unto me, Write; for these words are true and faithful.”

“And he said unto me, It is done.”

What is done? The Great Invisible has formed itself. God is on earth. Immanuel is appearing. Christ is born.

“It is done. I am Alpha and Omega, the beginning and the end. I will give unto [you] … that is athirst of the fountain of the water of life freely.”

“He that [overcomes] … shall inherit all things; and I will be his God, and he shall be my son.”

And what did we hear? To them gives he power to become the sons of God. You, my friends, my brothers, my sisters – we are one in Christ, and we have received the Word from the Great Invisible, and we have the power to lay down our human sense of life, and we have no more desire for the things of this world. If they come, they come. If they don’t, they don’t. What is that to thee?

Now we have one desire – to watch this world, this physical sense of self, fall down over the horizon and rest back on an infinite sea of Spirit and stand so still without thought here in the silence: “Behold, I make all things new.” Including you, for I become you. For I now am the only presence. Here above the mind, here in the silence, in the resting Sabbath, I overcome the world and I reveal the kingdom formed from a new heaven as a new earth, as a new self, as a new life, as a new beginning, as a new kingdom, as a spiritual realm formed.

You heard long ago that you must live by every word that proceedeth out of the mouth of God, and now you know what that means. Yes, thy kingdom come. Look up! Look up! Let the Great Invisible form itself. And here’s how Joel said it:

[Look up!]… look above the physical evidence to the Great Invisible. … The kingdom of heaven is at hand!

[I, the Great Invisible spiritual consciousness, Christ in your midst] I am breaking the sense of limitation for you as an evidence of My presence and … My influence [right here in your midst] … . I – the I of you — am in the midst of you revealing the harmony and infinity of [the] spiritual [realm] … . I – the I of you – never a personal sense of “ I” – never a person – but the I of you – am ever with you. Look up [to the Great Invisible].

Those were the words that came to Joel on a red scroll with gold lettering in Old English lettering. You remember? And though it appeared in a dream, when he opened his eyes it was still hanging above his bed. And so this comes from the Great Invisible right out there hanging above his bed. The Great Invisible formed itself as the chapter The New Horizon, which means the new consciousness, the new heaven, the new earth, the new kingdom.

Dying to all of this is overcoming. Being born again is coming into the conscious awareness, seeing the new heaven and the new earth and hearing the voice that says, “Behold, I make all things new.” And I am your God and you are my son because you have died out of the world. You have ascended. You are no longer standing between the two worlds. You are resting, a witness to the kingdom really coming, really manifesting, really appearing.

So let us be this stillness. Joel says, “let my silence be Thy abiding place,” in the chapter The New Jerusalem. This is inviting the Great Invisible. This is saying thy kingdom come. Have no idea whatsoever, no outline, no plan. “I stand at the door, and knock.” Look up! Look up above the sense mind. Have no images. Just look. Just listen.

Behold, [I make all things, including you] I make all things new.” In this silence, in this stillness, be a beholder. How many times has Joel told us that? Be a beholder. It was the whole purpose of The Contemplative Life book. Be a beholder. Watch as the Great Invisible forms itself, lives itself right here, right now, and Christ appears on earth.

When Christ Jesus made his ascension he was still on earth, for he said, “I have overcome the world.” And there was no crucifixion. He had already made his ascension. He walked out and he walked back in. He walked into the invisible and he walked back out. This is how he was able to disappear in the midst of a crowd and reappear outside the temple.

You can do the same thing. If it is I, then be not afraid. I will never leave you because I am you, and this must be a conscious awareness. This must be your consciousness, Christ appearing, and you must have the power to lay down this sense of life and pick it up again. You must have the ability to walk in the invisible realm and back out, for all that I have is thine, and I demonstrated this as Christ Jesus, and I will demonstrate this as Christ You, as Christ I.

You are on earth to overcome that old earth. You are here to no longer be here. You are in passing time to stand still in the now. Behold, I, the Great Invisible, manifest my kingdom. Now when you hear that prayer, now when you say that prayer, you know what you’re asking for. You have the spiritual maturity to know: Thy kingdom come. Let the Word manifest. Let the Christ liveth itself. Let God be in his son and his son in God, and let there be one, and let there be light, and let there be a new heaven and a new earth.

It is said that there shall be no night there and the light will shine forever, meaning there shall be no personal sense of self, no personal sense of life. No concepts. No mental images, but only the light of I. Every day you must have, we must have a period, and I must have a period of meditation, a period of silence, a period of stillness, a moment of nothingness in which I rest, I behold thy kingdom come, and I witness God Itself made manifest. And I behold the Spirit moving over the face of the deep.

Yes, the experience that Moses had he expressed in these words. This is him beholding, as you will, the Great Invisible manifesting itself, and this is how he saw it:

“The earth was without form, and void; and darkness was upon the face of the deep.”

He’s just resting in the silence, and there’s nothingness.

“And the Spirit of God moved upon the face of the waters.”

He felt it. And then he heard the voice, just like John.

“And God said, Let there be light: and there was light.

And God saw the light, that it was good: and God divided the light from the darkness.”

These are two states of consciousness. This is the old heaven, the old earth – an earth formed out of images in the mind – and the new heaven and the new earth – the Spirit of God forming itself.

“And God said, Let us make man in our image, [and] after our likeness: and let them have dominion … .

So God created man in his own image, in the image of God created he him; male and female created he them.”

I think that was changed. I think it said originally “male and female created he him.”

“And God blessed them, and God said unto them, Be fruitful, and multiply, …

And God saw every thing that he had made, and, behold, it was very good.”

And then on the seventh day he rested from all his work. Remember? So Moses sees the Great Invisible Spirit, spiritual consciousness forming itself, and he explains it as God creating, manifesting its own image. And so this is the new heaven. This is God creating its own image, that image you.

This is the experience, this first chapter of Genesis. This is the realm where spiritual consciousness forms itself. This is why you are here, that you might behold, that you might bear witness to the Great Invisible spiritual Christ Consciousness forming itself. That you might bear witness to God’s Word going forth and taking form. That you might be one of those that stand so still that you behold a new heaven and a new earth coming down from God. That you might drink of these everlasting waters, that you might experience your Eternal Self.

God expressing itself is your Eternal Self.

That you might experience the infinite, eternal, invisible I and watch as it lives itself. For this cause came ye into the world that you might have life and life everlasting.

And again, as Joel stood there in silence, these words came forth from within, and we hear him say:

How shall I stand before Thee but in silence? How shall I honor Thee but in the meditation of mine heart?

Praise and thanksgiving Thou seekest not, [ah] but the understanding heart, [the beholder] Thou receivest.

I will keep silent before Thee. My Soul and my Spirit and my silence shall be Thy dwelling place. [Which is exactly the same as, “Oh Father, thy kingdom come.”]

Thy Spirit shall fill my meditation, and it shall make me and preserve me whole. O Thou Tender One and True – I am home in Thee.

And so Joel has discovered a home above this sense-life, a realm of Spirit, the kingdom of heaven. A new heaven and a new earth, Christ consciousness, the fountain of everlasting waters, the image and likeness of God. I in your midst am come. Be still and know, and let us rest in that I…

This I comes as a thief in the night. Into your silence the Spirit flows. It comes as a thief in the night. You – you are just still. You are staring into the Great Invisible, and I come as a thief in the night. And I come that you might have this new life everlasting. I am the life. I stand in the midst of you now, closer than your very breathing. Look up to the Great Invisible. Look up! The kingdom you have asked for is at hand right here in your midst.

And have I been so long a time with you, and you have not known me? You may know me now as you utter the words: Thy kingdom come. Rest back and receive that eternal kingdom. Be a beholder as Christ manifests, as the new kingdom comes, as the New Jerusalem, the new city, the new consciousness forms itself. And behold, all things are new.

Have one meditation, at least one, more if you feel led, in which you have nothing to heal, nothing to prove, nothing to demonstrate. Only standing still looking into the Great Invisible that you might catch a glimpse of the Spirit moving over the face of the deep, that you may hear the voice say unto you: Stand ye still. I have come whose right it is, and I am the life. I am that truth. I am the Way. Look unto me. Look! Look up! The kingdom comes in silence.

As this Invisible, this Great Invisible, forms itself and makes all things new, just be a beholder. Just stand still in receptivity. Just know I can do all things and behold, I am your inheritance. Your everlasting life is I.

And after these periods of silence just open your eyes, do whatever is at hand to do, and in a way ye know not of this Great Invisible will appear as harmony of being, harmony of life, harmony of purpose.

I tell you, you are so blessed to be at this banquet, at this supper of Spirit. Many, many kings would give up their entire kingdom for this real spiritual kingdom, and it is yours because you laid down your personal sense.

Now, listen to this one last time, because this is Joel explaining the experience of receiving divine Sonship, this new spiritual kingdom. He’s explaining it in Spiritual Interpretation of Scripture in the chapter True Sense of the Universe, and he says it’s a secret. He says it’s a secret.

[And] The secret — … which has been so rarely understood — [That secret is how you make your ascension] is … spiritual meat and drink; and the secret is this:

Remember over here – we just read it in The Infinite Way – you must overcome the desire for things of this world and then you may have the spiritual realm. You must overcome this world, and so he says it here again. This was his experience.

The life which you behold in man, tree … animal is not the Life [of] … God; …

And so stop trying to pull God into this realm, this material realm.

The life of material man or flower is mortal sense … . It is a false sense of the Life which is real.

Yes, this world is false images about the Invisible, the Great Invisible. This is mind manifested, but now we are ready for the Great Invisible to manifest, the new kingdom, the new earth. So he says:

The understanding of this truth will enable you to look away from [sense objects] …; it will enable you to refrain from attempting to heal, correct or reform the mortal sense of existence; and as soon as you have conquered the desire to heal or improve the material sense of existence, … [as soon as you have conquered that, you have let it go, you are standing now in silence, then] the spiritual or real begins to unfold and reveal itself to you.

You see that? Do you see that? Ascension’s always the same. Coming up over the mind and its images and its desires to change, improve, or heal, and resting in the spiritual Invisible, the great spiritual realm and beholding the Word made flesh.

He says:

You cannot behold or experience eternal Life and its harmonies … while accepting the evidence of the senses … .

Do not take lightly what I am saying [he says]. This is the Great Revelation; this knowledge will clarify for you the Master’s statement, “My kingdom is not of this world”; [Yes, it will clarify that. Now you know my kingdom, and when you pray ‘thy kingdom come’ you’re asking for the Great Invisible to manifest itself as life, and you are willing to drop all personal sense of life and all of its attachments. He says] it will reveal to you the secret of John the Revelator, who beheld the universe which is not made with hands, but which is eternal, as Consciousness appearing; Spirit unfolding; Soul revealing itself.

You see that? Do you see that?

Believe me [he says] — this is the secret of secrets.

This is Life eternal to know this truth. [And] Truly Kings and Emperors would give their thrones could they but learn this one truth …

The life of material man, [this is the one truth: The life of material man] the life of … tree, … flower, … animal — this is not … Life eternal; … Do not attempt to patch [it up] … . rather turn [away] from it and with … enlightened consciousness [in the silence] discern the Life which is God; “feel” through your cultivated spiritual sense [the] … divine energy of Spirit;

Which is the same as watching the Spirit move over the face of the deep. It’s the same as watching the new heaven and the new earth come down, the New Jerusalem come down out of heaven. It’s the same as watching the fountain spring up into life everlasting. It is the same!

feel through your cultivated spiritual sense [the] … divine energy of Spirit; become [consciously aware] … in the Silence of your Soul … . Let the divine harmonies appear [let the divine harmonies appear] as you disregard the evidence of sight and hearing, [and] tasting, [and] touching and smelling.

That which is real and eternal is not seen or touched, … [it is] spiritually discerned. It is [realized] … only by the intuitive or inner consciousness. Reality [this Great Invisible] is perceived by the Soul [sense] …, [by your] inner vision.

Only to those who have eyes to see and ears to hear [which is you, my dear friends] can this vision become a living, vital Presence. Only those who have heard what is said by “the still, small voice” and seen what is visible to the “windows of the Soul” can discern [that] … “temple not made with hands” — [or] the universe of God’s creating [or the Great Invisible manifesting itself].

[The] … false sense of life must be put off, disregarded, un-valued, in order that the real Life [the Great Invisible] and its formations may become evident and experienced.

So there it is yet again another way, and now you know, don’t you? Yes, you do! You know as well as you know your own sense of existence: When you pray, thy kingdom come, what you are asking for is that I manifest My Kingdom, My Presence, My Self. That the I of you outpicture itself.

Again, there are five or six billion people on earth and only a handful ever learns in any given age that there is an ascension out of the sense realm into the Great Invisible realm of Spirit, and that here Christ Jesus flows and here stands Joel, for he said to those that know the secret, I will never leave the earth, but I will be available in the Great Invisible. And here stands Moses and Elijah and here, if you step into this Great Invisible and rest back and behold, you may meet up with Elijah, Jesus, Paul, Joel, John, with Krishna, with Moses, with Abraham, with Shankara, with Buddha. But more importantly than all of that, you may just witness I in the midst of you manifesting.

Look up! Look up! For the kingdom is at hand, and I in the midst of thee am the Way. And I shall surely meet you there in the invisible.

Thank you. Many blessings and Thy kingdom come.

[Silence]..

Soul to soul, Spirit to spirit. Blessings.

Well, good morning everyone. This is Sunday May 12th, Mother’s Day 2013, and this talk today is about living our Christhood. You remember Jesus said, “Who is my mother? Who is my brother? Those that do the will of my Father in heaven.” And so those that do the will of my Father in heaven are Christ, are demonstrating their Christhood. Only Christ can do the will of the Father in heaven. There comes a point in our spiritual growth where we have to ask ourselves are we practicing these principles – are we still practicing these principles for the good that I might receive? Am I still looking for some personal good such as health or such as companionship or supply? Do I not believe that all the things, all these things are added unto me when I seek first how to demonstrate Christhood? Are these just pretty, poetic words, or is there a principle here?

There is a principle here, and the principle is: To him that hath it shall be given, and to him that hath not shall be taken away even that which he has.

That principle puzzled me for a long time until I began to live and demonstrate the principles of Christhood, even in a little measure. Then I began to understand that principle.

Now my observation over the years is that people have – some people have a difficulty with supply. They always seem to be limited. There’s not much supply coming in and not much going out, and they’re having a problem in that area. Other people demonstrate supply quite beautifully, but there’s a problem with health, with life, with living, and they’re limited in that area and they have problems. They don’t know how to solve them. And some people demonstrate health and life and living perfectly fine, but they’re alone and they have a problem finding the right companion. They have a problem with companionship. They may say to the person experiencing lack and limitation, “I don’t understand this – supply is so easy to demonstrate.” And the one experiencing lack and limitation may feel, “Why are you alone? I mean God is everywhere. How can you not be a companion to God?”

And so each of us has the area where we need to practice these principles perhaps a little more diligently than our neighbor. Yet all of us will come to the place where we can practice that principle and demonstrate that we have, that we really are the Christ.

I’m gonna talk about myself today, but only so that I can point out the principle and how it is that I practice it, not so that you can think there’s anything great about me, because there isn’t. I can tell you without hesitation that of myself I can do nothing. This I know. However, I also know that with Christ all things are possible. I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me. I know that too. And if I did not admit that to you I would be a liar. So please take this talk today in your good graces and not think that I’m trying to brag or anything, ‘cause I’m not. But it is important to understand the principle.

Now we say that we want to live as Christ and we’re ready to give up our humanhood. And yet we turn around and we look at my bank account, my companions, and my health. Now there can be no such thing in the kingdom of heaven. Incidentally, the kingdom of heaven is not some place you’re gonna go to, not even some place you’re going to attain. The kingdom of heaven is here and now. You’re standing in the middle of it. The only thing that’s preventing you from seeing it, from feeling it, from the conscious awareness of it, is this personal sense of life, a life in which you have my finances, my companions, and my health. That’s the very thing that must be seen through in order to demonstrate your Christhood, in order to demonstrate that you have. And we don’t want to give it up. I know I certainly didn’t. It had to be practically ripped from my hands.

Once upon a time, maybe 40 (47 now) years ago, I was married, happily married I thought, although that was a lie because we were having problems and I was just denying them, and one day I came home and she said, “I’m leaving. I’ve met this other fellow, John, and I’m moving in with him.” And she took our 1-year-old son and she moved in with him. The next day I came home from work and I was just dashed to pieces. I looked through the house and the baby’s room was empty. There was nothing but blue walls, not even a crib, and I looked in our room and all her things were missing. There was a big, gigantic, king-sized bed and nothing there but my pillows and bedspread. And even in the kitchen things that she liked were missing, and there was no note or anything. Just like that (fingers snap) she was gone.

And so my world fell to pieces, and I didn’t know what to do. And I felt like, well, it must be my fault. I had a spiritual adviser at the time and his name was Don and he had given me a copy of The Art of Meditation and I had been reading it for about a year or year and a half. I was trying to practice the principles, but I wasn’t getting anywhere. I was praying to God to show me how to love, and he was about to do just that, and boy I didn’t – once that prayer was answered I was sorry I ever prayed it for quite a while.

And so I went over to Don’s house and I said, “What do I do? I can’t take it, these thoughts. I see her with other guys and these thoughts, they just drive me crazy.” And he said to me something that you don’t hear very often. He said, “You know, most people would get out of this problem by transferring their love to another woman. But (he said) if you did that, in a very short time you’d be just as dependent on the next one, because you see, you’re not hurting from love. You’re hurting from dependency. You need her.”

Well, what do I do about that? How do I get over that”?

Well, (he said) I don’t know. You’re going to have to find a way to transfer your feelings to God.” He said, “You’re going to have to transfer that love you feel or felt for her over to God.”

Well, I can’t – how do I do that – I can’t see God. How do I do that? I can’t hold God at night.”

Well, (he said) I have a feeling there’s something for you in that book, The Art of Meditation, but I can’t tell you what it is. You have to find it for yourself.”

And so I went home and I had two principles. One was that I going to have to find a way to let go of her, and two, I was going to have to find a way to transfer my feelings to God. And I had asked him, I said, “What do I do when these thoughts come of her with these other guys?” He said, “You live by yourself, so just talk out loud and say ‘hey, I’ve given that problem to God. It’s not mine. I’m not working on the problem. The problems – the answer’s not in the problem’.” And so I took that too. Took that home and I fell apart. I was not able to do it. Here’s what happened.

I became so depressed. I don’t know if you’ve ever been that depressed, depressed where it’s hard to move your body. I would get up in the morning and the first thing of course I would see is that she was not there. The bed was empty. Go in and have my coffee. Couldn’t eat. Dragged myself down. Get on the bus. Go to work. I worked in a factory. Pushed – you ever been that depressed that you have to push your body around? I pushed my body around all day. I went through the motions, and then at night I’d walk down the driveway to the back house where we had lived, opened the door, searched the house. Nobody was there, just me. I plopped down on the couch and cried my eyes out. And then I got mad at God. I’d yell at God. “I asked you to teach me how to love and you take away the only person I love. What are you doing?” And then I’d get down on the floor and beg him for help. “Please take this pain away.”

Oh, I was crazy. Probably certifiably so. I’m sure they would have said, “oh, nervous breakdown” and given me some medication if there had been a doctor present. Finally, I turned to The Art of Meditation. I remembered that Don said there was something for me in there. And so I opened the book just anywhere and I came upon “For Love is of God” and I thought, well, that may have something to do with this. Maybe there’s a principle in here I can use. And I got down to this part here where it says:

The essential ingredient of all satisfactory relationships is love. Our love for God is made manifest in our love for man.

And remember – he told me to transfer my feelings, my love, to God. And so I’m looking and I’m reading as if my life depends on it, because it did. And I’m reading where, how do I love God? And here it says:

Our love for God is made manifest in our love for man. We are not only one with God, but we are one with the children of God: with our families and relatives; with our church members; with our business associates; with our friends. When we recognize God as our neighbor, we become members of the household of God, saints in the spiritual kingdom: there is a complete surrender of self into the infinite Sea of Spirit. The good of God flows to us through all who become … part of our universe. [And] To those who live in communion with God, serving God through their fellow man, the promise is literally kept: All that I have is thine.

No longer is there a need or a desire for any person or any thing.

Hmm. I wasn’t feeling that way. Boy, I needed her. Maybe there’s something to this.

Every thing and every person become part of our being. What we surrender, we have; what we hold in the grasp of possession, we lose. Every thing we release, we draw to us; every thing we loose, we have; every thing we set free, we bind to us forever. “Loose him and let him go.” Let everyone be loosed in Christ. We trust everyone to the God of his own being. We do not hold anyone in bondage to a debt of love, hate, fear, or doubt. We do not demand even love from anyone. [Aah] We agree that no man owes us anything. Only when we do not feel a debt of obligation and only when we hold no one in a debt of obligation to us, are we free, and do we set our world free.

And those two paragraphs my dear friends completely changed my existence because I put down the book and I made the decision I was going to follow those principles. I was going to love God by loving God’s creation, for God and his creation are one. And I was going to surrender, let go of having to have her or anyone. And I did that. The next morning I woke up and my head started out, “Oh, she’s with these” and I spoke out loud and I said, “Hey, take that out of here. That’s not my problem.” And then I turned to God and I said, “God, I love you. What do you want to do today?”

And I realized that if I had a new sweetheart I would call her up and say, “What do you want to do?” And if she said, “Let’s go to the beach,” we’d go. That’s the way it is when you’re in love. What does she want? You give it to her. And I thought now I’m gonna do that same thing with God. And I said, “God, what do you want to do today?” And I waited. I got quiet and no answer came. So I said, “Okay God. Here’s what I’m gonna do. I’m gonna do the dishes there and vacuum the floor, and if you need something, let me know and we’ll do it.”

And so I went over and I started doing the dishes and I remembered Brother Lawrence. He said he practiced the presence while doing the dishes. And so I did the dish and I said, “Here God. This one’s for you,” and I did the very best I could on that dish, and I said, “Look God. It’s so shiny I can see myself in it.” I put it in the drainer on the – what is that called? I put it on the drainer there on the counter next to the sink and then I did the next dish and the next dish, and I did ‘em all for God, talking to God the whole time. And then I went and I got the vacuum cleaner and I vacuumed the floor for God. I did the very best I could just for God, talking to God the whole time. “Oh, look at that. I can get in the corner there.”

And then I put that away and I sat down in my chair. I read a little from The Art of Meditation. The phone rang and on the other end of the phone was Ray and he said, “Can I come over and talk?” And I said, “Yeah, come on over.” Said he had a problem. And so I couldn’t really talk out loud to God while Ray was there, so I had to go within myself, and within myself I said, “Father, how may I best be of service? Please use me.” And outside I said, “Hi Ray. Come on in. Would you like cup of coffee?” He said, “Yeah,” so I made him a coffee and inside myself I said, “Father, you say whatever he needs to hear.” And outside I said, “So tell me, Ray. What’s going on?”

You see? I was praying without ceasing, and I was concentrating on God, not Ray. And I looked through Ray to God, and an amazing thing happened. Ray was expecting me to have all these problems and instead he brought his problems. His problems came to the surface and he spoke them and they dissolved. The answer was revealed right there between us and he went away and he said, “Wow, thank you!” And I said, “Don’t thank me, thank God.” And off he went.

I had a plant in the living room there. It was a wandering jew and it never got any sun and I talked to the plant and I looked through the plant to God and I would get up in the morning, say “Hi Father. How are you?” And I’d water the plant. “Are you thirsty”? And then I had a cat, a black cat named Sufi, and Sufi would come in and I would say, “Hi Father. Are you hungry?” I’d give Sufi some food. And I looked through the cat to God. And I started to look through everything.

Remember? Joel said in the book serving God through his fellow man, the promise is literally kept. All that I, God have, is thine, and I started serving God through my fellow man. I went to spiritual meetings at a church and I stayed on ready in case anybody needed to talk or wanted to talk so that I could share. And strange things started to happen, very strange things. Things I’ve never forgotten to this day. What kind of strange things? Well, one, I went to a restaurant I used to like. I ordered a hamburger and fries and a cup of coffee and the coffee came and it was hot and there was some ice in my water, so I took the spoon and got the ice out, a little bit of ice and put it in my coffee and cooled it down and I was able to drink it. And the waitress from way across the hall there, the restaurant, way across the restaurant suddenly appeared beside my table with a cup full of ice. She said, “I saw you putting ice in your coffee. I thought you might like a –”

Oh yes, I do.” And I thanked her and inside myself I thanked God. “Thank you, Father.” The plant in my living room that never got any sunshine, the wandering jew, it grew like crazy, the recognition of God where the plant appeared. The cat would come walking out of the kitchen. I’d be reading The Art of Meditation or Practicing the Presence and I could see it out of the corner of my eye. I’d say, “Just a minute, Father” and it would sit there like a dog and I’d reach the end of the chapter and I’d say, “okay” and it would run over and jump up in my lap. Now if you have cats or have had them you know they don’t respond that way. They ignore you.

This is one of the strangest things that ever happened. I was sitting there trying to read one of these spiritual books one day and a fly was flying around the room and it landed on my forehead and I swatted it away and it landed on my arm. It landed on the book, it landed on my nose. It was bothering me and so I started to get up and get the fly swatter and I stopped in my tracks and I said, “Now wait a minute, now wait a minute. God’s inside of everyone and everything. Right?” So I stuck out my hand and I said, “I’m only here to serve, so come on over here and land in my hand here and I’ll put you outside.” And I looked and the fly made a couple more circles around the room and it came over, landed dead in the center of the palm of my hand which I had open and I got up from the couch and it never moved!

This busy fly that was buzzing and buzzing and flying around and lighting on my forehead and arms and nose and book – it did not move! It stayed in the center of my palm, and I got up and I walked over to the door, and there was a door and a screen door. So with my right hand I opened the door and I still had my palm there and the fly was still there. He didn’t move. That’s not possible! You know that’s not possible. I opened the door and I opened the screen. I stuck my hand out and I said, “There you go, Father.” And off he flew.

I was beginning to practice the principle: To him that hath, it shall be given. I was spending my days and nights serving God through – well, loving God through loving God’s creation or God as his creation, and these strange and wonderful things were happening.

Another week or two passed. I was sitting there in a meditation and I realized, “Oh my goodness. I don’t have to have her in order to love her. I don’t have to have anybody. And yet I love the whole creation.” I realized that what I had started out practicing and pretending halfway had come true and I fell in love with God inside God’s entire creation.

Strange things were happening, and I went to this man Don who told me to look for a chapter in The Art of Meditation. I said, “Don, this is – why its fabulous. I’m free. I no longer have to have her. I have discovered God is inside of everyone and everything and I love God more than life itself. And he said, “That’s fabulous.” He said, “I’m giving a talk down here at this church Wednesday night. Will you come down and give one with me?” I said, “Why certainly.” Because why? Because it was put in front of me to do and I was serving God through serving the creation. I was practicing the principle: I have love and I can give it.

And so Wednesday night came and I talked for about 15 minutes and then we had a coffee break and some doughnuts and whatnot and then we went back to the main speaker, which was Don. He was to speak for 45 minutes to an hour, and he got up and he talked for about 5 minutes on certain spiritual principles he’d discovered in his life and then he looked down at the podium and he dropped over dead. At least he dropped his body right there and entered the invisible and never came back.

Now, I don’t know if you know the significance of this, but while the room was breaking into pandemonium and calling “call 911” and all that, I went around the corner where nobody could see me. I sat down, closed my eyes, and had a meditation because I knew God was inside of everyone and everything, and the voice said to me as clear as anything, “Behold, I shall make all things new.” And indeed, that voice has taken me from that little corner of that room to around the world and in many dimensions. But the point is of this whole story is I learned by being a companion to a plant, to a cat, even to a fly. By being a companion to God I demonstrated companionship with the Infinite, with Omnipresence from then until now.

One evening before this experience of going to the meeting and talking with Don I was sitting by myself reading The Art of Meditation and I put it down and I got quiet and I meditated. And suddenly there were no more thoughts. There was just a little period, a few seconds of silence, and at the same time I felt this Presence, this Presence right there in my room, and it touched me on the side of the face, a very tender, loving touch. And with that – well, it was a tingling feeling in my face – in it, on it, around it, through it, a Presence which I saw as my Father, as Christ, as the Isness of God. And with it came a sense of peace and from that moment until now I have never, ever, ever been alone.

And you see, I demonstrated the principle of Christhood. To him that hath, it shall be given. I am a companion and the Comforter is my companion, and all that the Father has is mine. And the Comforter has never left me. Omnipresence is mine from that time until now and forever throughout infinite and eternity. I will never be alone again. I demonstrated my Christhood, that I have perfect omnipresent companionship.

You see that? I demonstrated it by giving it away. And so you don’t demonstrate companionship by practicing principles until you get a companion. Yes, I have a wife. It’s been 23 years, 24 years, (30 years now) and we are completely in love with each other. I love her. She knows she’s second to God in my life, and I know I’m second to God in her life. We put God first, and the funny thing is that it includes her, it includes me because God is inside of everyone and everything.

So, that’s not to say how great I am because I almost died having to learn that principle. And you see, when Don introduced me to God, his mission was done. He left. He left, and he passed the torch to me, and now I have it and hopefully I’m introducing you to God, the God of your being.

So that’s companionship. That’s how Christ lives companionship – by being a companion. By pouring out love, by serving God through God’s creation. Now that’s how Christhood practices companionship, and it’s never alone because all that the Father has is mine.

And what about supply? As long as you’re thinking in terms of I need to demonstrate money; I don’t have enough of it. Well, you’re lost. It’s not gonna work or it’s not gonna work very long. Again, companionship is not something you get. You know now from the story that I just gave it’s something you give, you pour it out from within you. And so if you’re going to demonstrate your Christhood the principle must be the same with supply. It must be something you pour out from within your Christhood from the center of your being.

So now how do you pour out supply, especially when you don’t have any?

Well, that’s a mistake. There’s never a time when Christ does not have supply. “Son … all that I have is thine.” All that God has. What does God have? Does God have money? Now, really seriously. Does God have money? No, because God is an invisible spiritual Presence. God doesn’t have money. What is supply? If supply is not money, what is supply?

Joel always tells us the story about the oranges, and he talks about the oranges on the tree and when the oranges are used up and given away or thrown away, in one way or another an invisible substance begins to form itself as the oranges. You remember that from the book The Infinite Way in the chapter called Supply? And he says in the Kailua study series that evidently very few people have hooked that up, that principle up with themselves. And you know it because they’re not demonstrating supply! They’re still calling him. “Oh, please help me. I have a problem with supply.” It’s because they’re thinking of supply as money, finances, stocks, bonds, income, and that’s not supply at all. Then what is supply?

I discovered it like this. I discovered it in this, pretty near the same experience I just shared with you, that by pouring out love, life gave me love back. That waitress seeing across that restaurant came and gave me love in the form of service to me. That was the love that I had poured out. It comes back heaped up, pressed down, and running over. Christ Jesus did not lie. That principle is correct. To him that hath, it shall be given.

And Joel points out that there are many ways to prove that you have. How do you prove that you have supply? Well, how did I prove that I had love? By giving it away. Right? Right! How do I prove I have money? Let’s take money. How do I prove that I have money, that I own it, that it’s mine. I prove it by giving it away. Now remember, I’m telling you this principle not so that you will think how great I am. Please! Don’t go there. But so that you can see how to live it, how to live your Christhood.

Now last month we gave away over a thousand dollars. We don’t give that much every month, but we give something every month, and last month it just happened to be over a thousand dollars. It was the right thing to do. It seemed indicated, and I can tell you that the more that you pour out, the more comes back. But if you do it for that reason, if you start taking inventory like an accountant and keeping track – well, let’s see now. I gave away two hundred dollars, so some thirty, some hundred – I should get back at least, you know, six hundred dollars. Just don’t go there! Just don’t do that. Okay? It’s all and – it’s all and nothing. It’s a thousand to nothing.

Our job is to live our Christhood and not worry about how life will give – reflect that back to us. We can know that it’ll be heaped up, pressed down, and running over and that will be filled with joy, and that’s all we need to know. And so last month we gave away over a thousand dollars to different places, and we can sit back and rest and know that the universe is going to pour that back somehow. I don’t know how. I know it’s already started because several people have also given to us online as well as in other ways. Finding gifts in the post office box.

Now that’s one way. You can pour out money, and Joel says you can even do that even if you do not seem to have enough. You can pour that out in little ways and see what happens. Do you remember he discussed so beautifully how in the early days he would charge for his practice. Somebody would call or write or cable and say please help me, and he would help them, and then he would send out a bill for twenty dollars or twenty-five or whatever he was charging. And the people were having problems and they couldn’t seem to pay him. You remember what happened? I remember it.

He said he was taking a walk one evening and he didn’t have the money for a bus or a cab, so he was walking. And on the walk suddenly he had a realization: I Am That I Am. Only it was no longer just words; it was a realization, and he realized I am supply. Oh, I. Yes. That substance at the center of my being that in a tree forms oranges in me can form money. It can form housing. It can form cars. It can form clothes. It can form a body. It can form a companion. Yes, I am supply.

Now, if I am supply, then why do I have to look for it out here?

And immediately he made the decision he was no longer gonna send out any bills ever again. And people continued to call and ask for help and he continued to meditate for them, but he no longer sent out bills. And within a day or two somebody, he saw somebody in an elevator and they said, “Oh, hey Joel. I owe you two hundred bucks. Here.” You see, by pouring out, by demonstrating his Christhood by pouring out service and money, he stopped looking for a return and just rested in his Christhood, and the universe started pouring back, heaped up, pressed down, and running over.

And I know whether – I don’t know if you realize this – but I paid attention really close, anybody that’s living these principles I look at them almost under a microscope to see what they’re doing. And Joel Goldsmith gave away eighty percent of his income. Eighty – 8-0 percent he gave away to spiritual foundations, to universities and to higher education, different programs. He gave it away, eighty percent, and the twenty percent that he kept was more than enough to take care of him and let him live in the beautiful islands of Hawaii and travel the world.

So he demonstrated Christhood. And you have to start somewhere, so you give what you have to give. To him that hath, it shall be given, and that’s where I started. How do you prove that you have something, that you own it? The only way you can prove that you have it, that you own it, is to give it away. If I say I have this – we’re still talking of money here – if I say I own these five dollar bills right here, this five dollar bill, but I’m clutching it to myself – well, I don’t really own it. It kind of owns me. But if I have the ability to give it away here – yeah, sure, take it – without any thought of return, just pouring out the same way I would pour out love or service – then I prove that I own it. If I own it I can do what I want to with it including give it away. You see that?

So in relationship to supply – and now supply is that spiritual substance. Do you understand that? That spiritual substance at the center of your being which you have to find a way to let that imprisoned splendor escape. You have to find a way to share that substance in acts of kindness, especially acts of kindness where you don’t get found out; they’re anonymous. In flowing out your funds, your gifts of money, your gifts of clothes. In service. In time. In prayers when you pray for others. In love when you love God inside of his creation. This is the way you live your Christhood and prove that you have. You have companionship, and you are a companion. You have supply, and you can pour out things and service and money and love, and you prove that you have.

To him that hath, it shall be given. Now prove that you have it by giving it away.

Does that clear that up some? It may not change the picture out here in a day or two, but consistently practicing Christhood, the universe will reflect back to you Christhood and will reflect back to you all that I have is thine. Because the principle is: To those who serve God through their fellow man, the promise is literally kept. Son … all that I have is thine.

Now what about health? What about life? That confused me for a long time. I could see how I could pour out love and the universe would give me love. I could see how I could pour out supply in things and money and service, and the universe would give back supply. But I could not see how do you pour out health so that the universe would give you back health or life? How do you do that? And it puzzled me, and I looked at it and looked at it, and I finally came to see.

Well, this morning I went on a walk. Now I’m – in a few months – well, I’m headed towards sixty, and I took a walk this morning and I walked for about a mile. And here in the mountains it’s not a flat walk. You go up some really steep hills and down and up and down and around. It’s the mountains. And when I take my walk in the morning there’s a dog – you know this thing about companionship? Even the animals start to come to you because they recognize Christ. And there’s this dog that lives down the street and he sees me come out my front door and here he comes barreling up the street, just dying to be with me. (chuckles) His name is Rocket I found out, and so Rocket is rocketing up the street, and he’s about ten years old, and he comes rocketing up the street and wagging his tail and next to me. He’s like part wolf, so he’s really furry, and I pet him and I say, “Oh hi. Are you gonna join me on my walk?” And off we go and we walk for about a mile and we come back and then he slowly walks back home and I come in my house.

Okay, well when I share that walk with him and I pet him I am pouring out energy. Am I not? I’m pouring out life. I’m pouring out health. Now what about when you guys call or send me an E-mail and say, “Would you pray for me? I’m having this problem.” And I sit down and recognize that there’s no such problem and no such life. That right where you are, God is, and God is the life. God is the substance. God is the health. God is the only being, and all that God has is you. Am I not pouring out life and health? Yes, I am. I’m pouring out a realization of health, realization of life.

Now, again please don’t think I’m trying to brag. I’m not. I’m showing you how the principle works. I am involved in many places. I’m involved in a twelve-step organization and I work with people that are abusing drugs and alcohol and want to stop. And I work with those people because I myself had a problem forty-one years ago, forty-two years ago, and what freed me from it was spiritual principles. And so I work with these people to teach them to help them to learn these spiritual principles that they themselves might find the same freedom in God or freedom in Christ or freedom in whatever higher power they choose.

Now in addition to that you know that I work with the principles of The Infinite Way and teaching some of those principles and sharing some of those principles with whomever will desire to download these talks. And you know that I have practiced taking the old Herb Fitch talks from reel to reel, putting them on the computer, cleaning them up some, converting them into MP3’s and sometimes typing them out and editing them and making sure they match the talks into an e-book, and I even took the twenty-five tapes of The Revelation of St. John and turned them into a hard copy which was put into print as a two-volume set of books. And so in that way I’m pouring out the message of The Infinite Way to the universe.

You know also that my wife and I have special needs foster children, and these foster children have been severely abused and they don’t always come to us in the greatest shape. Often they’re very, very angry, and we have had little children that are violent, and we had one little boy that every night at six o’clock he would say, “I’m gonna get a hickory stick and beat your ass.” Little six-year-old. He was about three feet tall, and he was just spouting out what he had heard. And we had another child that would mark her room or some room the way a cat will mark it instead of using the bathroom like the rest of us. And we had one girl whose arm was severely burned because her father was teaching her a lesson and held it in the fire. And we had another girl who watched her father murder her mother while she hid under the bed. And we had another boy who had to wear eight sets of clothing, one on top of the other, to bed at night, and so I guess you can imagine what happened to him at night.

And so the point is that we get these children and they’re very angry, very hurt, and we work with them for a few years. And with these principles, these spiritual principles, looking through all that muck to the Christ at the center of their being, it doesn’t mean that we permit them to do these things. We tell them that these behaviors are unacceptable, and we teach them, we help them learn other and more appropriate behaviors, and they turn into sometimes very fine human beings, and even better than that, sometimes they begin to grasp these spiritual principles. The point is, they heal, and we’ve proved it over and over again. Often we get them with as many as nine medications, and usually when they leave here they’re on nothing.

So the point is, we work with these troubled children and we have for twenty-odd years. In fact, two more children and we’ll be on our one-hundredth child (121 now). And so, you can see – can you not see that the principle to him that hath, it shall be given, that I’m living that principle, and that that is living Christhood. Pouring out in the twelve-step program, pouring out in The Infinite Way, pouring out with these children, pouring out in the neighborhood. This is pouring out life and health and love and service. This is standing a little to one side instead of being selfish and self-centered, and allowing Christ to be demonstrated.

In the silence, when I become silent, I have a period every day most days if I can remember, I have a period where I just get quiet and let the Christ pour through. I just feel that presence and I let it flow to whomsoever it will in a service to mankind. And so my life is filled with companionship, it’s filled with supply, and it’s filled with life, with health. But why? Have I sought these? Have I prayed for these? No. Oh no. No.

This presence, this presence within, this substance at the center of being, this wonderful, beautiful Christ flows out, forms itself in acts of kindness, in acts of service, in acts of love. Sometimes in acts of responsibility, but it flows out.

It pours itself out, and because it does I am standing in the center of Christ consciously aware of It forming itself, and I know that I will never be alone, and I know that all that the Father hath is mine, and I know that my life, God life, Christ life, is eternal and will never die. And so I am consciously aware of Christhood living itself, practicing itself. I am standing, living, being the principle: to him that hath, it shall be given. Heaped up, pressed down, and running over.

Now do you see that it’s time for us to stop thinking in terms of my supply, my companionship, my health, my life? Do you see it’s – it’s time to surrender all that? Just throw it away. Just let it go, I mean. Let it go. Bring your attention into the answer. Remember? Joel told us how many times that the answer’s not in the problem. Do not meet a problem on the level of the problem, and the problem is a personal sense of existence, and the answer’s not there! That has to die! So let it go. The answer has to be in the answer: To him that hath, it shall be given.

But it can’t be a principle you know with the mind. It has to be a principle you live or you allow to live you. You must be the Christ now pouring out from the center of your being all that the Father hath. We say that we are ready to die and be reborn. Well, this is the way it works. You die to a personal sense of self and you are reborn as Christ living Itself, pouring forth that which the Father has, which is infinity. Yes, to him that hath, it shall be given, but you must prove that you have by giving it away.

Now, there’s not one of you hearing this that cannot begin to pour. It does not mean that you have to pour with things. You can pour with service and love too, which will eventually spread over into things and into funds. But eventually you must be the Christ that pours out in all of your affairs. You can’t be the Christ in part of your affairs and human in the other part. I remember when I was working in a factory I used to stay over and work just a little bit longer, and I had already clocked out. I did it just as a service to the company. See, there’s a lot of ways to pour, a lot of ways. And I guarantee you, it returns heaped up, pressed down, and running over.

You stand in an infinite kingdom. You stand in an infinity of supply. You stand in the ever-present, omnipresent companion. This is Christhood. This is why you are here. If enough of us will do this we shall demonstrate Christhood around the earth, around the world. And anyone, anywhere reaching out will touch Christ, and the torch will be passed, and our light will light their light until the universe is transformed from earth to Christ.

How about you join me? How about you decide now to step out of humanhood and begin demonstrating Christhood? How about you go within and discover that substance at the center and let it pour out itself. You will be amazed. You will be astounded. You will find amazing, wonderful things happening. You’ll find yourself – well, you will discover the temple not made with hands, the temple that will stand eternal in the heavens, and it will be your resting place. It will be your being.

Now let us be still for a moment while we see if there’s anything else left to pour out.

Yes, there’s one other area I forgot to tell you about. It may be important, and that is about four or five years ago I discovered that I could do something else besides go down and buy another copy of Windows. I have nothing against Windows except that I discovered that there were several organizations working on something called Linux, which is open source software.

Now what’s open source software? Well, that’s – you can take the software that they wrote, which is an operating system like Windows, and you can change it. You can package it, put your own name on it, sell it. You can do anything you want to. You can share it with anybody. It’s absolutely free, completely free a hundred percent. And I like that. And the people that were writing this software were people like me who had some knowledge of computer science and were able to program in the language of C or C++ or machine language or assembly language. They were able to program and so they wrote these programs and they gave ‘em away to humanity, and I like that. I like that principle. Something about that sounded really good to me.

So I investigated and I put Linux on my computer and I love it. I absolutely love it. I’m using Linux (L-i-n-u-x) Linux Mint, Linux Mint 13 (19 now) interestingly enough called Maya, which we know is illusion. (chuckles) So I’m using an illusion on my computer and I love it. I just absolutely love it. And I investigated it and got into it and discovered some useful things and I went on the web and I found different Linux websites and I shared things and wrote some tutorials and in that way was able to give back to the Linux community worldwide, and I donated some money to different Linux operating systems like Mint and Ubuntu and Solus operating system and Descent operating system and Debian and things like that.

So in that way I was able to pour into the computer communities which had already given me so much. And sometimes those gifts are anonymous. I just go online there and I find their website and I donate using Paypal and they don’t know my name because it comes to them under Mystical Principles and so I’m able to do that anonymous. Now I’m telling you there’s only nineteen of you, eighteen of you and hopefully you’ll keep it a secret and the only purpose of it is to show you that this principle can be practiced anywhere in the world. To him that hath, it shall be given. And so I gave away to these different operating system websites because they’re doing really good work and they’re giving it away to the world. You see?

So there’s lots of ways to give. Lots of ways to practice this principle, and I live by this principle. To him that hath, it shall be given. And interestingly enough, I didn’t really know until making this talk today that I am practicing Christhood, and I’m sure glad because it really has come back heaped up, pressed down, and running over. Anyway, that’s the principle today. To him that hath, it shall be given. You must die to a personal sense of companionship, to a personal sense of supply, and to a personal sense of life and health. You must demonstrate Christhood, and the sooner the better. You can’t live as a human. Remember? You can’t pull God into a human sense of existence says Joel. And he’s right. God will only express as Christhood.

And so you either stand on the principle to him that hath, and you begin proving you hath by practicing and demonstrating Christhood, or you stay in humanhood and prove that you have not, because to him that hath not shall be taken away even that which he hath because he thinks that’s all he has. All right? All right.

So now all of you need to demonstrate Christhood by pouring out from that substance at the center of your being, pouring out love, pouring out service, pouring out substance, pouring out supply, pouring out life, pouring out health, pouring out prayer. I expect that of all of you. I expect that you really do want to live as Christ. And so who is my mother? Who is my brother? Those that pour out their Christhood, and so in that sense I would say to you Happy Mother’s Day.

Blessings.

[Silence]..

Good afternoon.

This is Sunday, May 5th,  2013. Or Cinco de Mayo as it is called where I grew up in Southern California. We have just completed, most of us, perhaps all of us, listening to Herb Fitch’s series of talks from the 1990 Chicago Healing seminar and before that the Preparation talks and before that the talks I made called The Uncomfortable Talks, and this talk today might be another one of those Uncomfortable Talks. Because today we’re going to take the veil off. We’re going to remove the veil today, now – and as you know, Jesus was crucified for removing that veil because he made himself “equal with God.” So be still, be receptive. Listen to your own indwelling Presence and let the veil be lifted from before your eyes.

I am going to guess that everyone listening to this talk knows what the veil is. It’s had many names. Some have called it the glass darkly. That would be a dark veil, wouldn’t it? Some have called it illusion, Satan, Maya, hypnotism, duality, universal belief in good and evil, the belief in two powers, or sense perception, or personal sense. We’ve all read where Joel talks about the need to surrender, come up over personal sense, and that the personal sense of existence will bar one from the kingdom of heaven. And we see that, we read it. Perhaps we understand it intellectually, and then we put down the book, eject the tape, turn off the CD, click off the MP3 player, and we get up and we go about our business as a person. And maybe we remember once a day to think about God or read about God or hear about God. Maybe we even become still as a person and attempt to meditate on God. And yet the veil is not lifted. Still we continue in a sense of me and God.

You can see that this thing called personal sense is – well, it doesn’t want to move, does it? Yet that’s the very veil that covers a realization of God. Surely you know now, because I know I’ve pointed it out, what realization is. Or maybe you only know what realization is not, which is also helpful. A realization of God is not when you sit down and think and ponder God’s magnificence. When you sit down and envision in your mind, infinite, an infinite being, an infinite Presence. When you sit down and ponder the glory of infinite love, an endless sea of love. You contemplate these things in your mind, and yet there’s still a you contemplating a being. There’s still two, and if there’s two, the veil has not lifted.

It’s very stubborn, this sense perception. It does not go back just 40 or 50 years. It goes back 40 or 50 centuries at least. Do you remember when you were a child and perhaps you had a pet and that pet died? If you were unfortunate, it ran out under a car and was killed. Or perhaps it just lived out its years and at 17 or 18 it passed away. I remember as a child a neighbor poisoning one of our animals and so it died. Do you remember praying to God up in the sky somewhere it would take care of your little pet? I do. I always had a belief in God and I prayed, “Take care of Fluffy.” And you know – there is no such God. I was praying to a belief. Not only that, I wasn’t even praying to my own belief. I was praying to a universal belief. There’s no such God up in the sky. None whatsoever. Yet many of us prayed to just that belief, didn’t we?

And you remember going to church if you did? I remember being sent to Vacation Bible School because my mother was working and there was no one to watch us, so she thought that that would be a good place to keep us busy while she worked until she got off and could come pick us up. So off we went to Vacation Bible School even though my mother was an atheist she said, and there was no dad around, so she sent us to Vacation Bible School and there we learned to color and work with crafts and sing songs and go on field trips and be taught about a man named Jesus. And I remember saying to the – well, it was the middle of the day, late morning, and we were working on crafts of some sort. Think we were gluing tongue depressors together making little cabins out of ‘em or something, or maybe making crosses and decorating the crosses – something like that. And there was a man up front and I raised my hand and he called on me and I said, “Where is God?” or “Who is God?” – something like that. I remember he looked kind of frustrated with me like he didn’t want that kind of a question coming from a six-year-old, seven-year-old, and so he said, “That’s God,” and he pointed to a picture of Jesus up on the wall, and that’s the one with him looking sideways and the long, curly hair and the light glow around his head. I think that really that’s a picture of King James, but anyway he pointed to that picture and he said, “There’s Jesus and uh, I mean there’s God, that’s God.” He seemed kind of short.

Anyway, soon after that he announced a recess and everybody got up and ran outside to play and his aides and himself went outside to watch the children, but I remained behind and no one was looking and I walked up over to that picture of Jesus and I looked for God and I looked and I looked. I could not find him and suddenly this inner voice said, “That’s not God, that’s a man.” I heard it as plain as that. “That’s not God, that’s a man.” And I stopped looking and I went outside to play and I forgot the whole experience. I never thought about it again until 30 years later.

So some people have the concept of God as Jesus, the man that walked around 2000 some-odd years ago and taught. They have the concept that he is half man and half God, the only son of God, the only begotten son of God. God in human flesh. And so they pray to Jesus. And I had a particularly desperate time in my life when I was – oh, 18, 19 – I think it was 19. Everything in my life was falling apart. My wife wanted nothing to do with me. We’d only been married two years. I lost my job and was fired. They said I had an attitude that the world owed me a living, and I hated my guts and I was contemplating suicide, how I might exit this world, which I hated. Hated the world and everyone in it, but more than anything else, I hated myself and I wished that I was dead. And I remember praying, but feeling nothing. No return, nothing.

I wasn’t even sure if there was a God. I started to think people are fooling themselves. Maybe Mother’s right. Maybe there is no God. People are just calling it God and it’s really them. And yet, I wanted – I wanted there to be a God. I really wanted there to be a God, something that I could turn to other than myself. Oh, how I hated myself! And one particularly lonely night I walked in front of a stained glass window on the side of a church and I looked up there, and there was a picture of Jesus and he had a lamb or – yeah, he had a lamb in his arm. He was holding a lamb, and I looked at that picture and I prayed to the picture, “Oh, please help me. Show me how to live. I’ll do anything.”

And I waited, and I felt nothing, absolutely nothing. Because you see, that’s not God. That’s a concept. It’s a picture of a concept of a man that supposedly lived 2000 years ago that was the only son of God. And that concept, the Christian concept, didn’t work. I prayed to it and nothing happened. And I suppose if something had happened and a cloud had opened and I would have heard a voice at that point, you might be finding me on a John Hagee program or – uh, ah yes, Pat Robertson. (chuckles) I looked it up. Pat Robertson. I’d probably teamed up with him or with John Hagee down in Texas or something because I would have been a Christian if I prayed to Jesus and the sky opened and I heard a voice say, “Follow me.” But that didn’t happen.

But you know, at the same time that I was going through that I was going to a little room in the back of I think it was the Green Hotel in south Pasadena and I was listening one night a week to tapes of Joel Goldsmith. And I was really out of place because I was 19 years old and there’s all these old fogies in there, people in their 50s, 60s, and 70s – and me, 19. I never did fit in real well with people my age. I think I got here as a senior citizen. But anyway, I was listening to Joel Goldsmith and I couldn’t make it work. I understood – I had a really good intellectual understanding of the principles, but I couldn’t feel any of it.

And so I prayed to that stained glass picture of Jesus and nothing happened, because there is no such God. I’m not saying there’s no such entity, being, as Jesus. Please don’t hear that, because I’m not. I love Jesus Christ. I really do, and I have felt his presence many times during my life, but that night I didn’t. And that night the prayer did not work because that’s not God. That’s a man. That’s a man with a consciousness of God. And so it didn’t work for me. That did not remove the veil. And even if it had, if I had had an experience I would still have me and Jesus. I would still have two.

And so onward I went until finally in a few months after that I found myself on my front porch steps at two in the morning or three in the morning and I cried out and I said, “God, Jesus, Buddha, Christ, Cosmic Consciousness – anything, anywhere – I’ll do anything if you show me how to live.” And inside myself a stone had been pushed away because inside myself I had become teachable. I had most of the prayers in the Bible memorized and yet I became teachable in that early morning. I was willing to do anything if I could just know God aright. And it didn’t come right away. No, it didn’t come right away. And yet there was a strange freedom because I was no longer trying to pretend. Now I could do like Joel recommended and I could ask inside, “Father, God reveal yourself.” And my total being became that prayer: “Father, reveal yourself.”

And one night a few weeks or a month or two later I was sitting in my living room. I had just finished reading something in The Art of Meditation. I closed the book and I put it down, I closed my eyes, and suddenly there was a Presence there with me, and that’s the only way I can describe it. There was a Presence. And there was a touch on the side of my face, a tingling feeling as if – as if entering my being, within and yet without, all around and yet touching my face. Very strange.

And with it came a sense of peace and I knew it was – it was Father revealing Itself. And I rested and relaxed in that Presence. And I can tell you from that moment, which was 1973, until this moment, and it’s 2013 – so what does that make that? How many years is that? That’s exactly 40 years, isn’t it? Forty years, and I’ve never, ever, ever been without that Presence. Oh, I don’t mean it’s there all the time during the day and night every single day and night. That’s not what I mean. I mean it’s there at some time during the day and night. And sometimes it takes over and is running everything. At other times it lingers in the background, but that Presence, that Omnipresence, the conscious awareness of Omnipresence has never left my being.

Yet as I sat in that chair there was me and there was the Presence, still a state of duality. Still the veil was not lifted entirely. And perhaps all of you have had your own experience. Have you? Have you had the experience of feeling in your meditation the Presence? Have you felt what I have called the Spirit moving over the face of the deep within your being? Have you been consciously aware of invisible Self? Have you heard a still, small voice? Have you felt lifted up by a divine light? Have you felt – well, here’s what Joel says. Joel says:

My sense of God is that of an indescribable Presence and feeling. I do not know God except through feeling. I feel the Presence all through me, through my chest, through my fingertips. No matter what the external circumstances are, even when at times they might seem discordant, I am always conscious of this Presence, a sensing, a feeling, an awareness.

And he comes closest to describing what I experience, because I also call it a Presence, or the Presence, or just It or I. At any rate, it is something that I feel. I feel its movement through my being, and I can’t describe that any better than he could. What did he mean when he said he feels that Presence moving through his chest? I do not know. I do not know. I’ve asked him, but he’s never shown me. What do I mean when I say to you I feel the movement of Spirit over the face of the deep? I feel it move across the waters of my inner consciousness. You – you don’t know, and I can’t describe it. But I know that’s what it is when I feel its movement.

So perhaps you’ve had your own experience as light. Maybe you felt flooded with divine love or perhaps resting back on a sea of Spirit or floating on a cloud of unknowing. However you have experienced the Presence, you surely must have by now, if you are one of the 19 or 20 people listening to these Uncomfortable Talks, surely you must have felt the Presence somewhere, sometime.

And you’ve prayed to this Presence, haven’t you? I know you have because I have. And perhaps it did not respond. Maybe there was no response because you located that Presence that you felt somewhere out there. Maybe you located that Presence in the deity of Jesus the Christ. Maybe you located that Presence in Siddhartha, in Buddha. Maybe you’ve located that Presence in Krishna or maybe even Moses, Elijah, Joel Goldsmith, Herb Fitch. Maybe you’ve located that Presence in Bill Skiles. And if you have and you’ve prayed to it, I am sure you’ve had no response because you still have me and that Presence.

And that my dear friends is the veil. That’s the veil. Now how do you have the veil removed? Well, over here there’s a chapter in Beyond Words and Thoughts called Truth Unveiled, and in it we are given a few hints. Listen.

On the Mount, in a high state of consciousness, Moses realized I AM, and thereby became I AM. Yet, there remained … a sense of Moses as is evidenced by the fact that he spoke of himself as being slow of speech. [And so he still had the I AM Presence and Moses, did he not?]

Jesus, however, not only knew the truth but realized and became the Truth: “I am the way, the truth, and the life.” [Or I am the Presence.] Nevertheless, a sense of Jesus, the man, remained, because he said, “I can of mine own self do nothing …. If I bear witness of myself, my witness is not true.” This personal sense of self had to be crucified, as … it must be in all of us, or we will not … [have the veil lifted].

Jesus’ realization of the need to crucify, or rise above, the … mortal sense of self, enabled him to make the ascension. [Now here’s the biggest clue I have ever found]. The ascension is always the same: a rising above mind, above knowing the truth, to Truth Itself.

And so the veil is the mind that knows the truth. The veil is the mind that knows God in the sky. The veil is the mind that knows God in a man, in Jesus. The veil is the mind that knows God as a Presence somewhere, here today, not here tomorrow, back again the next day. The veil is the mind that knows. Yet, how many times have we been told the natural mind receiveth not God, for God is known only through spiritual discernment. And so the veil is the mind that knows. This is the veil. This is the glass darkly.

Anything you can know with the mind, any truth you know with the mind, any truth you have ever known with the mind is the veil.

Now says Joel:

In many classes and even in some of the Writings, I have said … I did not understand the reason for the crucifixion of Jesus: why it took place or why it … [took] place if it had to. It puzzled me, and [I,] I … frankly admitted this [says Joel]. It was not until the year 1963, when I myself went through the experience [of crucifixion], that the reason and [the] need for the crucifixion of Christ Jesus was revealed to me.

Now here’s a man, Joel, who flatly declares right here in black and white plainly for all time that inside of his being the mind that knows, was crucified. He went through the experience, and he says:

… after [the] … experience, the memory of it passed from me, and I could not bring it to conscious recollection, until later the entire scene was revealed to me … when I went through the experience of ascension: that [of] rising above [the] mind [that knows] to [the experience of] Truth Itself.

Now what was the ascension again? The ascension is always the same: rising above mind, above knowing the truth to Truth Itself. And so if you would have the veil lifted today, then today must be your crucifixion. Today must be the day in which you go beyond a mind knowing God to God. Are you ready? Are you willing? Are you able? Be still. Close your eyes.

A couple of years ago I introduced to you once it was shown to me the 1955 Kailua study series. In that – I said close your eyes. Now close ‘em. In that study, the Kailua study series, we were given the talk Experience the Christ and Experiencing the Christ, and in those talks we were taught how to pray and how to go beyond knowing the truth to Truth Itself. We were given a method. We were told that when a problem was presented to us that we were to know no truth with the mind. We were simply to close our eyes, refuse to respond with any truth whatsoever and simply to stand stock still. You remember?

In this which Spirit gave us through Joel it was hoped that we would discover each of us what that inner feeling is when Christ, when the Spirit of the living God moves over the face of the deep and announces Itself. And if you have had that inner experience, then you already know what that inner feeling of the Presence is, and so the veil is becoming thinner and thinner. And yet, it has not lifted because there’s still a you sitting there feeling the Presence. And yet, you cannot go beyond the veil until you’ve had the experience promised in the 1955 Kailua study series. You must have that experience first, which is why it was presented to you first so that you would have ample time to practice until the experience of the Presence of the living Spirit filled your being.

Now there is another step, the next step, the uncomfortable step. Joel hinted at it in that same Kailua study series when he said: Eventually, and he did it very quick at the end of the talk, just a paragraph or two at the most. He said, “eventually you’ll have to learn to do this also with the good things, not just with the problems.” In other words, when you’re looking at a sunset, when you’re looking at your spouse, your granddaughter, your grandson, your grandma, when you’re looking at a promotion, when you’re looking at a seminar, a spiritual seminar, when you’re looking at a beautiful lake – you’re to do the same thing. Close your mind. Close it to those concepts, the same as you would for a problem and simply turn within and open your spiritual discernment and wait. Stand stock still.

You are now to experience the crucifixion so that the veil will be lifted so that you may also experience the ascension on a permanent basis. But first the crucifixion. First you must become the living demonstration of someone who no longer knows any truth. You must become the living embodiment of one who rises over knowing anything with the mind. You must become a complete and total nothing, a state of receptivity, an utter and complete silence, a window to the Soul. And in the crucifixion of the mind I reveals Itself.

I cannot tell you ahead of time what the crucifixion will be to you, but I can tell you what it felt – what the experience was when I had it. Suddenly the Presence was there. I felt it, and I was realizing, resting in “I am in the Father and the Father in me, and I am One.” And the Presence spread throughout my body. I felt it. I felt that tingling Presence as my Presence. I and the Presence were one. And suddenly it filled the room I was in, and I and the Presence, that tingling light being was the only being, and I Am That. And suddenly it filled the house, and I knew I Am That, and I am infinite, and I knew conscious awareness was about to go infinite. And I, that infinite being, I Am. And there was no more me. There was infinite I, One. One being, one presence, one light, one life, one Self. Infinite eternal God. And there was a sense of be still and know I am God.

And this is an experience, and how your experience, what your experience is when the veil is lifted and there’s no more me and God, but only God, I can’t tell you what it will be. I can only tell you that it must be, and for this cause came ye into the world, that you might know God, whom to know aright is eternal life. And when the veil is lifted you will know “I am God, and beside Me there is no other, and I am Infinite, and I am Eternal, and I am beyond the beyond, and I am Omnipresence Itself.” And there you will find in that ‘now’ the mind, the little tiny mind that thought it knew something, is crucified. It’s gone, and the infinite Mind which was in Christ Jesus, the Omniscience Itself, is flowing. And you will discover that you live and move and have your being in this infinite consciousness.

And as we learned in the Healing Talks, any problem presented to consciousness – there’s no one to heal. How can there be someone to heal when I am Omnipresence? No. When someone calls or writes or asks for help, this is a concept presented to consciousness. You are to know no truth. You are to be still and behold truth knowing you. And as the crucifixion becomes complete, any good that is presented, as soon as you recognize it’s good being presented, you do the same thing. You stand still. You know nothing. You listen, and the Spirit makes intercession. Consciousness reveals Itself.

You have no more healing work. You have only to listen and behold consciousness revealing Itself. And as you crucify in each meditation the mind, then consciousness reveals its infinite nature, its infinite being always expressed as I AM. And it takes you and it dissolves you and it reveals I in the midst of thee am the only and the one Presence.

Joel describes this in this chapter Truth Unveiled as the Sabbath. See if you – well, see if you can feel this.

There must come a rest from the activity of the mind: taking thought for our life, fearing for our life, constantly knowing … truth … . There must come a Sabbath, and in this Sabbath [here] we live by Grace, because then we do not know [anymore] truth … [now] Truth reveals Itself … and we become the Truth [living Itself]. It is not an activity of the mind: it is Soul revealing Itself.

And finally over here he says:

As you have learned to work hard and long with the principles of The Infinite Way, [now, in this crucifixion] … you must learn to stop doing this … [you must] say to yourself, “Let me not trust in [the] … mind. Let me relax in God.”

And again he says:

You students who are ready for the Sabbath [that is, ready for the crucifixion and the ascension,] [you] must … [learn] … to rest back in [the] … realization: “Let my Soul take over [not the] … mind.”

For six days [he says] you have labored to study and train yourself, and those “six days,” … are for most of you many, many years. But there comes a rest …; [there comes the seventh day] there comes the Sabbath; and that is when you stop … metaphysical struggling … [you stop,] relax, and let Grace [let Consciousness] live [Itself] … .

And so The Infinite Way is designed, was designed to take us through the letter to the Spirit, to take us through the six days of labor to the seventh day, the Sabbath. To take us from the law of the mind to the Grace of God. To take us from knowing the truth to being the truth. To take us from the outside God and the concepts of God and the various myriad beliefs of Gods through the crucifixion, rising above knowing the truth, rising above the mind to an awareness of infinite spiritual being to the I that I am.

And consequently he tried to show us by putting that ascension and the experience of this ascension as the last chapter in his book The Infinite Way. After the chapter The New Horizon comes the chapter The New Jerusalem, and do you remember where we are told in Revelation that I saw a new Jerusalem coming down from heaven. Now the new Jerusalem is the new dispensation that comes out of the Consciousness which is in heaven. When the crucifixion is really complete and you have risen above a mind that knows anything, then Consciousness lives itself, reveals itself, expresses itself as the new Jerusalem, a new heaven, a new earth, a new Self, an infinite Self, I.

And so having experienced it, he gives us this:

“The FORMER THINGS have passed away,” and “all things are become new …. Whereas I was blind, now I see,” and not “through a glass, darkly,” but “face to face.” [Yes, the veil has been lifted.] Yes, even in my flesh, I have seen God. The hills have rolled away, and there is no more horizon, but the light of heaven makes all things plain.

Long have I sought thee, O Jerusalem, but only now have my pilgrim feet touched the soil of heaven. The waste places are no more. Fertile lands are before me, the like of which I have never dreamed. Oh, truly “There shall be no night there.” The glory of it shines as the noonday sun, and there is no need of light for God is the light thereof.

I sit down to rest. In the shade of the trees, I rest and [I] find my peace in Thee. Within Thy grace is peace, O Lord. In the world I was weary – in Thee I have found rest.

In the dense forest of words I was lost; in the letter of truth was tiredness and fear, but in Thy Spirit only [is] … shade and water and rest.

How far have I wandered [from Thee] from Thy Spirit, O Tender One and True, how far, how far! How deeply lost in the maze of words, words, words! But now am I returned, and in Thy Spirit shall I ever find my life, my peace, my strength. Thy Spirit is the bread of life, finding which I shall never hunger. Thy Spirit is a wellspring of water, and drinking it I shall never thirst.”

And see, Spirit is Thy Consciousness, Thy being, Thy Spirit which is the I of me, the I of you, the infinite I.

As a weary wanderer I have sought Thee, and now my weariness is gone. Thy Spirit has formed a tent for me, and in its cool shade I linger and peace fills my Soul. Thy presence has filled me with peace. Thy love has placed before me a feast of Spirit. Yea, Thy Spirit is my resting place, an oasis in the desert of the letter of truth.

In Thee will I hide from the noise of the world of argument; in Thy consciousness [see – Thy consciousness above the mind – in Thy consciousness] find surcease from the noisomeness of men’s tongues. They divide Thy garment, O Lord of Peace, they quarrel over Thy word – yea, until it becomes words and no longer … Word.

As a beggar have I sought the new heaven and the new earth, and Thou hast made me heir of all.

How shall I stand before Thee but in silence? How shall I honor Thee but in the meditation of mine heart?

Praise and thanksgiving Thou seekest not, but the understanding heart Thou receivest.

I will keep silent before Thee. My Soul and my Spirit and my silence shall be Thy dwelling place. [Again, my silence from that mind shall be Thy dwelling place.] Thy Spirit shall fill my meditation, and it shall make me and preserve me whole. O Thou Tender One and True – I am home in Thee.”

And so do you see how he waxed poetic when he experienced the ascension and the stillness and the peace and the oneness of I? And finally we have John describing the same experience as he witnessed it. This is John, chapter 1 of course.

In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God.”

And now you see the Word to John is: Above the mind that knows anything is the Word which reveals Itself in a moment of silence. And so he says:

In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God.

The same was in the beginning with God.

All things were made by him; and without him was not any thing made that was made.

In him was life; and the life was the light of men. …

He came unto his own, and his own received him not.

But for you, my dear friends, you will receive him.

[And] … as many as received him, to them [gives] … he [the] power to become the sons of God, even to them that believe on [him] …”

And so if you will step into this crucifixion willingly, knowing that it will hurt. Mind does not want to be crucified, but if you will step into the crucifixion, go through it, stand ye still, then you will have the power. You will become an expression of God, God Itself expressing.

[You will be] “born, not of blood, nor of the will of the flesh, nor of the will of man, but of God.

And the Word [will be] … made flesh, and [dwell] … among us, (and we [will behold] … [the] … glory, … as of the only begotten of the Father,) full of grace and truth.”

And do you see John is describing the same experience, the experience of crucifixion, which he also went through, he and Joel, and the experience of the ascension. Now do you see why these talks are so uncomfortable? Because inevitably this is the path which Christ Jesus laid before us so that we may follow. Pick up our cross and follow and be crucified and rise again and experience a new Self, an infinite Self, an eternal Self. One divine, infinite, spiritual omnipresent Self as an experience, as a reality. Not something you can describe. Not something the mind can discuss. Something spiritually discerned.

So I invite you all, and we’re going to close with one more time realizing this:

Jesus’ [the Christ’s] realization of the need to crucify, or rise above, the … mortal sense of self, [the mortal mind which knows truth] enabled him to make the ascension. The ascension is always the same: a rising above mind, above knowing the truth, to Truth Itself.”

This journey is really an Infinite Way. This journey leads you out of mortality, out of a mind that can know mortality, into an eternal everywhere Self. And there is but one Self, and I, the I of you, am That.

You can do this. I know. I will help you. I will give you life eternal. I am the resurrection. Be still and know I am God.

[Silence]..

 

Good morning.

This is March 17, 2013. I know my voice sounds a little strange, and that’s because in the last week or so I’ve been bombarded with reminders of allergy season, and I was so busy I didn’t sit down and do anything about it, so here I am with a perfect demonstration of allergies. But I’m not taking it too serious and hopefully you won’t either.

Well, it’s been a couple weeks. Nothing really hit me last week, so I took it as a feeling that I should just take the day off. I don’t mean the day off from meditating, but the day off from talking. And this morning I picked up a book I haven’t looked at in a long time called The Joel S. Goldsmith Reader. It says a selection from the writings of America’s most renowned teacher and spiritual healer. And I happened to have a bookmark in there, and I wondered what I had bookmarked. And I picked it up and opened it up to the place, and it’s a subsection called Spiritual Consciousness Reveals Reality, and the interesting thing is it sort of picks up right where we left off two weeks ago. It says:

You may wonder then, why there are such things as rotting trees or erupting volcanoes. Are they, also, of the essence of God? No, they represent our concept of that which actually is there.

And so there you see it and there you hear it. We are looking at our concept of God and calling it a rotting tree or an erupting volcano or an earthquake or allergy season.

In the kingdom of God, there is never a rotting tree, nor are there any destructive or disruptive forces operative. The German mystic, Jacob Boehme, saw through the trees and through the grass to reality. To all mystics, it is as though the world opens up and they see the world as God made it.

What does that mean “the world opens up”? It means that when you have the spiritual sense of existence, the world opens up. He explained it in his chapter The New Horizon. There he says what Jacob Boehme experienced. Here he tells us what he experienced and what he experiences. He says:

… in this moment of uplifted consciousness, we are able, even though faintly, to see ourselves free of material, mortal, human, and legal laws. … [He says]: The fetters of finite existence … fall away …

The “wider, grander view” is coming into focus. The freedom of divine being is becoming apparent.

The experience at first is like watching the world disappear over a horizon and drop down from before us. There is no attachment to this world, no desire to hold onto it – probably because to a great extent the experience does not come until a great measure of our desire for the things of “this world” has been overcome. At first we cannot speak of it. There is a sense of “‘Touch me not; for I am not yet ascended’ – I am still between the two worlds; do not touch me or make me speak of it because it may drag me back. Let me be free to rise; [and] then, when I am completely free of the mesmerism and its pictures, I will tell you of many things which eyes have not seen nor ears heard.”

And so he speaks of watching the world disappear over horizon and drop down from before us. In other words, like Jacob Boehme he says: To all mystics, it is as though the world opens up and they see the world as God made it.

God is the underlying substance and reality of all form, but what we see, hear, taste, touch, [and] … smell is the product of the human mind, or mortal … [mind or] material, finite sense. The sum total of human beings in the world, under what is termed material law – medical, theological, or economic [law] – has set up this finite sense of the universe which they see, hear, taste, touch, or smell.

Nothing is what it appears to be.

All right. If you have been wanting a healing, if you have been wrestling with a physical problem or a financial problem or a problem with relationships or any other kind of problem and you have been wanting a healing, today we are going to explain exactly why the healing has not come. And so if you will pay attention and take it serious, you will find your answer. And so he says:

All of us [can] … look at the same object, and every one of us might see it differently. Why? Because each one of us interprets it in the light of the education, environment, and background of his individual experience. To understand that what we see represents only our concept of that which is actually there is [very] important, because on this point we make or [we] lose our healing consciousness.

Now hold on there, hold on. What did he just say? To understand that what we see [hear, taste, touch, or smell] represents only [a] … concept [in the human mind about] … that which is actually there is important, because on [that] … point we make or [we] lose our healing consciousness.

So there’s your first hint. We’re gonna be specific later.

God created all that was created, and all that He created is good. Therefore, this whole world, whether seen as human beings, animals, or plants, is [really] God manifest. But when we see it, we do not see [God manifest] … . We see only our finite concept of it.

So where are we seeing that concept? Out here? No. We’re seeing a concept in the mind, aren’t we? And we’re turning to God and we’re saying, “Now how can I know these principles so that this concept will be healed?” – though we’re not saying it that way, because then it would probably alert us to what we’re doing. No. What we say is, “Well, what principle can I practice so that my body is healed? What principle can I practice so my supply will improve?” Is that not true? And your body and your supply and your relationships – these are concepts in the mind. And so you’re entertaining God, but you’re unaware of it because you see through a glass darkly. You’re looking at God, which needs no healing, and you’re seeing concepts, which need healing. Pretty strange, huh?

This is vitally important [he says], because it is on this premise that all spiritual healing is based …

On what premise? On the premise that was in the line before that:

This whole world … is God manifest, but when we see it, we do not see it as it is: We see only our finite concept of it. [So understanding that we see only our concept of the reality] – This is vitally important because it is on this premise that all spiritual healing is based, and a lack of recognition of this point accounts for ninety-five percent of the failure in spiritual healing.

So if you are experiencing failure in spiritual healing – it’s just not happening for you – it is because – well, there’s a ninety-five percent chance that you do not really understand:

(A) You live and move and have your being in God. You don’t have the conscious awareness of that, only the intellectual understanding of it,

or

(B) You don’t see that you’re living, seeing, hearing, tasting, touching, smelling a concept, which is a blinder, which is a veil before your eyes, blocking out the awareness of God. And so you’re living in concepts in the mind. But you don’t see that clearly. You understand it perhaps intellectually, but you haven’t gone down to the depths enough to see through the concept to the underlying reality. Something more is needed than just a human understanding of this.

So he says:

Many metaphysicians are trying to heal the physical body, and it cannot be healed,…

I want you to know I’m feeling and sensing this underlying Presence right here, right now, my friends. Let us continue.

Many metaphysicians are trying to heal the physical body, and it cannot be healed, because there is nothing a metaphysician can do to a physical body, but when he changes his concept of the body, the body responds to [the] … higher concept. Then the patient says, “I have been healed!” He has not been healed: He was perfect in the beginning. What was wrong was not in the body, but in his false concept of himself and of his body.

If you can grasp this idea, it may save you from making the fatal mistake of trying to heal somebody or somebody’s body.

All right. I’m gonna read back over here the beginning of this chapter where he says:

The German mystic, Jacob Boehme, saw through the trees and through the grass to reality. To all mystics, it is as though the world opens up and they see the world as God made it.

And you know how I have shared with you the fact that in many meditations as well in the class that I attended with Herb Fitch, Healing Outside of Time, I saw God inside of everyone and everything, and everyone and everything inside of God. The two were one. My Kingdom and this world were one. I was aware of the concepts, the facade, the cover – but also felt I – well, I saw through to the underlying reality just as he says. Just as Jacob Boehme said. The world opens up and they see the world as God made it, and that’s what I saw. I beheld the temple not made with hands. And this is what we must see, “feel” (quotes around feel – f-e-e-l) – that means sense with spiritual discernment – we must “feel” this underlying reality. And so for Joel he says:

When I see your body through spiritual sense, [that’s in his meditations] I behold you as God made you, and [then] you … declare that you have been healed. God’s creation is intact; it is perfect and harmonious, and that perfect and harmonious creation is right here and now. But this cannot be seen with the physical eyes. It can be discerned only through spiritual vision, spiritual sense – through spiritual consciousness, or what is called Christ-consciousness.

All right. So what have we learned here so far with just a page and a quarter? We have learned that ninety-five percent of the problems in spiritual healing come from not being able to stand on the premise that God is all and what I am looking at with the mind is concepts in the mind. Not being able to go into that deeply to where I drop those concepts, spiritual sense rises and reveals – It reveals Itself, the temple not made with hands. And so there’s the answer to why spiritual healing hasn’t occurred. And so he cautions.

Do not try to reform the outer picture. When you meet with thievery, drunkenness, or any form of degradation, do not look at it, [look] … through it. Do not look with the eyes. Close the eyes or at least turn away. Look through [that] … individual, [behold]… through your spiritual sense the reality of his being, and you will bring about what the world calls healing.

It’s always the same, isn’t it? We could make probably a hundred million talks looking at this from all the facets of a diamond, and we would see the same thing every time. “Not by might, not by power,” but by spiritual sense. So let us continue, because we’re going to go into that a little deeper. All right.

Look through the individual, [behold with] … your spiritual sense the reality of his being, and you will bring about what the world calls healing. With your inner, God-given, spiritual sense …

Ah – a God-given, spiritual sense – not an intellect, not a mind understanding, because now that’s a spiritual concept. Right? It’s a spiritual concept. Now we have a concept of spiritual being, but we still have no awareness of it. We have no consciousness of it. We have no feel of it. Without the feel of it, the understanding is what? Yes, you all get an “A” today. It’s the letter, the letter, and the letter does what? The letter kills. That is why up here he says don’t make the fatal mistake. If you can grasp this idea, it may save you from making the fatal mistake … Why is it fatal? Because the letter kills.

He is so tricky with his sentences, the Spirit working through him. But when you study these things, it comes to you. So …

With your inner, God-given, spiritual sense, look into the heart of every man and see … Christ, and there you will find the most wonderful healing force there is in the world. Then let your feeling [of the Christ] guide you. Get a sense, or a feeling, of the Christ sitting right there in the center of individual being, and when you reach that Christ you will have an instantaneous healing.

Now he did not say get a sense of the Christ in his individual being or your individual being. No. He said get a sense … of the Christ sitting right there [at] … the center of individual being, one individual being, and so in your meditation you and I must get a sense of Christ as individual being. Not 200 million individual beings – one individual being. There’s one Son. So all the work is within you. You don’t deal with somebody out there. Joel says take nobody in your meditation. Do not take the person into your meditation. Do not take the problem into your meditation, because if you do that you’re still trying to fix, trying to heal, trying to improve humanhood, and that means that you’re experiencing that ninety-five percent of the problem is you haven’t grasped the premise that these are concepts going on inside of you, being presented inside of you by the mind. You must see through these concepts to one Christ individual being, and then sense it. Feel it. Get a feel of it, of its movement, of its Beingness, of its Isness. So he said all takes place within One, and that One is the I of you. So he says:

To bring about a healing of sin or disease, do not be concerned about a human being or [a human] body. [But] Become silent within your being: Feel [feel] the presence of God, the presence of Good, the divine or [the] inner Sense, [capital S, inner Sense] and then you will not be tempted to think of any one person.

No. Don’t think of a person. Think of an individual infinite being called Christ. In fact, don’t think at all. Get a sense of that infinite individual being called Christ. So he says:

It is not necessary to think of the name of the person … [or] his form, or … his disease. The all-knowing Intelligence knows [all about that, so] therefore when you feel a sense of Soul, [a sense of Christ here and now] … you will have witnessed a healing.

And down at the bottom of this page in real tiny writing it says: For a more complete explanation of this point, see the chapter on “The True Sense of the Universe” in [the book] … Spiritual Interpretation of Scripturewhich was published in 1947 for the first time, so the same year as the book The Infinite Way. Very strange that in 1947 Joel presented the fact that you have to go beyond the letter to an actual awareness, and nobody caught it, and so nine or ten years later – almost ten years later, because he first started talking about it in 1945 – so that in 1955 he had the Kailua study series where he came right out and said we’re going to do this now together, and then he went around and told the other students the same thing.

But we’re here in 2013, and I have to ask you: How many people do you know even in The Infinite Way that have the conscious awareness rather than the intellectual understanding?

In other words, how many people have the spiritual sense that’s operating them rather than an intellectual understanding of the principles?

Not very many. Can you count ‘em on one hand? So, the path is narrow and few there be that enter.

All right. So I went over here to The True Sense of the Universe because I already love this chapter in order to see a greater explanation of what he’s talking about. And remember, the basic premise of that two pages we just read are – what? You’re standing in the middle of God, but you’re appearing mind looking at concepts. If you find the way through silence, through standing still, through meditation, then the world will drop away. Spiritual sense will take over and reveal Itself, and you will say, “Wow, I’m living and having my being in God,” and you agree with the New Testament and the author of that statement. Or like John you might say, “Wow, now I see the temple not made with hands, eternal in the heavens,” and that temple is one infinite individual being. And as you rest in that awareness, whatever it was that was plaguing you is dissolved.

The concept is dissolved and more of reality out here appears, or whoever reached out to that consciousness and is standing in the consciousness with you, Oneness reveals that where they are also this Presence is, and we call that healing.

All right, so The True Sense of the Universe. This is a powerful, powerful chapter. If you don’t have it, get the book Spiritual Interpretation of Scripture. This chapter more than any other in this book is the secret, and he says it. He says he’s gonna tell you the secret. Okay –

The beliefs we entertain about the body constitute our sense of body. [Right? Beliefs we entertain about the body constitute our concept of the body.] The truth about body is something entirely different from [your] … concept … of it. The body itself is perfect.

It is as immortal and eternal as God, Soul, which is the substance and Principle of the body.

Now you can look in the mirror and you and I would have to agree – uh – I’m sorry, this body is not perfect! (chuckles) It is beginning to show age at 60 years. Umm – what is he talking about? Well, he tells you.

Your body — seen through the universal material beliefs … [which is what’s going on as concepts in the mind] – was born, matures, ages and dies. [However] This very body when correctly known, [or] … spiritually discerned, is the very appearing of Soul substance, Spirit-substance, eternal being. It is neither functional nor organic. What appears to us as functions and organs are our false finite concepts of the activity of [consciousness] … appearing as spiritual body or spiritual formation.

So my friends you’re walking around – I’m walking around – we’re looking at Consciousness appearing, Spirit appearing, spiritual form, an eternal body not made with hands, one individual being, Christ. But we don’t even see it. We see the concepts, the universal material concepts handed down from one generation to the next to the next. And if we don’t see that clearly, Joel says we’re going to be attempting to heal something. We’re going to be attempting to heal one of these concepts, to improve it. In other words, we’re going to be attempting to add God to our humanhood, and it can’t be done.

I want to take you through this chapter if you’ve never heard it because it’s fabulous.

As long as we entertain a material concept of body, we will have concern for it — we will cater to it — … find in it both pain and pleasure. As we continue to lift our concept of body until we gain the realization of what our body really is, [then] we will find less and less of … pain or pleasure in it until we arrive at [that] … state of consciousness where we realize the body as an impersonal vehicle or mode of expression.

Think about that. We said in our last talk that, or we read that the Hindu mystics look and say, “Well, this is all illusion out here, so why bother. I mean it’s just karmic law that I’m paying and paying the price and when I pay it long enough it’ll stop. It’s an illusion, so I just accept it.” But Joel told us that Christ Jesus lifted that concept to a spiritual awareness of body, and then it was healed. Right? And that’s the difference.

So here he says: … we arrive at the state of consciousness where we realize the body as an impersonal vehicle … An impersonal vehicle. What does that mean? This is one of those uncomfortable things we don’t want to see or hear. Yet we say, “Oh, I want healing, and I want the healing Christ consciousness. Oh, but don’t tell me that!” And what is that that I’m referring to right here? The body as it really is is an impersonal vehicle. In other words, it doesn’t belong to you, the person. It can’t belong to you. It’s your belief that you have a personal body that’s killing you. (laughs) Literally. (laughs) You have no personal body.

And you know, he talks in the books and he talks on tapes and we listen and we read. Okay, yeah, it’s not my supply – it’s God’s supply. Well okay, yeah – it’s not my health, it’s God’s health. But here he speaks plainly. You have no personal body. The belief in a personal body is what’s killing you, because if you have a belief in a personal body, the person can die.

But here he’s trying to say: Lift it up higher. Lift it up. Contemplate, meditate. What is this impersonal body that belongs to infinite individual being? What is this one Christ body? Oh God, give me a conscious awareness of impersonal body, and when you have the conscious awareness or the feel of impersonal body, then you will know in an instant where we started, which is: It is as immortal and eternal as God, and it is perfect. You see?

It all comes down to that conscious awareness of, and so he says:

Every suggestion of discomfort or inharmony coming from the body must be met instantly with the understanding of the true nature of body as spiritual.

But you can’t do this in the mind! You see? You can’t overthrow a concept with a newer concept. I’m gonna overthrow a material concept by repeating all day long “the body is spiritual, the body is spiritual, the body is spiritual. It’s immortal. It’s eternal.” Okay? That’s not what he means when he says you must meet it instantly. Probably he should have used a different word than understanding. He should have said it must be met instantly with the awareness of the true body. See? That’s spiritual. Now that would have put us in a different direction. Ah! Okay, so I can’t do this on a mental level. No. Not by might, not by physical might can you wrestle and make God appear. Nor by power, not by mental power. Not by mental argument. Not by mental affirmations. Not by understanding. Not by a new spiritual concept – that won’t work. No – but by my Spirit. We have to go beyond the letter. Something has to happen inside of our consciousness, and that something has to be the awareness. And so he says:

Only as we understand that errors of sense exist merely as suggestion and false sense, can we find freedom from the pains and pleasures of the body. We are never correcting the body, its so-called organs or functions. We are correcting the false concept or sense of body.

You see? It’s not about getting God to improve this concept. It’s not about trying to make this concept into a spiritual concept. It’s about dropping all concepts, standing there still until the inner awareness comes. It comes – you don’t make it happen, and when it comes it lifts you out of the concept, and you have a glimpse of reality. Well, there’s a feeling, he says, that the world drops away, but this can’t happen, he says, in The Infinite Way – it can’t happen while you’re trying to improve it. But he says it probably won’t happen because it does not come until a great measure of our desire for the things of this world has been overcome.

You see, he’s not talking about whether you have to stop wanting money and you have to stop wanting fame and you have to stop wanting power and you have to stop wanting companionship. That’s not what he means. He means you have to stop believing that you can improve the concept. You have to step out of the concept. You can’t do that if you haven’t grasped the premise that you’re already standing in God. You can’t do that if you haven’t grasped the premise that what you see, hear, taste, touch, and smell is only a concept. So you have to go inside of your being. You have to read, you have to listen, but mostly importantly you have to meditate until you have the experience of stepping outside of concept and having a glimpse of reality or spiritual discernment. Then, then you open your eyes – wow! Hey, my throat is getting better. Hey, it’s disappearing. Wow! Then you come to see “My kingdom is not of this world.”

Now we can change that. My Kingdom – let’s change that into: My Christ Self or infinite individual being is not of these concepts. All right? God is not of these concepts. That’s what it means: “My kingdom is not of this world.” We already said no illusion is ever externalized, so this world must be this series of universal concepts. So My Kingdom, My Presence is not of these concepts. My Being is not of these concepts. My realm is not of these concepts.

No. because above these concepts is a spiritual realm, governed by Love, peopled with children of God, and so my kingdom is not of these concepts. There is nothing of God or reality in the world we see, hear, taste, touch, or smell. And he says in the other book, The Joel Goldsmith Reader, ninety-five percent of the problems is not being to grasp the premise.

He doesn’t mean not being able to understand it – that’s easy. But can you sit down and see through the concepts and stand still until spiritual awareness comes? Until it dawns, like the rising of the sun at dawn. Can you have that inner experience? Well, he says:

The failure of religion in this age is due to [not being able to have that experience] … . Theology is attempting to spiritualize a mortal concept … — called man. [And] This man and his universe is no part of God …

Why? Because my Being is not of this concept.

You have no personal self! Uh oh! And that’s the big one, isn’t it? There’s no person here either. Now if that doesn’t bring thinking to a standstill, I don’t know what will. There is no personal self. Joel told me, “You haven’t got one!” I asked him in a dream – what about this and that? And he looked at me and he said, “You haven’t got one,” meaning you haven’t got a personal self. (chuckles) Why am I working so hard then? Then he says that’s ninety-five percent of the problem. Not that you’re chasing after riches out here, but that you still believe there’s a personal self. You still believe in these concepts, and it’s killing you, and it will kill you. Ah, but not if you rise out of this concept, stand in the awareness of My Kingdom, My Self, infinite individual Christ being. Then you have stepped into your eternal Self, and the more time spent in it, the more it will become your permanent dwelling place. So he says:

This man and his universe is no part of God, because God or His kingdom is not of this world. [Or this concept or this man or this person.] Be assured that if God were in this scene there would be no wars, accidents, diseases or deaths.

That’s right, but you can’t pull God into this scene either, not by might nor by power.

God, the infinite Power of good, is able to maintain harmoniously and eternally Its own creation.

In “My kingdom,” the realm of Spirit and Truth, there are no errors, no … defeats, [no deaths].

[So] Prayers uttered for the purpose of healing, improving or aiding the people or conditions of [this] … universe, reach no farther than one’s own belief … .

God is the divine Reality of individual being.

Now again, he doesn’t say of individual beings. He said the divine Reality of individual being. And so in his awareness, in his moment of silence when he looked through the concepts, he became aware of infinite individual being – Joel did, or he wouldn’t say it.

To avail [yourself] … of the harmonious government of this Principle, it is necessary to drop all thought of human persons and [human] conditions; [you must] lose all desire to improve humanhood …

And then when you’ve lost all desire – there’s two parts to this. He’s told us over and over and over and over and over and over and over, over the years: You’re not going to do good spiritual work if you don’t have the awareness of the nature of error. You can’t just go around with the nature of God and affirm it all the time. Well, you can, but you’ll die in poverty.

You must have both of them to have a complete demonstration, and here he is saying it again back in 1947.

it is necessary to drop all thought of human persons and conditions; lose all desire to improve humanhood …

And then you don’t have that ninety-five percent of the problem. If you really grasp that these are concepts in here and there’s nothing to do out there and there’s nothing to do with these concepts except to drop them and stand there very still and wait upon the Lord – if you understand that and you do that, then he says:

… let the Inner Self reveal in Silence the harmony, wholeness and joy of real Being.

Not of real beings – real Being. One.

So, is he lying? Is he making it up? Am I making it up? Is Jacob making it up? Or is there a way to see – okay, this is a concept. There’s no personal self that needs healing, and this concept’s in the mind, and now whose mind is it in? Is it in my mind? Wait minute! There’s no personal self here either. Well now I can dispense with both of them. Drop ‘em both. Drop all personal sense of self. Now God, reveal Your Kingdom. Thy Kingdom come in consciousness, in awareness, Thy Presence. Let me feel Thou, or let me feel the One Self. And stand still. And there’s a way to have the inner experience, the Inner Self reveal in silence the harmony, wholeness and joy of real Being.

There’s a way to see the world drop down from before you. There’s a way to see through the world to My Kingdom. There’s a way to see through the appearance to God inside of everyone and everything, the one Infinite Presence. Because if it were not so, I would have told you. Yes, it is a narrow path, but it is the Way, the Infinite Way. So, I want to get to the real secret here. We’re coming up on the real secret, and Joel is very, very serious about it, and this was in ’47.

Spiritual good is not composed of more or better material conditions. No amount of increased physical health or wealth can testify to the reign of Spirit … . We rise above sense evidence to find the realm of the real.

See? We’re getting down to the nitty gritty, huh? It’s about two sentences. Actually, it’s one sentence. “My kingdom is not of this world.” And there you go. So he says:

Soul power –[or] that which we contact within ourselves — results in what appears to be health [and] harmony and wealth, but these are not the same as that which is attained through attempts [by might or by power]. The harmony in our affairs which results from our contact with our Inner Self, or Soul, is the manifestation or expression of Spirit … [It’s consciousness appearing] and [it] is the “added things” which come naturally from the realm of real substance.

You see? It’s consciousness appearing.

[And] Finite sense beholds [consciousness appearing] … or spiritual reality, as [the] objectified material [universe] … or “things” and “persons”. Spiritual harmony is not attained by seeking persons, things or conditions…

No, because then you really don’t have the understanding of the nature of concepts or error, do you? But if you drop that, if you stop that, if you have risen above the need to fix any of these concepts and you see it clearly for what it is – a nothingness, an impersonal nothingness – ah, then you’re able to stand still and stop fighting, stop resisting. You realize – ah – I don’t have to work on that and Spirit, Christ announces and reveals Itself.

by taking no thought for these and seeking only contact with the divine Reality of you [Spiritual harmony appears].

Humans cannot put on or wear the robe of Christ … The human mind cannot be spiritualized — it must be “put off.” [And a personal sense of self must be “put off.”] … Developing a sense of receptivity; learning to silence the senses … gain … the ability to listen for “the still, small voice” — this is the Way. Human thoughts — even good ones – [cannot] … help.

So in treatment to close the eyes and declare truths, [or] make affirmations and denials, this is not the way of … Spirit … . [No, this is the way of letter.] Be silent – hold a listening attitude, be receptive, be still — and let …

Now this is the second time he said let, or third, and it’s always in italics.

… be still — and let the presence and power of God be made manifest through Silence — this is the Way. [The Infinite Way.]

… It is a silent state of Receptivity in which … Christ or Spirit [or] … God is manifest as … individual consciousness. It appears principally as a [quote] “feeling” [unquote, he says] of the Presence, and [this feeling] dispels the illusion of sense … [or it melts concepts].

Okay? Now, let’s get down to the nitty gritty. And here it is:

I want you all to understand the great secret of the universe.

And remember, if you have this great secret of the universe you won’t suffer from ninety-five percent of the reason for failure in healing. So you might want to really, really listen. Listen within your being. Not listen with the mind. Listen with spiritual discernment.

I want you all to understand [this] … great secret of the universe. Had the ancients known it, our modern living would be … in a paradise.

If we learn it now … we can help to usher in [a] … new Millennium. [Or a new heaven and a new earth, new Jerusalem]. The few who have known this secret in [the] past … could not teach it;

This has got to be an experience, doesn’t it? You must have some sort of experience.

it would appear that only a very few had the spiritual capacity to grasp [it] … . Some few understood it intellectually, but rarely was it understood in its spiritual significance.

So here is the secret which will do away ninety-five percent of failure in healing. Here’s the secret which will allow you to see through concepts and have that spiritual awareness reveal itself.

I am not a dreamer of idle dreams [he says] — but I have a vision of eternal Life. I would not have you … sitting on a cloud or anchored with your feet on the ground. My idea and my ideal is that you be rooted and grounded in Truth; [in the letter] [but] that you be fed with spiritual meat and … you drink waters from the wellsprings of eternal Spirit and Soul.

[And so] The secret — that which has been so rarely understood — is that spiritual meat and [spiritual water]…; and the secret is this: The life which you behold in man, tree … animal [mountain, sun, moon, personal sense of self, personal sense of lover, personal sense of friend, personal sense of student, personal sense of teacher], [that] life … is not a manifestation of God, and therefore is not immortal, eternal or spiritual. The life of material man or flower is mortal sense … [It’s a concept, a universal series of concepts which dance through our minds most of the time]; it is a false sense of Life [capital L Life] which is real. It’s a false concept about infinite Christ being.

The understanding of this truth …

Deeply when you see through it, when you have the experience of seeing through it – not the intellectual understanding. Oh yeah, I can see how that is. Uh-huh. No. (chuckles) That won’t do. The depth of awareness that sees through the concept to the underlying reality of the Isness of God – that experience will enable you to look away from the objects of sense; it will enable you to refrain from attempting to heal, correct or reform the mortal sense of existence …

And what does he say elsewhere? We read it. When that has been overcome, then ninety-five percent of the problem is gone. Now you only have to stand there until spiritual discernment reveals God in your midst, I in the midst of you.

as soon as you have conquered the desire to heal or improve the material sense of existence, the spiritual or real begins to unfold and reveal itself to you.

Bang! There is the secret of living, of life.

As soon as you conquer the desire to heal or improve the material sense of existence, it means you’ve seen through the concept. You’ve allowed ‘em to drop away inside your being. Then the spiritual Self, the spiritual or real begins to unfold and reveal itself to you. You don’t do anything to make it happen. You can’t make it reveal itself, but once you’ve fulfilled the condition, the great secret, then it reveals itself. And he says:

Do not take lightly what I am saying. This is the Great Revelation; this knowledge will clarify for you the Master’s statement, “My kingdom is not of this world”; it will reveal to you the secret of John … who beheld the universe … not made with hands, but which is eternal, as Consciousness appearing; Spirit unfolding; Soul revealing itself.

And then down here in another paragraph he repeats it in case you missed it.

The life of material man, the life of … tree, the flower, the animal — this is not … Life eternal; it is not the manifestation of … life which is God; it is a false, finite, mortal sense of [existence] … . Do not attempt to patch [it] up … [but] … turn from it and … [now with spiritual discernment] discern the Life which is God; “feel” [with quotes, “feel”] through your cultivated spiritual sense this divine energy of Spirit; become conscious in the Silence of your Soul …

And here it is again – one more time – in italics:

Let the divine harmonies appear as you disregard the evidence of sight and hearing, tasting, touching and smelling.

Believe me [please, he says, believe me] — this is the secret of secrets.

This is Life eternal to know this …

Yes, why? Because in order to know this, the personal sense of self has to be dropped and you have to be standing in your Christ Self or your eternal Life, the temple not made with hands, eternal. And finally, he’s gonna repeat one more time.

Only to those who have eyes to see and ears to hear can this vision become a living, vital Presence. Only those who have heard what is said by “the still, small voice” and seen what is visible to the “windows of the Soul” can discern “the temple not made with hands” — [or] the universe of God’s creating [right here and now].

This inner vision, this spiritual consciousness, this Soul-sense, comes only in proportion as we accept and realize the great secret: the life of material man, plant or animal is not the eternal Life of God; it is … finite sense — the manifestation of mortal, material sense. This false sense of life must be put off, disregarded, un-valued, … [dropped –and then standing in that stillness, in the silence] the real Life and its formations … become evident and experienced [as your infinite, immortal being].

Now, is that not a powerful, powerful chapter? If you see it as I do – if you feel it as I do – then you know that this is – this is just awesome! Just, just – it is the secret! And so there’s two parts, isn’t there? The conscious awareness that these concepts, these universal concepts of a personal self are nothing and let them drop. No more desire, no more attempts to heal or improve. We just let them drop. We cast our nets on the other side. We launch out into the deep. We let spiritual consciousness appear. We let God reveal Itself. We let the Father reveal My Kingdom here in our midst. We let spiritual discernment reveal infinite individual being. And we rest in it. And we say, “Thank you, Father. Thank you. Thank you for revealing yourself. Thank you.” This concept that I started an hour ago, this concept of a person with allergies is gone. It’s gone, and now there’s only your Presence. Now there is only your Self, and Father, fulfill Thyself. And we rest. We rest back. God is.

Thank you my friends for listening, for always bringing your consciousness to this work and blessings, blessings, blessings.

[Silence]..

Good morning.

This is March 3rd of 2013. I have much to say to you today, and so if you will, please take a moment and practice the silence and invite the Christ to speak, and you will have a definite effect on this talk. And you say, “Well how can that be? You’ve already given it.” But that’s not true, because as you attain that silence and invite the Christ to speak, it will have a definite effect on what you hear, and so you will affect this talk. And because there’s no time, you haven’t yet heard this talk. It’s happening right now. So, if you haven’t done it turn off the talk. Find a place to be still, enter the silence, and just stop and listen for the Christ.

In the garden there were two trees. The one tree was the tree of the knowledge of good and evil. But there was another tree there, and that tree was the Tree of Life, the Tree of Eternal Life. For us – for everyone – we have been eating the knowledge of the tree of good and evil for centuries; many, many centuries. But those of us in this group have been invited to a new feast, a spiritual feast in which we might eat of the Tree of Life, eternal life. A life not made with hands, eternal in the heavens.

And so the invitations have been sent, and we in this group have each received our invitation to come up higher. To come out from under the law of the tree of good and evil and come into the grace of the Tree of Life. You have your invitation; I have mine, and it is my feeling that all of us are ready. And of course that means we must find a way to go from the tree of knowledge to the Tree of Life. We must go from the letter to the Spirit, or the experience of God. We must go from the mind to the conscious awareness. We must go from a temple made with hands that is destroyed, a body of flesh, to the temple not made with hands, eternal in the heavens.

We must make this transition this time. We have received an invitation to the feast. We must come now. And so to this end these classes continue. And today we want to – well, I happened to glance down and see this book called Consciousness Unfolding by Joel, and in it one of my all-time favorite chapters, a chapter called Peace, and this chapter has to do with coming out of the human mind and into Christ consciousness, stepping out of humanhood and into Christhood, coming out from under the law and into Grace, coming out from the letter and into the Spirit. All the same thing. And so I thought we might touch some of the high points here. And this first sentence is so beautiful I can hardly stand it. I want to just put it on my forehead or put it on the wall, put it on the mirror. Put it everywhere. Write it on my hand. And it says:

My peace, the peace of Christ! More healings have been brought about through absolute silence than through all the arguments metaphysicians have thought up in the whole history of the world. When you are called upon for help, sit down and get at peace. Think no thoughts; just sit and wait. Wait. Be patient and wait for the peace of … Christ to descend upon you. In that moment of peace, without a word, you will witness healing.

Is that not beautiful? It’s like the other statement that I love, which is: Stand still, and in the silence you will feel the movement of Spirit over the face of the deep. That’s the same as wait for the peace of the Christ to descend upon you. It’s the same experience. It’s just colored in different words. The words that I feel are the movement of Spirit. The words that he felt were the peace to descend. It’s the same thing. The point is that there’s an inner experience lifting you into that Christ awareness, or lifting you into a moment in which you witness, you bear witness to the movement of Christ. Now says Joel:

The only value a treatment has is to lift us to [the] … point … in consciousness where we are ready for [the Spirit]… to unfold.

You know, in other spiritual paths it is true that they all lead to God, but they’re not all the same path. And in many paths Joel quotes in here, and I’m going to read it to you, the Hindu path, they feel that this whole world is an illusion. He makes reference to that in the book A Parenthesis in Eternity in the chapter Reality and Illusion. He makes reference to how they feel that the whole world is an illusion. It’s all an illusion. So why bother! And he says:

[This leads]… to a do-nothing attitude.

It’s an illusion. Why are you bothering? Only God is. Well [he says], that may be true in the absolute, but here you have people suffering in poverty and sickness and at the same time saying it’s all an illusion.

Recently there was a talk by Herb and it was put up on the website and somebody heard it that follows one of these paths, and he wrote me an E-mail saying, “Why that’s absurd! This whole thing is ridiculous! Why are you bothering with any of this when it’s all just an illusion? If you knew that only God was, you wouldn’t even bother with healings.” Now I don’t think he took that tone. He was probably a lot more loving, but behind it was this belief that it’s all an illusion, so why bother? Yes. In the absolute it’s all an illusion. In the absolute only God is here. But what these people don’t see is that no illusion is ever externalized. The illusion is not this world. Illusion is the way you see this world. All right?

There is no illusory world. You are standing in the middle of heaven. You never left the garden, but in your mind, in the human mind, you have accepted and eaten of the tree of knowledge of good and evil, and so you have – well, Lao Tzu of the Tao calls it, “You have 10,000 things – the 10,000 things, 10,000 concepts. Concepts of good and evil.

Those concepts are the illusion, not the world.

If you find a way to drop all concepts, even if only for a moment, into that vacuum rushes the very presence of God, and it reveals itself as an experience, not as a theory. As an actual awareness, a descent of My Peace. A movement of the Spirit on the waters of your consciousness. And that experience is the Christ mind, and when you see through the Christ mind you behold the temple not made with hands, eternal in the heavens, or the Tree of Life in the midst of the garden. You don’t see the concepts, and so the concepts in your mind melt, and when they melt the picture out here changes. You haven’t really healed anything, but on the other hand, as the concept melts it appears as healing.

And so for you, you don’t have to sit by the side of the road begging for alms, full of disease, chanting over and over that only God is. For you, you are actually making a transition coming out of the human mind and the concepts of good and evil and seeing that this is a spiritual universe. And you bring your body with you! It is also lived in. But listen to this in Joel’s words. I think he was on a roll this day when he gave this. I usually underline the important things, and this whole two pages is underlined from the same book, Consciousness Unfolding. He says:

The Hindu mystic may let his body die and may call that a spiritual demonstration insofar as “his kingdom is not of this world.”

You see? The Hindu will say, “Well, so what? It’s a disease. Yeah, okay. But all disease is illusion and this entire world is illusion, and in fact that body is an illusion.” And so he dies.

But Jesus said, in effect: My kingdom is not of this world, and therefore, I lift my body up to that consciousness where my kingdom is, [ I lift my body up to that consciousness where my kingdom is] and [now] I show forth my body as a spiritual body. This great truth is illumination.

You see that? If you have the book Consciousness Unfolding, look at the chapter towards the back called Questions and Answers. And on page 231 you’ll find the most amazing, amazing thing, and that’s what we’re reading. So – The Hindu mystic may let his body die, but Jesus lifts his body up. Right? This is a world of reality. Now listen. I have all this underlined because every word is important and can be meditated on. This is a world of reality. Here (he has in italics). Here is the world of reality. Right here and now is God’s kingdom. This is not an illusion: This is God’s kingdom.

All right, now again I repeat.

This is the world of reality. Here is the world of reality. Right here and now is God’s kingdom. This is not an illusion: This is God’s kingdom. [But] The way we look at it, what we see through our eyes – that is the illusion. But the world, itself, is reality. That is why we do not heal or improve it. We merely change our concept of it, because it, itself is perfect right here and now. You are the very Christ of God, the very life of God, made manifest. [But] We see you through the eyes of human concept, imperfect, but you are perfect:

You see what he’s saying there? He’s saying that we are standing in the middle of My Kingdom, but we are seeing it as this world. We are standing in the middle of a temple not made with hands, eternal in the heavens, but we are seeing it as the concepts of good and evil. And so the illusion is not in My Kingdom. The illusion is in the concepts, the knowledge of good and evil through which we look and behold My Kingdom. “For now we see through a glass, darkly; … [and] later face to face.” But that later for us is now. We have come to that later. It is time to see face to face.

We have been looking through the knowledge of good and evil, through concepts. Concepts, concepts, concepts. We’re given them everywhere. We’re given them at school. We’re given them by our parents. We’re given them by our race. We’re given them by the medical field. We’re given them by financial wizards. We’re given them by politics, politicians. We’re given these concepts and all of these concepts, so many leaves on the tree of knowledge of good and evil. This is what we look through, and this knowledge of good and evil planted in the garden – what is it? Come on, let’s be honest.

It’s the human mind.

That is the human mind. The human mind is the knowledge, or the tree of knowledge of good and evil is the human mind. And so every time you use the human mind and see through it and live through it, you are standing in the garden eating of the knowledge of good and evil. But every time you find that moment of peace, that silence within, you are eating of the Tree of Eternal Life, which is also within. You stand in the garden either way, but on the one hand you see through all these concepts, the 10,000 things, and you don’t see the garden you’re standing in or you’re resting in. But on the other hand, you see through the Tree of Life, that temple not made with hands. My Kingdom, eternal in the heavens.

And so Joel is right. No correction needs to happen out here. What needs to happen is a transition in here. What needs to happen is for us to melt these concepts. And he refers to this in his very first book. I read it to you before, The Infinite Way. He says in the very first chapter, chapter 1, Putting on Immortality, he says – well, let’s read it from the beginning because it’s so beautiful, and I’m sorry if you’ve heard it before. Get out of that mind and hear it for the first time anew.

“In the Beginning was the Word, and Word was with God, and the Word was God …. And the Word was made flesh.”

Which is, of course, the temple not made with hands in which you’re standing. You’re standing in the Word made flesh.

The Word was made flesh” – but it still is the Word. By being made flesh it does not change it nature, character, or substance. Cause becomes visible as effect, but the essence or substance is still the Word, [or] Spirit or Consciousness.

In this wise, do we understand that there is not a spiritual universe and a material world, but rather … what appears as our world is the Word made flesh, [or] Spirit made visible, or Consciousness expressed as idea.

All the error that has existed down [through] the ages is founded on the theory or belief of two worlds, one the heavenly kingdom, or spiritual life, and the other a material world or mortal existence, each separate from the other.

You see? There’s no such thing as two worlds. There’s no illusory world – ever! That which is made is not made of that which does appear. There’s no illusory world. There is the real world, My Kingdom, a temple not made with hands, viewed through concepts. And so he goes on to say:

In spite of this sense of two worlds, men have always attempted to bring harmony into the discords of human existence through an attempt, by prayer, to contact this other world, or spiritual realm, and … [bring It, bring God], bring Spirit … to act upon the so-called material [world] … .

You see, that can’t happen, can it? God is functioning now in that temple not made with hands, and you’re standing there, one with God, God in expression, or the Word made flesh. But you’re up here in this mind, in this tree of knowledge of good and evil and the 10,000 concepts, praying that God would please fix his perfect creation. It’s a form of insanity, isn’t it? It’s spiritual insanity. So Joel says:

Let us [then] begin with the understanding that our world is not an erroneous one, but rather that the universe in which we live is the realm of reality about which [we] … entertain a false concept. [So] The work of bringing health and harmony into our experience is not … getting rid of, or … changing, a mortal material universe, [he says] … [the work is in] correcting the finite concept of our existence.

And there it is, the very first three paragraphs in the first chapter of the first book ever written of The Infinite Way. And so you see, it had been there all this time, but we had to come to the place where we were ready to come up higher, and we are ready. And so let us finish this part we were reading about the Hindu mystic in Consciousness Unfolding. And let’s repeat it again.

This is a world of reality. Here is the world of reality. Right here and now is God’s kingdom. [And you are in it!] The way we look at it, what we see through our eyes – that is the illusion. But the world, itself, is reality. That is why we do not heal or improve it. We merely change our concept of it, because it, itself, is perfect right here and now. You are the very Christ of God, the very life of God, made manifest. [But] We see you through the eyes of human concept[s], [through the 10,000 things], imperfect, but you are perfect.

A Hindu mystic looks at this “illusion,” and closes his eyes and says, “This is not reality.” [But] That is not correct. [No, not in the Christ path, not in The Infinite Way]. This that you see is not illusion: The illusion is the way you see it. [what you’re looking through]. When you see [the] railroad tracks that’s not an illusion. [The] Illusion lies in seeing them coming together. … You are not illusion. You are the presence of God, but what we are seeing with our eyes is illusion. We are seeing an illusory concept of you. So what do we have to change – you, or our concept of you? [He asks.] … Hindu mystic says, “This world is illusion, so I will not bother to heal the body at all.” But the body is not illusion. It is the temple of God, according to the teaching of Christ Jesus.

Let us never forget this: This is a spiritual universe. This is the kingdom of God, and the illusion is not this world, but the universal concept of this world. The only place this concept must and can be changed is in the practitioner’s thought. When the concept is healed in the practitioner’s thought, the patient responds. Why? Because the practitioner’s thought is the only place where he can behold an illusion.

You see that? The illusion is not externalized ever. The illusion is in the practitioner’s thought, but the practitioner knows this. He doesn’t try to change it out here. The practitioner knows it, so he turns within. Well, we’re going to get into – the second half of this talk is going to be what we do about these concepts. He goes within. He becomes still. He takes no thought. He feels that movement. The peace of Christ descends, and the picture changes out here. But it’s not really picture out here changing, is it? It’s a concept melting and more of the temple not made with hands appearing.

So this Christ path is very unique, isn’t it? It’s unlike any other spiritual path that has ever been. All right. So he says:

We go within and ask for the spiritual kingdom, and then it appears outwardly right here and now. [But] When it does not appear, it is because your inner vision has not yet been changed…

You see, your concept has not been changed. Now listen, LISTEN! If you want to know about healing, he’s giving it to you right here.

When it does not appear, it is because your inner vision has not yet been changed: the light of the Christ has not yet touched it.

You see? The peace has not yet descended. The movement has not happened. The awareness is not there. You haven’t gotten the spiritual awareness of the temple not made with hands. You haven’t felt its movement through your consciousness, through your being. And so therefore the concept cannot melt because you’ve been knowing these truths with your mind only, and the mind is where the 10,000 concepts are. And do you know your concepts of truth are a part of the tree of knowledge of good and evil? Yes, they are – which is why you have to come up higher than that mind, and that’s what the second part of this is going to be. So says Joel:

See the world as Spirit. [Because] Seeing it as matter is the illusion. The world is not matter. This is a spiritual universe. Sin and disease are not actualities: they are illusion or mortal concept. Once you see that, you will never again try to heal the outside, as if it were actually something you could heal.

Now do you see how the Christ consciousness is developed to the point where when you look at an appearance you know it’s only a concept, and then you go within, drop all concepts, and let the Christ move? See, that’s what he was trying to do for all of us in the Kailua study. He was trying to lift us up above the mind, and he waited 10 years. He said that. He waited 10 years for the students to be ready, and some of you have waited a lot longer.

All right. Now I’m going to take a moment to be still, and then we’re going to go into the second half of this.

Okay. Now that we’re convinced that the only illusion is the 10,000 concepts, what can we do about them? Okay, so getting back to Consciousness Unfolding, chapter 2 called Peace, we’ll review it again.

Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you: not as the world giveth, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.

My peace, the peace of Christ! More healings have been brought about through absolute silence than through all the arguments metaphysicians have thought up in the whole history of the world.

Because the arguments of metaphysicians, the affirmations and denials, these all take place in the realm of the mind, and the mind we have determined is the 10,000 concepts. It’s the 10,000 things. The mind we have determined, the human mind, is the tree of knowledge of good and evil. But absolute silence where that mind is not functioning creates a vacuum into which rushes the very presence of God, and when we feel its movement, it gives us and brings with it the awareness, the spiritual awareness of My Kingdom. And so he says:

When you are called upon for help, sit down … get at peace [or find the silence]. Think no thoughts; just sit and wait. Wait. Be patient and wait for the peace of the Christ to descend upon you. [or for the movement of the Spirit on the waters of your consciousness] In that moment of peace, without a word, you will witness healing.

Now just for memory, let us look again at what he says in chapter 12 of the Kailua study series, which is called Experiencing the Christ.

Let me show you the principle [he says] … . Every time you engage in denial or affirmation you are in the world of … good or evil.

Well now, see there it is, and I didn’t even know it. I didn’t even know it, but he’s in total agreement that every time you engage in denial or affirmation, you are in the tree of knowledge of good and evil. So every time you go into your mind and you see a problem and you quickly think of a truth and you say something like, “There is no power in this; only God is present” –you have just entered into the knowledge of good and evil.

Let me show you the principle behind [this] … [he says]. Every time you engage in denial or affirmation you are in the world of either good or evil. You are in the world of appearances or the world of the pairs of opposites, which is the human world [or the human mind]. And so even if you change a discord into a harmony, you … merely changed one human appearance for another human appearance.

Do you see that? Now he says:

the basis of the new approach is this: No activity of thought is a healing influence.

No. No activity of thought is the Christ, is it? It’s not the Tree of Life. It’s not the Christ in the midst of us. No, it’s the tree of knowledge of good and evil in the midst of us, which we have to melt. So the new basis is this:

No activity of thought is a healing influence. Therefore, no matter what I know with my mind, [it] is not going to heal anybody or help anybody or save anybody or bless anybody.

So the mind won’t help. You have reached the place in your journey, my dear friends – my dear, dear friends – where the mind cannot follow. Says Christ to the mind, “Where I go, you cannot follow.” So says Joel:

as I observe discords and inharmonies in the world, I am not going to take thought. I am going to stop … have no opinion, no judgment. I am [not] going to make … [a]statement of … denial or … affirmation. I am not going to let the human mind into this … . I’m [not] … going to say it is no part of God,… [I’m not] going to say the only activity here is God. [I’m going to STOP]. I am going to put the finger on my lips.

Also the finger on your mind. Also the finger on the knowledge of good and evil. Also the finger on the 10,000 things. I’m going to put my finger on my lips. Yes, we can fill our thought with a statement like “Thy Grace is my sufficiency,” but it must be something … not pertinent to what we are seeing, [or] observing. If it is pertinent to that, we have entered the argument. We have come into combat … We’re back in the 10,000 things, the concepts. We are going to stand aside and not enter the human [mind] … . We are going to stand aside [with no judgment] … as to whether this is the devil or God, … As if it made any difference … what [concept I have] … .

Now, you see? Are you beginning to see what he says we must do? We must take no thought. So says Joel:

that’s why I say, don’t search around in your thought for some [truth] … that will be applicable, because you’ll miss the mark. [Miss the mark means sin, right?] The further you can get away from any statement that applies to the situation, the better … you will be and your patient and your own experience.

So Joel is trying to teach us how to see the temple not made with hands, or My Kingdom, or the garden in which we stand. He’s trying to teach us to see with Christ consciousness. He’s trying to teach us to come above that human mind, which is the tree of knowledge of good and evil, which is the concepts. And so says Joel:

the point I’m making is this: In being aware of the discords of human existence, instead of drawing on … your head, on your thinking, on your memorizing of truth, now [I want you] to stand stock still, and let the Father give you the … truth … . Because [this] … is the way I have to do when I’m called [on] … for help. I can’t turn to [anybody]. [I can’t turn to] any memorized statements from my writings [because they don’t have power]. …

When I’m called upon for help, I sit down in an atmosphere of expectancy, [of receptivity] …

And so it is, when I am asked … for help, you [have] all notice[d] my attitude. It’s … one of listening. …

All right?

… Do not engage in controversy with any form of error. Stand still.

Now you can entertain a truth if you want to. You can entertain some truth that has nothing to do with the situation. Somebody comes to you and says, “I need help. I just lost my job.” You can say, “Man shall not live by bread alone” or “I am the Way” or “I have hidden manna” or something that has nothing to do with that situation, but that’s not the best. That’s not the highest. The highest is to take no thought. That’s the highest. And so we will aim for the highest. We will attempt when discord appears or just whenever we’re sitting down because we want to have a meditation – maybe there’s nothing appearing. Maybe everything’s perfectly fine. We will reach for the highest. We will reach for no thought. We will try to obey the Master. Take no thought.

We will try to do what our good friend and guide Joel has said, and we will try and STOP and inside of ourselves consciously realize that human mind is filled with the concepts of good and evil, and seeing through it, or using it to try to remember some truth or to try to grab onto a truth like a life preserver – using the mind at all, we are still standing with the blindfold of the 10,000 concepts, the tree of knowledge of good and evil in front of our eyes. And so it will not work. It won’t work.

We now have been called to a higher realm that is the realm of Spirit. So now when we are confronted with a problem or when there’s no problem, but we’re sitting down to meditate, we will come within, we will recognize and realize the human mind is the tree of good and evil, and we will drop it. We will stop. We will take no thought, and we will sit still. And as he says here:

More healings have been brought about through absolute silence than through all the arguments metaphysicians have thought up in the whole history of the world. … [And so sit down and] Think no thoughts; just sit and wait. Wait. Be patient, and wait for [the Christ], the peace of … Christ to descend upon you. …

That’s what we will do. We will wait for that movement, and if it doesn’t come, like he says in the Kailua study series, we will get up, we will go about our business, and an hour later we will do the same thing.

Learn to sit down and relax, [he says]. Whether the case is sin, disease, death, or unemployment; whether or not it is serious, sit down and relax. Do not try to “handle” it! Do not try to “work” on it. Do not try to “treat” it. Sit back and, in silence, create a … vacuum for God, for the Christ, to rush in. Sit down and relinquish the thought that the human mind is a healer: [Only] Christ is the healer.

We talked about that last week, how in that dream I was shown that only Christ can love unconditionally. Well, now we know here in this week that only Christ can heal.

But let’s get rid of some of those concepts, shall we? The Christ doesn’t really heal, since My Kingdom is perfect. But when Christ rushes in, the concepts melt and you see a little more clearly My Kingdom. And so as he told us in the very first chapter of the very first book in The Infinite Way, our job now is the melting of concepts, something that the human mind cannot do because the human mind is made of those 10,000 concepts. Only the Christ can melt the concepts. You and I must come up higher now where we can rest without taking thought and bear witness to the Christ melting those concepts, which then appears as more harmony out here. The harmony was here already. The harmony was here, but the illusion was in the concepts. So our job becomes that of melting or witnessing the Christ melting concepts. “My peace I give unto you, not as the world giveth.”

That’s our job, to sit in meditation until the Christ gives that peace which melts concepts.

The human mind is not the Christ, he says. “My thoughts are not your thoughts.” So what good then is all this thinking we have been doing? The truth of the matter, says Joel, is … the human mind plays no part in any healing. Now this is the thing I want to get across to you in the second half of this talk is that when the human mind is still, when the human mind is not functioning, when the 10,000 things have become silent, when the concepts of good and evil are stopped, then into that vacuum that you create, that’s your invitation to Christ within you. That’s your invitation to the Tree of Life, and it does flow into your being, into your consciousness. And when it does some concept that you may not even be aware of is melted, and more of My Kingdom is revealed in which you’re standing.

And so the effort is to be effortless. The effort is to be but a witness, and you may not ever be aware what concept was melted. You may not be aware of it. And you definitely won’t be aware of how it works. You won’t be aware of how Christ melts the concepts. You won’t. Which is why Joel says in all of his writings I have no idea how this works! I only know after the fact – hey, look, harmony’s appearing, so some of the 10,000 concepts were melted. You see that? The mind plays no part in healing including understanding how it happened! The best that we can say is “I witnessed,” like he says in the Kailua study series. It’s like the person on the stand in a trial. They didn’t play a part in it. They witnessed this happening, and the best we can do is say, “I witnessed the presence of God, and when I opened my eyes harmony, more of the Kingdom appeared.”

So when we know this, then our path is not like the Hindus. We don’t sit around and say, “Ah! It’s all illusion. We can’t do anything about it. No. We recognize – no, the only illusion is in the concepts, and this I can do something about. This I can be still, knowing I can do nothing about except be still and witness. Create such a state of peace, such a state of receptivity, such a state of listening, such a vacuum, that into that nothing the Spirit of God flows and the concepts are melted. This I can do. It’s called the practice of meditation, and it’s called The Infinite Way.

If your consciousness is imbued with this silence, with this peace, then it is imbued with Christ power. Healing takes place through the consciousness of the practitioner. The state of your consciousness determines the healing of those that come to you. Not that the healing is yours. No – the healing is the presence of God, the Spirit of God appearing as your consciousness.”

So do you see what we’re doing, what we’re about? You have been called to a new feast, feast of the Tree of Life in your midst.

We must know the nature of God and we must experience (in italics, he says) experience God. We should not go on … the next ten years as we have been doing up [until] … now, just talking about God. The time has now come when we must experience God. … [Do not]… pass lightly over this part of the teaching, because it is the most important part of all. We [you and I, my friends] must see God while we are yet in the flesh, … here and now … . We must experience God through our periods of silence, our periods of peace.

Now, in talking of the 10,000 things, he says:

[Do] You see the danger of believing that your affirmation or denial is necessary, or that you have to think some kind of a thought … [or think some truth? What] if you were in a position where you could not think?…

How would you heal without a mind? [he asks elsewhere].

That statement, that question haunted me. How would you heal without a mind? And the answer: Without a mind is the only way that healing can happen. You see, the Christ mind is your awareness of the movement of Christ. Only Christ can be aware of Christ. So if you are so still that you become aware of the movement of Christ, you are the Christ mind at that moment, and that mind melts concepts and reveals Itself, Its harmony, Its temple not made with hands, the Tree of Life in your midst. And so the answer is: How would you heal without a mind? By bearing witness.

It may be true that you could never get away from the presence of God, as the Hindus also believe, but you do not benefit by it simply by knowing that. You benefit only in the degree that peace descends upon you with no thought.”

See where we differ in this path? That is why on this path we practice healing, though now we know it’s not really practicing healing, is it? What we practice is meditation. What we practice is stepping out of – well – stopping the tree of knowledge of good and evil. Stopping it long enough for the descent of the Spirit or the peace or the movement of Spirit. And then bearing witness to its movement, to its peace, to the Tree of Life in our midst. And then watching, waiting, beholding as I make all things new. So says Joel:

If we could have [total] silence for the space of half an hour, true silence, we would find ourselves in heaven.

We would find ourselves where we already are, but we would be conscious of it, because the 10,000 things – that veil would be lowered, and we would see not through a glass darkly, but face to face.

Silence is God in action.

You know, there was an old – in centuries past there was a mystic that said God abhors a vacuum, can’t abide a vacuum anywhere. All you have to do is become empty of self – that’s the 10,000 things, the human mind – and automatically you’re full of God. And so says Joel in his words:

Silence is God in action.

But silence – understand silence now is just not this (pause for a few seconds). That’s not silence. That’s quiet. Silence is when you actually inside your being step out of the human mind, and it’s a state of no thought, a state of no effort, a state of no fighting, a state of no resistance. A state of peace, a state of stillness, a state of silent awareness, a state of witnessing, a state of just is’ing, being. No effort.

Christ told me in my dream I was flapping my arms rising up above humanity, the sea of humanity, and I looked down and I started to sink, and I knew that I had to flap my arms to get back up there a little higher, and suddenly this quiet, little gentle voice in my being said, “You don’t have to work that hard.” And as soon as I heard the words my complete being relaxed on that sea of Christ, and suddenly – whoosh! I was lifted up, up, up, way up. See? You can’t with the human mind flap your arms and rise out of the human mind. No. You simply rest back on this sea of Spirit. Feeling its movement, It lifts you out of the tree of knowledge. It melts the concepts.

You don’t know how! I don’t know how it lifted me. I just know that when I gave myself to it completely, totally, complete abandon, rested back with the allness of my being – instantly – whoosh! Christ lifted, and I was lifted way, way up. So he says:

… when a problem confronts [you], … whether [it’s your] … own or another’s, [please] … sit down … find that silence and … let, [let] the solution appear.

You see? Our path is a path of peace really. Let that peace permeate your whole being, and when you have accomplished that, sit with a listening attitude and watch the light dispel the darkness. Christ will lift you up, my friends. You are a witness, watching that state of peace do the healing. Be a beholder. How many times has he told us that? Only now, only to this day have you and I finally come to understand. Be a beholder of the activity of Christ. Watch it work in you, through you, and ultimately as your consciousness. And he says:

No mortal, [no] … human being, can see God or know God. Only the Son of God, the Christ consciousness of you … can … witness and behold the presence of God.

So that is why when you are not in the 10,000 things – that is, in the human mind, in the concepts of good and evil – when you are still, when you are silent, when you’re resting on that sea of Spirit and you suddenly become aware of the presence of God, you feel it, feel its movement. You feel that peace descend upon you. You feel the movement of the Spirit over the water of your consciousness. You witness the movement of Christ. When you do that – when you have that Christ awareness – you are standing in your Christ Self. You are the Christ, because only the Christ can witness that. And so you have left humanhood for that moment and you are standing.

Now that was John’s vision of the Christ, his vision of heaven while he was on this earth. He was right here. He was walking, talking, moving among people. He saw what no human brain or human eye can see. He saw the temple not made with hands, the spiritual universe, the spiritual body. That is what you – you, my friends – will behold when instead of using any thoughts you become a state of silence, a state of peace. When you have felt that divine reality, then you have seen the temple not made with hands, the body which is life eternal. And Joel told us in the Hawaii Hotel talks at the end of one of the chapters, he says:

It’s not easy to stop seeing human beings or the concepts or the belief in good and evil [or the 10,000 things]. It’s not easy to stop seeing human beings, [says Joel], but I finally made it.

Which is his way of saying he, too, saw the temple not made with hands in which he was standing and saw it with eyes open. He says on the next page:

The human mind is always offended at truth because [it’s] … a reversal of everything … the human mind knows. [Yes, it’s a melting of all the concepts]. Imagine saying to the human mind … when it is still and doing nothing, great and wondrous works [and] … healings can be accomplished!

And yet, that is what we are saying.

You, my friends, there are 18 of you – you have reached the place where you will be a witness of silence, peace, Spirit doing its work. There is a Spirit in man which can lift him up and guide him, and it will. It will, but the secret is – the peace that passes understanding. You see? You can’t understand that peace. You can never understand how it works.

How? How does this peace flood my being and melt concepts and suddenly I become aware of harmony in which I was standing, but I didn’t know it. We call that a healing. How does that happen? Just what does it do? We do not know. The mind cannot know. It will never know, but when you’re standing in your Christ awareness you can behold it. So he says:

Beginning today, at this very moment, remember: … your consciousness … does the work for your family, … your business, … your home, … your body. It is not some far-off God.

We said that last year – I mean, last week – seems like a year sometimes, doesn’t it? We said that last week. The only God, the only Christ there is is this movement within you when mind stops. And so It is what does the work.

It is your own individual consciousness when [it] … is imbued with silence and … peace.

All you have to do, and all you will ever be called upon to do, is to achieve that sense of [My] peace [or that sense of silence].

there is one thing … you must practice and achieve, and that is a state of peace within your … consciousness, coupled with the realization that it is your own consciousness which is the healing Christ.

In other words – well, he says on the next page:

All that the Christ consciousness is, is your individual consciousness when you no longer fear … hate … or love error … [or the 10,000 things or the 10,000 concepts].

You see what we’re doing? You see what the transformation is? See what the transition is? We are transitioning out of the tree of knowledge of good and evil, or the human mind and its concepts. We are transitioning out of illusion, as the illusion is only in the concepts. We are knowing that I never was this concept. You’re not this concept. Everything that I knew about you in these concepts is just concepts, and it’s a lie and it’s the father of lies.

Now we are transitioning out of the human mind. We are transitioning into a state of receptivity, silent awareness, witnessing the movement of Christ, the movement of Spirit on the face of the deep, the descent of the Holy Ghost, the descent of Spirit, the descent of My peace. When we witness that, we are standing in the Christ mind.

We are the living Christ, and that my dear friends is the only Christ there is, the only God, and that melts the false – the seemingly false – and reveals Its presence within and without as the only presence, and you open your eyes and “Behold, I make all things new,” and we see a new heaven and a new earth and a new Jerusalem descending. We see it. We actually see it. It’s a real experience, and we behold the revelation that My Kingdom is here and now. And what a joy it is.

And my love flows to you hearing these words, and thank you so much for your help today uplifting my consciousness. I have been blessed immensely, and I’m sure that you have too.

My Peace I give unto you: not as the world giveth, giveth I unto you.”

Blessings.

[Silence]..

Well, good morning.

This is February 24th of 2013, and the only reason I give the date is so we can listen to these talks in order. All right. The name of this talk I believe is The Inner Christ or That Inner Christ. And I’m going to share some things this morning that are my own individual spiritual experiences and not because – well, it’s not something I discuss very often because somehow it cheapens it if you discuss it. But in order to bring out the principle of the Christ within I want to start by sharing an experience or two of that Christ.

So I assume as in any other talk you have had a period of silence, a period of meditation, a period of listening first before you turned on the talk. If not, you need to pause it, find your comfortable chair or sofa, sit down and have a meditation. Try to be receptive to that inner Christ. You can even invite it. “Father, Christ, you reveal yourself. I am listening. I am attentive. I am still. Let your voice instruct me. Let me feel your Presence within.” Then be still until you feel that inner movement of Spirit that we’ve discussed in the past. And then yes, turn on the talk and listen.

And so in the year 19 – let’s see if I can get this right – 1975 I had been practicing meditation for roughly two years and one evening as I sat down to meditate suddenly there was a feeling of a Presence within me and without. Within and without – those terms become kind of meaningless, but as I sat there with eyes closed after reading The Art of Meditation for a little bit I felt a Presence and a tingling on the side of the face. It’s very distinct. If you’ve ever felt it you know what it is, and you know it’s not of this world. And that touch was within and without. And with it came a sense of peace, and I knew: This is Christ. And I knew it was from another dimension.

And in the weeks and months that followed for the next couple of years I meditated quite frequently, although I wasn’t sure why I was meditating at that time. I just knew that I needed – I wanted to be close to this Christ. And as time went by I had more and deeper experiences of the Christ. At one point I had the experience as I’ve shared in the past of closing my eyes and meditating on – well, I just said what came spontaneously, which on that morning was, “Father, lift me up into Thy Presence and let Thy Presence descend in me. Let there be no me, but only Thy Presence, and as I sat there in total receptivity, standing still, not moving – not moving my mind or my body. Just waiting. Not even waiting even – not really even waiting. Just, just resting on the sea of Spirit. Suddenly I felt that same Presence down my right arm, and I had felt it there many times, but it went then down my left leg, and pretty soon that whole half of my body was that tingling Presence, and then down my right arm and down my right leg. And instead of half of my body, my entire body was that Presence, and I knew it, and I knew I was It and It was I.

There was no me there. There was only that living, vibrating Christ, I. And then it filled the room I was in, the living room. I can still remember. All four corners from floor to ceiling, all four corners was that Presence filling the room, vibrating, vibrant, alive, and I was that Presence. But it wasn’t an overpowering, dominating feeling. It was a light full of pure white energy, Presence, Being. And then I knew it was going to go infinite. The next step was infinite from filling the body, filling the room, to filling the universe. And I knew I was going with it because oneness. And then the me came back and experienced a little fear: “What will happen to me if it goes infinite? Will I be totally extinguished?” That was the fear in a split second, and it subsided and I came back to normal. Except you can never come back to normal after an experience of that nature because now you know that the reality of you is Infinite Christ being.

And in 1978 I heard a tape called Follow Me by some man named Herb Fitch. I had never heard of him. I had heard tapes at tape sessions of Joel Goldsmith for quite a while. I used to go to South Pasadena and listen to those tapes. But never had I heard somebody named Herb Fitch. Who was this guy? I didn’t know, but I was invited, so I sat down at this lady’s home and I listened to Herb Fitch, and the tape was called Follow Me, and although I did not know it at the time, I know now Follow Me was a talk given at the 1977 Maui Sense to Soul series or seminar by Herb Fitch.

So I sat down, I closed my eyes and I listened to Follow Me, and I really could not believe what I was hearing. Here was another man who knew of the inner Christ, and the reason why I was so surprised is because – well, although I had read Joel’s books I had never met him, and there was no man on earth that I had met up unto this point – this was six years after the spiritual experiences I had that taught me that the inner Christ is the only Christ there is. The inner Father is the only God there is. And I found no one else that knew this. Yes, I found their writings, but no human being or no man that I had ever laid eyes on knew this.

So when I heard this talk, I knew that he knew, and I determined I would go to meet him. And so I tracked down where his next seminar was. This was in ’78, and the next seminar he was giving was the 1979, Avila Beach seminar, and I made it my business to find the money to get there and to go. And I even found out who was making appointments for individual appointments with Herb afterwards, and so I made an appointment for that Monday after the seminar to have an individual hour of his time. But you know now I really wanted to just look into his eyes and see if he really knew of this inner Christ.

So I hopped in my 1978 Toyota Corolla and I drove up Pacific Coast Highway 101 and I went to Avila Beach and I got my hotel room at the Motel 6. Is that what it is – the inexpensive one? – because I didn’t have a lot of money, and I attended the seminar.

Well, on Saturday night I had never met him before. Friday night was introductions and a good talk. It may have even started Thursday. I don’t recall. I’d have to go look at the talks, but Saturday night was the talk called Healing Outside of Time. And it was all about stepping outside of time, and as he talked, and you can hear that talk. Just a minute – I’ll see which one it is exactly. That was class 7 of the Avila Beach Beyond Time seminar, class 7, Healing Outside of Time. And so that’s available on the website as well as Follow Me.

Now, I attended his seminar. I never saw him before this moment or these couple of days, and I walked in there Saturday. There was probably 200 people, maybe 150, and I found a seat and I sat down and I closed my eyes and I listened. We had the meditation before the talk, I remember, and as we were meditating, from the back of the room Herb entered through the door and walked up front and sat down, and his books were there and the microphone was there and there was a Bible there and some flowers and a glass and a pitcher of water. And he sat down and closed his eyes and I continued to meditate. Well, he started to talk, and as he talked I forgot about myself and I forgot about the room and I forgot about him, and I listened to what Christ was saying through him. Not the Christ of him. I wasn’t listening to that. I was listening to the Christ within me revealing through him. I was listening to that one Christ which I had come to see is my center. And I had come to see this not by reading it in a book or somebody telling me, but by the experience that I already shared with you.

So I sat there listening and suddenly I was not there. There was none of me there. There was no room, no people. Somehow my consciousness was lifted up, way up high above this world. Joel says in The New Horizon that above this world is a universe of Spirit, and that’s where I was lifted, and I know it. And in that universe of Spirit I felt myself one with Christ, and Christ gave me something, and I didn’t know what it was. I just felt something passing from Christ to me. And yet there was no real me defined, but something was happening, and so I just sat there and watched, waited, observed.

And somewhere I heard a voice, and it was Herb’s, and he said, “Now we’ll take a 15-minute break –‘ or a 10-minute break – and then we’ll meet back here.” And so at the time I was smoking still and I got up and I went outside to have a cigarette. But when I opened my eyes before I got out of my chair I looked around and I was so light, I was floating so much that I started to giggle, and then I repressed the giggle because I didn’t want people to be looking at me like I was drunk or something, but I was. I was drunk on the Spirit.

And I walked outside and I looked at the ocean, the Pacific Ocean, and oh my God! I could feel myself as that entire ocean. I could feel the entire ocean in my being. I looked around the sky. I was the sky. The sky was inside of me. I turned around and looked at the buildings and the telephone wires and the asphalt, sidewalk, and the cars parked. And how strange! I felt every one of them inside of my being and my being inside of them. Nothing was dead matter. Nothing. All was alive, and I was all.

Then I turned and I looked at the other people standing. I looked at their faces. I could feel my face on theirs and their face on mine. The hard and fast lines weren’t there. It was hard to tell where I left off and they began. Or where they left off and I began. There was just a feeling of oneness with every direction that I looked. I was one with all and all was within my being, and my being constituted all. And I knew again – again, there is one Christ, and that Christ is I. And so Sunday passed, Monday came, and it became time to have my individual meeting with Herb session. So I went to his hotel room and I knocked. He opened the door. I was a little bit intimidated. I didn’t know what to expect.

I walked in and we sat down, and I felt an overpowering urge to say something, and so I said, “I need to tell you something, Herb.” He said, “Yes?” I said, “I need to tell you, you are not my teacher. I have a teacher, and the teacher is within, and the teacher is Christ.” And I remember very distinctly I didn’t really know what he would say. I thought maybe he would say, “Well, if I’m not your teacher, what are you doing here?” or – I didn’t know what to expect. But I had to tell him that; I couldn’t keep from telling him that. “I have a teacher, and it’s Christ within.”

And he surprised me. He said, “Can I have your phone number?” I said yes. I didn’t know what to say. I said yes, because remember, I was still feeling this oneness, not quite as intense as Saturday by Monday, but I was still feeling it. He said, “Can I have your phone number?” and I said yes. He said, “Because I’d like to give it to some students, and perhaps if they need help you’d be willing to help them.” I said, “Of course.” And so we shared a little more, meditated together, and that was the session.

And I drove back down south to southern California to Pasadena, my home, and after three or four more days the consciousness, that higher consciousness left and I was back to being a person, and I ran into some difficulties and some of my own character shortcomings popped up, and I felt very disappointed in myself, and I felt the urge to call Herb. So I called him up and I said, “Herb, I – I’m just not ready to help anybody. I haven’t even removed the beam from my own eye.” He didn’t make any comment on that, but he accepted that I wasn’t ready, that I felt I wasn’t ready, and that was pretty much it. And I didn’t think anything more about sharing or helping anybody or any of that for 30 years. And the reason is it took 30 years to discover why I never could help anybody. Only that inner Christ can.

Now I want to read you a scripture. It’s from John. I love John. John 20, and it has to do with Mary standing outside the tomb after the three days. And it says:

Mary stood without at the [tomb] … weeping: and as she wept, she stooped down, and looked into the [tomb] … ,

And seeth two angels in white sitting, the one at the head, and the other at the feet, where the body of Jesus had lain.

And they [said] unto her, Woman, why weepest thou? She saith unto them, Because they have taken away my Lord, and I know not where they have laid him.

And when she had thus said, she turned herself back, and saw Jesus standing, and knew not that it was Jesus.

Jesus saith unto her, “Woman, why weepest thou? whom seekest thou?” [And] She, supposing him to be the gardener, saith unto him, Sir, if thou have borne him hence, tell me where thou hast laid him, and I will take him away.

Now you see, she’s going to the tomb expecting to see Christ, isn’t she? But Christ isn’t there. Christ is not in that tomb. And even when she looks on Christ she doesn’t see him. She thinks he’s a gardener! What happens next?

[Christ says to her] … “Mary.” [And] She turns herself, and saith unto him, … Master.

Now you see? She’s looking at the tomb and expecting to find Christ buried in the tomb. Now that’s what I did my entire life, particularly from the time I first picked up The Art of Meditation, which was in ’72, until I had a spiritual experience in ’75. I expected to find the Christ in Joel, but Christ isn’t in Joel. Joel’s not here. I expected the Christ to be in Jesus some 2000 years ago, but Christ isn’t in Jesus. Jesus isn’t here. I expected to find Christ as a presence. Well, when I was a child I expected to find God as a presence in the sky by and by.

I remember when I was six years old and I asked during Vacation Bible School – we were all working with our arts and crafts things – and I raised my hand and I said to the man, “Who is God? Where is God?” And he looked very uncomfortable. He didn’t know how to answer the question, so he pointed to a picture of Jesus, and he said, “That’s God.” And he dropped it. Now let’s go have recess. Everybody got up from the tables and ran outside hooping and hollering and taking their balls and hula hoops and whatever else they had, and the teacher went out with them. I looked at that picture of Jesus on the wall. I’m only six or seven. I walked over to that picture, and I stared and I studied and I looked, and finally I heard a voice inside said, “That’s not God. That’s a man.” I felt a little guilty with that voice because I didn’t have anybody else telling me that, but I walked outside and went and played with my friends and forgot about it.

Don’t you see? Even at seven something was trying to tell me He’s not in this tomb. Why are you looking in a tomb? He is not here. He has risen.” And then as I got older and I read the books by Joel Goldsmith, I thought – well, Joel definitely had the Christ, but Joel’s gone. I can’t get – who can I find that has the Christ? And then as I began to have some experiences in 1975 I wondered – I wonder if these are real? I’m the only one that seems to be having them. Nobody else is talking about anything like this, and so when I heard that talk Follow Me by Herb Fitch in which he recommended finding the inner Christ, and in fact, suggested that that was the only way to freedom, salvation – ah, then I knew here is another who has the Christ. And so I went up to meet him, and yet the only thing that I could say was, “No, you’re not my teacher. (chuckles) The Christ is, within.”

And so all of my life Christ has been trying to tell me, “I’m not in a tomb. Stop looking there.” All my life Christ has been telling me, “I am within you, and when you are still enough, when you are quiet enough, I take over.”

You know, several years after that experience I had a dream. Let me see if I can find it because I think I wrote this one down. Hold on. Okay, now remember I’m sharing a dream. It’s pointing out a principle. That’s all. All right, this was in 2004, so this was after Herb had left and there [were] no other people around that I was listening to.

So in the dream there was a large audience and a spiritual teacher was up in front and I went up and gave him a ferocious hug, and while hugging him I leaned back and looked up into his eyes and I thought, “I love you so much.” And he looked down at me and then looked again, a double-take, and he said, “You really have healed completely, haven’t you?” Then he withdrew from my embrace, and he and several other people around the hall fell on their knees and bowed down to me, bowed down before me. But I started to object and raise up my hand, and they stopped. Then I realized – it’s not me they’re bowing down to. They’re bowing down to the God within me, and so I relaxed and I allowed them to recognize and pay tribute and even bow down to the God Self within me. There was no feeling of ego, just observing and allowing it to happen.

You see? This dream showed me I have to reach the place where the only Christ there is anywhere is within me, and I have to allow it to live Itself and even be recognized by others. I can’t allow – well, ego can work two ways. This false sense of self can puff itself up and say I’m so great, and of course we know if that’s going on, Christ isn’t. I haven’t had a big problem with that. Sometimes yes, sometimes. My bigger problem has been with the belief that I’m no good, but that’s just as much of a hindrance. Because while I’m walking around thinking I’m no good or I’m not good enough or how dare you bow down to me; don’t you know I’m just a human being – there’s still a self there! And that self is not Christ. And so both of those extremes have to go.

He is not here. Why are you looking at and in a tomb? And so when Mary turns around and sees the Christ she still doesn’t recognize him and thinks he’s a gardener until the Christ awakens her. “Mary.” And we go through our lives thinking that Christ is up in the sky or in that temple. If I could just get to that temple in India where the meditations are so powerful. Or in that teacher. If I could just – oh, if only I had been able to have some private meditation time with Joel. Or if only I could get some meditation time with Herb or with Bill or with Virginia.

Why are you looking in these tombs? You will never find Christ there. Yet, the Christ in your own being is calling your name. Awaken! Awaken! Turn within. There you will find the living Christ, not a dead Christ from 2000 years ago or even a dead Christ from 50 years ago in Joel’s Kailua classes. Stop looking in the tomb! He is not there! The living Christ is within. It’s within. And the only way to experience that inner Christ is by taking the path laid down for us in those Kailua talks in those chapters called Experience of the Christ and Experiencing the Christ and How to Pray. Those tell us how to open the door to the inner experience.

The whole purpose for The Infinite Way and every book ever written was to lead you to your own inner Christ, but I can tell you that for a while it’s kind of scary. It feels like – like Mary’s experience. “Where have you taken him? You’ve taken away my Lord.” That has to happen to you first.

First every vestige of a belief that Christ is somewhere out here has to be completely eradicated from your consciousness. And when that happens and you haven’t yet experienced the inner Christ, it’s – it’s just like Mary. There’s weeping that goes on. Oh, you’ve taken away the Christ, this Christ that I worshipped all these years. The Christ that walked the holy lands 2000 years ago. The Christ that came through Joel. You’ve taken away that Christ.

Let me tell you something. There is no external Christ. None. Zero. Nada. The living Christ sits on the well of your consciousness saying to you, “I am knocking. I am knocking. If you open, if you listen I will give you the Christ that springs up into everlasting life, that springs up into a wellspring of water. If you know who I am and you ask, if you know where I am and you ask, I will give it unto you.”

And now I tell you of another dream. The only reason I’m sharing these personal experiences is that you can see in my path how I was guided to this discovery in consciousness. In this dream I was in a misty, cloudy place. A realm where there was mist rising. And in the background, in the back behind me was a big gate and someone was standing here to my left, and they said, “I’m going back,” – meaning I’m going back to earth. They said, “I’m going back. I still haven’t learned how to love unconditionally.” And poof! – they disappeared. And I thought to myself, “I’m not going back. I don’t want to go back.” And then came the realization, “Well no, I haven’t learned how to – no, I guess I haven’t learned how to love unconditionally either.” And I knew that I would be sent back. And that was the extent of the dream.

And so the dream was telling me that we need to learn how to love unconditionally, wasn’t it? And that bothered me for many, many years. How do you love unconditionally? Every time I try the ego pops up with a different disguise, and there it is dirtying up the water, muddying up the waters. Just can’t love unconditionally.

Ah, but you see the experiences over the years have taught me no one, no human being can love unconditionally. No one! Only the Christ can love unconditionally. And so the answer to that question is: I know now. I know how to love unconditionally, and the answer is I can’t. Christ and only Christ within can love unconditionally, and so as I move aside and become a beholder of Christ living Itself, then love can flow unconditionally.

And so now I know the answer. The answer is to die so that you don’t have to come back and live! You can live on that eternal plane and not have to come back and prove this. And so again another experience points out that he is not in the tomb of humanhood. He is within. He is, It is, I am within. Now Joel says in The Infinite Way book in the chapter The Christ:

Spiritual consciousness is the release from personal effort in the realization that harmony is.

See that? It’s a release from trying to be anything in the realization, the inner realization that Christ is, harmony is.

This consciousness, with its release from personal effort, is attained as we find the Christ within us [as] a present reality.

You see that? You don’t experience a release from personal effort or personal sense and then have the realization. No. You can’t love unconditionally. You have the inner realization of Christ as a present reality and then you’re released from personal sense. See that? She could not see the Christ until the Christ Itself said, “Mary,” and she awakened and no longer found it necessary to look in the tomb because the Christ was right there in her consciousness. So he says:

The Christ is the activity of Truth in individual consciousness. It’s not … [a] declaration … of truth … [it’s] the [reception of] … Truth.

And so again and again and again we keep repeating: You have to receive truth in consciousness. You have to receive Christ. Christ has to be a living within experience, and there’s no Christ out there. Out there is this world and everything in it and everyone in it and everyone that’s ever been in it is this world, and this world is not externalized because no illusion is ever external. And so these are mental concepts. You’re looking at the Christ and assuming it’s the gardener! You’re looking at the Christ and assuming it’s your father, your friend, your spouse. You’re looking at the Christ and assuming it’s you, the person. And these are the tombs, and he is not here. He is risen.

However, in the real experience of the Christ in your inner meditation, when the Christ announces Itself, as Joel puts it, then – then you’re released from the illusion of the tombs. So he says:

… we attain an inner stillness, we become more and more receptive to Truth [or Christ] declaring Itself … within us. [And] the activity of this Truth in our consciousness is the Christ, the very presence of [Christ] … . Truth [or Christ] received and continuously entertained in our consciousness is the law … [unto] all of our affairs. It governs, guides, leads, directs, and supports our every activity of daily existence.

See – “I live; yet not I, … Christ liveth …” But it must be an inner Christ. No other Christ. Not the Christ of Jesus. Not the Christ of Joel. Not the Christ of Bill. Not the Christ of Herb. Not the Christ of Virginia. Not the Christ of Tony. Not the Christ of Bob. It has to be I Christ within. This one that grabbed a hold of me so strong that I was able to go up to the only person I knew with Christ and say, “You’re not my teacher. Christ is my teacher within.”

To many, [he says] the word Christ persists as a more or less mysterious term, an unknown entity, something rarely if ever experienced… . This, we must change if we are to benefit by the revelation of … Christ Jesus … [and] many others. We must experience the Christ as a permanent … continuous dispensation. We must live in the constant conscious awareness of [Christ] … active within … [You must] maintain … always a receptive attitude [within] – a listening ear – and soon [you will] … experience an inner awareness. [And] This is the activity of Truth in consciousness, or … Christ attained.

And so this inner awareness of this Presence within – this is Christ attained. And the inner awareness comes from a receptive attitude, and the receptive attitude comes from being still, and you become still – that comes from knowing that you are ready to go beyond the letter and have the experience.

Now, in this book Leave Your Nets it’s all about leaving these mental images so that you may have the inner Christ experience or the experience of the inner Christ. So he says:

The greatest force, the greatest power on earth, is grace.

This is Joel’s book, Leave Your Nets, the chapter The New Discipleship. See, if you have this inner experience you are part of the fellowship of the Spirit. You’re not now dancing around out here quoting Scripture and talking about Christ that Joel said and Herb said and Jesus said. No. You’re quietly, silently having the inner experience of the living Christ, the powerful Christ. And so Joel says:

Grace, which is the love of God for God’s children, is the only real power there is, and our demonstration of it will be in proportion to the withdrawal of our dependence on and faith in man, and the establishment within ourselves of [Christ] … .

You see, this book is all about leaving dependence on people, places, and things and beliefs and ideas and thoughts so that you may have this inner experience of the Christ. And when you first are confronted with the – let’s have it again in his words. Hang on. Okay, this is the chapter 12, Experiencing the Christ from the 1955 Kailua study series. In Joel’s words he says:

Now, the point … I’m making is this:

Now remember, the name of this chapter is Experiencing the Christ, and that’s what we’re talking about – how to experience the only living Christ. There’s only one living Christ, and it is within you. No other place can you find it. Not in holy mountains, not in holy temples, but you’ll have to find it within you. And he says:

… the point … I’m making is this: In being aware of the discords of human existence, instead of drawing on … your head [for denials and affirmations, instead of drawing] on your thinking, on your [memorized] … truth, now [from now on] stand stock still, … let the Father [the Christ] give you the necessary truth for the situation. Because [that’s what] … I have to do when I’m called … on for help. I can’t turn to a single soul or any memorized statements from my writings. … if I thought they had power I’d just let them do the work. No. I never go back to draw [on] … anything … [from Infinite Way] writings or anybody else’s writings … [not] even from Scripture.

There’s no Christ there. Why do you keep looking there? That’s a tomb. He’s not here. Mary, wake up!

No. From now on when you are called upon for help, sit down in an atmosphere of expectancy. He says:

… when I am asked personally for help, you all notice my attitude. It’s always one of listening, [listening] and then if I have anything to say, [I say] … it. Now that is to bring you to the point of experiencing the Christ. You experience the Christ every time a discord or inharmony appears to you, and instead of you making a statement of truth or thinking a thought … , you … turn within and wait until [something] … comes to you. … doesn’t have to come in words. It doesn’t have to come in thoughts. Eventually you’ll find that it comes in … a feeling of release, [ah, release] and you know all is well.

Now that’s what we said before. You don’t experience the release from a personal sense and then Christ experience. No! You go within, sit down, stand still from personal sense, and then the Christ releases you from personal sense. You’re free from it. And that’s what happened to me. I went into meditation in Herb’s class there. I went into meditation. I stood still. There was still a sense of me being lifted up, but in the experience of Christ, the living Christ, I was released from personal sense, and when I walked outside there was only Christ in every direction.

Now what had changed? What we just said. Only the inner awareness, the inner awareness that saw people and places and things in all these tombs and drove all the way up to northern California to find the Christ in another man. Why, it said, “I’m right here within you, you silly, silly being. Why did you drive all the way up here? I already showed you, there’s only one Christ, and it’s the Christ of my consciousness.

Every Christ has to die. You remember Joel said to us over and over again: All of these synonyms for God have to die. God is love. Well, where am I in that? God is Spirit. Well, so what! All of these synonyms have to die. Every one of them. Where have you taken my Lord? There is the feeling for a while: I’ve got nothing now! I was relying on this belief of God. I was relying on a concept of Christ. Now you’ve taken that! You’ve taken all the people with Christ. What’s left? I have nothing!

Now, yes – empty-handed you can come within. Empty-handed you can stand stock still. Empty-handed you can experience the Christ and be released from personal sense. And you can do this in every meditation. So he says:

That is the experience of the Christ. That’s the point … I’m trying now to see if all of us [can do]… . The method? [Don’t be engaged] in [any] controversy with any form of error. [Just] Stand still. If you must think … think something that has no bearing on it.

Let’s say that someone comes to you and says, “I have this cold. Will you help me?” And you close your eyes. If you’ve got to think – we really want to reach for the high place where we don’t have to think – but if we have to think in the beginning, then we must think something like: Well, he is not here. He has risen. See? That has no connection at all. Or – I am the Truth. But only one thought please, not a book or a paragraph. So I reach for no thought, but if you have to have a thought in the beginning to get to that place of no thought, that’s fine. But get there as quick as you can. And he says:

That gives the Christ an opportunity to come to you [as an] … experience. Later on you will follow [the] … same method with all of the harmonies.

Why? Why would you do that do you suppose? Because the experiences of, or the pictures of inharmony, disease, death, lack, limitation – those are tombs. He is not here! Awaken! Mary awaken! I am here within. But the pictures of harmonies and beauty and color and form – all of those are also this same image, the same tombs. These are tombs also! Only the concepts of them are good tombs. Oh, now there’s a good tomb! Look at that child, so full of life. Why isn’t he cute! For four years old he sure is intelligent, isn’t he? Why he’s more intelligent than the other – wait a minute. That’s a tomb!

You’re looking at Christ, but saying those words and thinking those thoughts about that are – well, next to – next to useless. You won’t be released from that by saying that to yourself. You cannot be released by repeating that to yourself. Well, I’m looking at an image. So? Who’s saying it? Another image! Oh my God! How am I going to be released?

You know the way. Stand stock still. Take no thought, and I will reveal myself as a living Christ, a now Christ, an ever present right here Christ. So he says:

[And] That gives the Christ an opportunity to come to you in experience. Later on you will follow the same method with all of the harmonies. Because once you have achieved the slightest degree of success in … meeting discords, the next thing that will present itself to you is … [the harmonies].

And so you will learn to follow this same practice when you see youth, [or] health, [or] vitality, [or] wealth. You learn to look right through it, and not rejoice in it …

Now why would you rejoice in a tomb? He is not here. He is risen.

… clear your thought in this same spiritual way, so … the Christ can show you the truth …

What’s it gonna show you? Well, he says:

… the Christ can show you the truth about what even appears as human good.

In other words, the Christ can show you Itself, Itself as an experience. A living experience. And he gives you a statement here:

Just as you want Christ to reveal the truth about … discord and … inharmony, you had better want Christ to reveal the truth about a good human appearance, or it’s only a question of time … it’s going to change to a bad human [experience] … .

And finally at the end here he says on the last page if I can get there, he says:

… the achieving of [the] … state of consciousness [which is the inner awareness of the living Christ] begins in this particular way, first, because the discords and inharmonies of existence are … irritating … and therefore [they] announce themselves more forcefully … [and you’re forced to find an answer.] And … in those moments we will now train ourselves to resist … temptation to deny or affirm or [even] to think thoughts, even good [thoughts] … [We will stand stock still and] give an opportunity for the Christ to announce Itself …

And then you’re released! The Christ announces Itself in you, in your being. Okay? Is it clear?

Our stating truth and thinking truth does not bring it. [It doesn’t bring the Christ.] Our refraining from [stating]… truth and thinking truth brings [Christ] … . As long as behind it we have [the] … inner consciousness of the correct letter of truth.

In other words, you couldn’t give this to a new student. That’s why I have – well, that’s why it’s being given to those of us who are a little more serious. We’re not looking for healing after healing after healing. We’re looking for the inner experience of Christ.

Now, let’s be still for a moment and see if that’s it for today or if there’s more.

[Pause] ..

Woman … whom seekest thou? Oh Lord – where have you taken my Lord? Where have you laid him? Please tell me. He is not here: … he is risen.

I share with you those experiences that came to me over the years – several, not all by any means, but several that pointed out to me that in every way and in every area I have to experience the living Christ, and that it’s no longer correct for me to look at myself and say, “Well, of myself I’m nothing. I can’t do anything. I’ve never been any good at anything and I’m no teacher and this, that, and the other. No. That’s a lie of personal sense.

When there’s no personal sense, when that is standing still then the Christ announces Itself in my experience, and it says, “I am the Teacher, the only Teacher, and I am the Way. Be still. I will teach.” Then if others come and say, “Oh, I got so much out of what you have to say,” I can only say “thank you” because I did too. (chuckles) I was listening to Christ as you were. And with the discords that are presented to me I’m allowed now to take no thoughts. I’m allowed now to not deny or affirm anything. I’m not allowed to do that. Those were the nets. I’m leaving those nets. I’m not allowed to go running to a teacher of 2000 years ago or a man that taught in the 40s, 50s, and 60s. I’m not allowed now to go running to a holy temple, a holy place, a holy book. Even Scriptures! I’m leaving all those nets.

All must be abandoned for My sake, says Christ. I’m not allowed to cling to anything. I’m floating here with no raft! It’s very uncomfortable. You have taken my Lord! What do I do? Even the Christ that I believed in is now nothing. I realize it was only a concept. My God! I’m weeping. Where, where, oh where is my Lord?

And yet, if I will turn within, if I will be still, if I will come here often, if I will practice what I have learned and stand stock still, in the stillness Christ will announce Itself. It will set me free from personal sense, from the negative personal sense and the good personal sense. It will allow me to see through the discords to Christ as an inner experience right here, right now. It will allow me to look through the good appearances to see Christ, to experience Christ right here within, right here and now.

Christ will announce Itself and set me free, and It will do so with maybe only a word. Maybe just “Bill.” Or maybe just “Mary.” Or maybe just “Brian.” Or maybe just “Nancy.” Maybe no words at all. Maybe that inner feeling of being lifted up and the tingling sensation of being flooded with Spirit. Maybe just the inner awareness of the movement of Spirit over the face of the deep. Who knows?

Christ is infinite. Let Christ reveal Itself to you in an individual way.

You must know now that the only Christ there is is the living Christ within you, and that there’s no other Christ to find. You must know now that the God of the ancients – well, it’s dead. There’s no life in it. It’s only a story book. You must know that the God of – well, even the Father of Jesus is only a name. You must know now that the only God there is is the God within you, and that It must reveal Itself to you or you will be Godless. You must know now it is time to launch out into the deep, and now you really know what that feels like, don’t you?

Launch out into the deep and cast your nets on the other side of the veil. Cast your nets within and wait and see what reveals itself. Wait! Wait! The Christ will announce Itself. “I am here.” In some way you will know. Not because you read it or you heard it or so-and-so said it from the podium. No. You will know by a living experience the living Christ, the Infinite Christ, the Christ Omnipresence. And then let It live Itself where you are. And if people bow down to you because you’ve healed them, so what. Stand aside. It is Christ. It is Christ revealing Itself. You had no part in it and you know it other than a beholding consciousness, a listening consciousness, a receptive consciousness to the movement of Christ.

It’s time to grow up spiritually. Stop sitting at the feet of – well, a statue, a person, or a concept. It’s time to experience the living Christ and to follow It as It lives day by day your experience.

I hope it’s clear. I know I talked a little long today and probably shared more stories than I should have, but I hope that it’s clear to all of you that the only Christ there is is Christ within. I must be realized.

Thank you. Thank you.

[Silence] ..

Good morning.

This is February 10th, Sunday, 2013, and we are continuing our series of Uncomfortable Talks, uncomfortable to the human being, that is, because the human being must die. Yesterday we discussed the first chapter of Genesis and the beautiful experience that comes to us when we are able to stand still and behold that creation flowing out from the invisible pool of silence and forming itself, appearing as forms. We say we live in our consciousness, and we do. No illusion is ever externalized, so we either live in a human state of consciousness, which is divided in good and evil, in the belief in both of those, or we stand and behold as the Christ that expression of Christ consciousness, God consciousness flowing. And I just happened to notice in this Thunder of Silence by Joel Goldsmith, he says:

Every time that the thought comes to us, “I need this”; “I need that”; “I would like this”; “I would like that”; “I should have this”; “I should have that”; our answer must be,

“ ‘Man shall not live by bread alone,’ – by effect, by creation [that false creation] – but by [my] Spirit, the [real] creator.” That must be a continuous realization

Not continuous thought. He didn’t say that, did he? Continuous realization or continuous awareness: I live by this inner Spirit, which is why we suggested that we take one or two minutes out of every hour to remember.

That must be a continuous realization [he says] until we have overcome our desire for anybody or anything … in the external realm. We have to lose all desire for the visible in the realization that we live not by that which is visible but by that which is invisible

You see, we are surrendering humanhood. We do not live by anyone or anything. We live by that invisible consciousness flowing.

and then we shall find [he says] that the Infinite Invisible will produce in our experience the persons, things, circumstances, and conditions necessary to our daily life.

In the same way, every time we are tempted to think of some power – some negative, evil, erroneous power that apparently is dominating our life, rendering it futile and fruitless and which we want destroyed – let us smile at it [smile at it] as we realize, [again as we come into the conscious awareness] “No, I have no need of any power with which to overcome this discord. There is a God, even though I do not know what God is. [And] I cannot know what God is because It is beyond the uttermost comprehension of the human mind.

But elsewhere he says: You can know God as an experience, not as a comprehension of the human mind. And so you see, he suggests in this chapter called Beyond Power that we stop that archaic, age-old, centuries-old belief that we need a power to overcome our problems. Surely in yesterday’s talk you saw that or you felt that there is no power that we need to throw at our problem. We need to realize that the problem is world mind presenting a mental image. Now, the term is not important. Again, terms are not important. What is important is that you see that there is a fabric and that all appearances of good or evil are made from this fabric and that the fabric is world thought or mental images. Now you can use the term mental images, world thought, mortal mind, hypnotism, mesmerism, illusion, this world, Maya. It does not matter what term you use. Use the term you are comfortable with because you’re only using that term long enough to drop it.

You see, understanding has no meaning. It’s not a matter of understanding truth. It’s not a matter of understanding the world’s illusion or the illusion of a world. It’s not a matter of understanding that. It’s a matter of seeing through that. And this you don’t do with the mind. The mind, the human mind, is a tool of that very hypnotism, mental images, world mind. It’s a tool of that. Just as your sense of hearing is a tool of this physical body, so is the human mind a tool of world mind, world thought, universal belief – whatever term you like.

And so it’s not necessary to understand it at depth. It doesn’t take a great deal of understanding. Understanding is also a part of that world mind. You see, we have to tread in a place where the mind has no existence, which is why Joel stresses again and again, or the Spirit stresses, the Christ within you stresses that this pool of silence where the mind does not function – this is where you must rest. Beside this pool, beside this deep well.

So, we who are rising in consciousness must see that there is no need for power to overcome anything at any time ever. In this realm of no power, in your ability to relax to such an extent that you – well, it’s like looking at a lake, surface of a lake in the water, and there’s no breeze. It’s very still, and the surface is like glass and nothing is disturbing it. It’s just still, just silent. No effort. It’s effortless. Being, resting, is’ing. In that state of using no power, in that state where no power fills your being, in that realm of no power – God is living, being, is’ing.

And so he tells us what we learned yesterday is that in the second chapter of Genesis where we use power to overcome evil and replace it with good, that’s that state of humanhood that we must rise above, rise out of, we must drop. Now I’m not saying that you need to rise out of that today and never go back, because it’s not possible. You’ve been in there too many centuries. I’m saying and suggesting you drop it in these moments, these few moments of every hour and rest back in that pool of nothing, that pool of nothing the mind can get a hold of. That pool of silence and no power and nothingness. Out of that infinite nothingness the divine first chapter of Genesis, the perfect creation flows. And it’s nothing the mind can understand, so stop trying. Your understanding is not necessary now. Understanding was something that the mind, the world mind thought it needed. But you are in a place where you are rising above that mind into a realm of no power, into a realm of peace without end, into a realm of silence.

In Joel’s book Beyond Words and Thoughts, which is specifically how to rise into that pool of silence, he explains something in the chapter Truth Unveiled. It’s a very beautiful chapter. It’s one of my favorite chapters all time. It’s right next to The True Sense of the Universe which we read a little from yesterday and The New Horizon. I believe these 3 chapters have the entire message of moving from mind to Spirit. So let’s see if something in here presents itself.

First of all, yesterday we spoke of moving out of humanhood and into Christ Consciousness, and we said that Joel had made it, because he said “I finally made it. I no longer see humans anywhere, but I behold Christ everywhere.” He says, “I myself have beheld the incorporeal form of man dozens and dozens of times.” Now, so in moving from humanhood to Godhood or Christhood or being a beholder of Christ Consciousness forming that new creation, there’s an exact time we said when the transformation takes place. Now before we read this I wanted to read this from the Kailua study series on the chapter called No Power, which is where the editor pulled a lot from to write that chapter in The Thunder of Silence. But I wanted to read this to you. It says:

Whenever truth is offered to the human mind [and we know what the human mind is], the human mind wants to crucify that truth, because the truth demands that the human mind die.

What does that do to you when you hear that? Your human mind must die. Doesn’t it make you pause and wonder “how can I … how do I function without a human mind? Why, I’ve had one my entire life and maybe many centuries, most definitely many centuries. How do I function? How can I function? How do I go to work? How do I do the housework without a human mind? And I’m here to tell you that the struggle that the human mind has holding everything together in this balancing act and trying to balance plates on sticks by turning evil into good and a whole lifetime of this – that human mind really has no idea how to live without itself, does it? It can’t conceive of such a thing, so it hears this truth and it says, “Oh, poppycock! How ridiculous! You’re just hiding your head in the sand. What kind of philosophy is this?”

But I can tell you, and many of you know – maybe all of you know – when you step out of that mind even if only for brief moments and you find yourself in that place where God is happening, you find yourself being carried along by the rhythm of God and you find yourself in the right place at the right time, saying the right things, doing the right things, and all works perfectly and you find – well, I really can live without that mind running things. I’m not saying you’ll sit in the corner and stare at a wall. On the contrary, Joel says, and I found myself, the more you live outside of that mind and live as a beholder of Christ Consciousness moving things around the busier you are. So, again, let’s read it:

Whenever truth is offered to the human mind, the human mind wants to crucify that truth, because the truth demands that the human mind die. Truth demands that we die daily to our humanhood and that we be reborn of the Spirit.

And now you saw yesterday, you see reborn of the Spirit really means a whole new creation, doesn’t it? Taking place now in your consciousness, in that quiet temple. That’s being reborn of the Spirit. Beholding a beholder as Spirit forms Itself. So he says here:

Truth doesn’t promise anybody that you can go on being a good, comfortable human being. Truth doesn’t promise anybody that you can have a lot of money and a lot of fame and a lot of health and a lot of self-indulgence. Truth doesn’t promise anybody a life of ease in matter.

…[Truth] promises a terrific struggle, a struggle between the Spirit and the flesh, until the crucifixion. That is the final tearing down of humanhood, the final destruction of ‘man whose breath is in his nostrils’, after which comes a very barren period, a wilderness period in the tomb, a period of desolation. That’s why it is called the tomb. But after that three days, there comes the resurrection. And even in the resurrection you … carry around a torn body … and maybe … [a] torn reputation[s] too.

But forty days of that, and there comes the ascension above every claim of the human mind. You see – right at that point you rise out of the human mind and permanently dwell in your Christhood. And he says: Then comes the pure spiritual life, in which the promises are fulfilled: ‘I will never leave you nor forsake you. I will lead you beside the still waters, in green pastures. My presence will go before you to make the crooked places straight. I have never seen the righteous begging bread.’ You see, [he says] it is in that demonstration of our Christhood that there are no problems, none whatsoever.

All right, so he defines for us there that there’s going to be a terrific struggle culminating in a crucifixion and a place of barrenness, desolation, and forty days in the wilderness and then finally an ascension. Now that sounds like one heck of a battle. That sounds like the story of Armageddon in the Revelation, doesn’t it? Which is exactly how Herb interpreted it, if you remember from the Revelation series. It’s an inner struggle. All right, so – but yesterday we said that there are those who have made it. Yes, the path is narrow and few there be that enter, but I truly feel all of us hearing this talk can complete this transition.

Now in this chapter Truth Unveiled in Beyond Words and Thoughts Joel talks about his completing the transition, just a little. He says:

Always, since my first spiritual experience, living in two worlds has been difficult for me – living in that higher Consciousness and then coming down to earth, going back into that Consciousness and coming back down to earth – but never was it as difficult as in 1963.

Now remember in 1964 he passed on. So, what he’s saying here is what we talked about yesterday. There are two creations, two states of consciousness. One is humanhood, one is Christhood, and what he’s saying here is he found that it was really difficult to go into that higher Consciousness, to stand still in that inner temple and behold the incorporeal creation, which then appeared as forms in his experience as well as to those that reached out to his consciousness – standing there in that and then perhaps the next morning or that afternoon coming down into humanhood again. Going back and forth between the two was very difficult, but never as difficult as it was in 1963. He says:

That year marked another period of initiation for me, but, even though in 1962 I knew it was to be, I had no knowledge of its intensity, its length, or the nature of the message that would be revealed.

So he’s telling you that this is an initiation. And so all of us in this class, in this group, are being initiated. We are passing through an initiation. Moving out of mind and into Spirit. Moving out of humanhood and into Christhood. The terms don’t matter. It’s the awareness, the inner awareness. And why you’ve been chosen, I do not know. I do not know why I’ve been chosen. I only know there’s an inner burning, an inner longing, and I can’t stop. I can’t stop. So Joel says:

It is not unnatural, therefore, that that year should have revealed the higher unfoldment, the higher Consciousness. This you will understand as you study the work that came through during this period. [that is, in 1963] With each successive unfoldment, something was breaking through, leading to the teaching of going beyond words … [beyond] thoughts, … going beyond the mind. [Here we go with that human mind has to die.] This idea you will find in all the 1963 work, revealing the nature of life as it is lived when you go beyond the mind … beyond thoughts: beyond taking thought, beyond reasoning. [Beyond power!] This is the revelation of the nature of Sabbath and of Grace.

Now, I want to skip a little bit here over to the next page where he talks about what needs to happen.

On the spiritual path, we begin our journey by studying the truth, learning and practicing the truth. We never attain the goal [that is, Christhood] of realization, however, until we reach beyond the mind and its knowing of the truth to our becoming Truth: “That which I am seeking, I am!”

You cannot know truth or God with the mind. Give up. You’re reaching the place in your journey, in your initiation, my dear friends, where the mind cannot come. And Christ Jesus says, “Where I am going, you cannot follow Me now, but … later.” That was spoken to you centuries ago – and now this is later – and now you may follow, but you cannot bring the mind.

On the Mount, in a high state of consciousness, Moses realized I AM, and thereby became I AM. Yet, there remained still a sense of Moses as is evidenced by the fact that he spoke of himself as being slow of speech.

This is Joel pointing out that Moses has this higher state of consciousness, the first chapter of Genesis, Christ awareness, and yet he drops down into a human sense of Moses and says that he is slow of speech. So there are both going on, just as there are in us. We are in an initiation as was Moses.

The realization of I AM [in Moses] prevailed, however, and with that great illumination came such a height of consciousness that he was able to lead the Hebrews out of slavery to the Promised Land. Had Moses been able to crucify … completely the mortal sense of … self which still remained, he would have been able to enter the Promised Land, or heaven. [or Christhood] But he was bound [for a while] by a finite sense of himself.

Which later he overcame. Later it was crucified because in the Mount of Transfiguration there he and Elijah met with Jesus in the invisible, and all three had overcome that. Now, says Joel in this chapter Truth Unveiled:

Jesus, however, not only knew the truth but realized and became the Truth: “I am the way, the truth, and the life.” Nevertheless, a sense of Jesus, the man, remained, because he said, “I can of mine own self do nothing. … If I bear witness of myself, my witness is not true.” This personal sense of self had to be crucified, as eventually it must be in all of us, or we will not ascend to the Promised Land, [or] the realization of our spiritual identity [of our Christhood].

Jesus’ realization of the need to crucify, or rise above, the seeming mortal sense of self, enabled him to make the ascension.

Now listen to this line – it’s very important.

The ascension is always the same: a rising above mind, above knowing the truth, to Truth Itself.

This is why I say in every meditation for it to be successful you must step out of the human mind. Bring no thoughts with you. Bring only awareness. Rest back in it. Relax. Rest. Be at peace. No power. Silence. Nothingness. Emptiness. Then into that vessel the Spirit moves over the face of the deep. You don’t move it. You don’t move. You are very still, like that lake, that crystal clear lake. No movement. And the wind of Spirit moves over the water, and there’s a ripple. That ripple is the birth of the new creation, the new consciousness, and I am come that you might have life and life more abundantly. And I, the Eternal, everlasting life, am come. So says Joel:

In many classes and even in some of the Writings, I have said that I did not understand the reason for the crucifixion …: why it took place or why it had to take place if it had to. It puzzled me, … [and] It was not until … 1963, when I myself went through the experience, [of crucifixion] that the reason and need for the crucifixion of Christ Jesus was revealed to me. [But] Somehow [because he didn’t bring a mind with him] Somehow, after that experience, the memory of it passed …, and I could not bring it to conscious recollection, [but] … later the entire scene was revealed to me again when I went through the experience of ascension: … rising above [the] mind [in] to Truth [or God] Itself.

Now there it is in plain English, my friends. Joel made it! He rose above the mind. Remember – the ascension is always the same – rising above mind into truth or God or Christ Consciousness or Genesis. And I went through the experience of ascension [he says], rising above mind [in] to Truth.

[And] This is what I saw: [says Joel] In Jesus’ statement, “He that seeth me seeth him that sent me,” he revealed … he had attained the goal of I AM. “ ‘I am the way’ – [I am the consciousness. I AM God.] … I and God are one.” And there is an experience in which he proved this: he took three disciples to what is called the Mount of Transfiguration, which again is [this] high consciousness, [above mind] and he revealed to them the Hebrew prophets who were supposed to be dead.

But, to his enlightened sense, [or in that higher consciousness] they were not dead, and he proved to his disciples that they were alive, and … they were with them there in form. [And] Whether he translated them into visible form or whether he translated himself and the disciples into invisible form makes no difference because it is the same experience. He translated: he demonstrated to his disciples the truth he later proved: “‘I lay down my life, that I might take it again’; I can walk into … [this] invisible realm and I can walk out again,… I am Spirit, I am the way.”

[And] Because of Jesus’ experience on the Mount of Transfiguration, I understand now that crucifixion was not necessary … . Enoch was translated without knowing death; Elijah was translated without knowing death; [and] Isaiah, also, may have been translated. Therefore, it was shown to me through Jesus’ experience on the Mount of Transfiguration … he could have been translated without knowing death, but … he chose to accept corporeal death in order to reveal to … [the] disciples that [even] death is not an experience, but [again] is an illusory sense [or a mental image] [which] … must be understood and seen through.

And finally he says at the bottom of this page:

This revelation is … proof of the message that there must come a rest to My people. There must come a rest from the activity of … mind: taking thought … fearing for our life, constantly knowing … truth in order to avoid some experience.

See – that’s not the way – you know truth over and over in your mind. No.

There must come a Sabbath, and in this Sabbath [now] we live by Grace.

See – not by thought taking, not by thinking of truth, but by that Grace which flows as that Spirit, that wind across the still lake.

we live by Grace, [and]… then we do not know the truth, … [now] truth reveals Itself [in] us, and we become the Truth. It is not an activity of the mind: it is Soul revealing Itself.

You see? Everything all these years has been pointing to the ascension, to rising out of humanhood and into Christhood. Everything has been telling us – Joel has been saying all this many years that we must come out of the mind permanently and live in Christ Consciousness. And he says:

[This]… is the final tearing down of humanhood, the final destruction of ‘man whose breath is in his nostrils’. [And then comes a resurrection of this spiritual creation, the Son of God, the manifestation of God, Christ. And then the] promises are fulfilled. “I will never leave you nor forsake you.”it is in [this]…. demonstration of our Christhood that there are no more problems, none whatsoever.

Let us be still for a moment. Let us rest back in that invisible pool; deep, deep pool of Spirit.

[Silence] ..

Here at this point in your initiation you must leave the mind. Just drop it. It cannot help you anymore. You no longer need an understanding of truth, an understanding of God, an understanding of illusion. No understanding of principles is Spirit. The realm of the mind has been good to you perhaps. It brought you so far, but you cannot go farther with it. And so now drop the mind. Take no thought.

In this temple not made with hands, not made with mind, in this temple is your perfect Self. Spirit is its substance. Consciousness is its home. Stand still, very still. And I and the Father are One and the same. Behold, I make all things new. Behold, I come quickly. Behold spiritual creation.

In the mind you had tribulation. In the Spirit you find the Sabbath, this moment of rest. And I have been with you from the beginning; from before Abraham was, I AM. If you will stand still. If you will cease from thought, I will reveal truth here, now, flowing. And this is life eternal that you might know Me, your true Self.

On this path in this part of your initiation you will learn to rise above the human mind, which is the tool for world mind. You will learn to function by being a beholder of Grace forming Itself, and you will know truly Christ liveth my life. And to every image of the mortal mind you will know: “Be not afraid; it is I.” It is I. And you will not fight, you will not use power, you will not overcome. You will see through. You will see through by standing still in no power, in silence. You will see through as My creation unfolds before you. And you will live in, through, and by Christ consciousness.

And your willingness to die, to step out of the mind is the invitation to Me, Christ, and I will take over.

My friends, this is something you cannot explain to humans even if you would like to. They have no capacity to receive it. You who have labored long and hard – let us return to this chapter Truth Unveiled and hear it in Joel’s words, because I think they’re beautiful.

When you reach that place where, instead of searching for a truth, feverishly reading or studying to latch on to some truth, [when instead of that] you can relax and rest in the Truth – without taking thought, without [any] speaking … [without any] thinking – you can be a state of awareness, and then you understand the meaning of “Man shall not live by bread alone, but by every word [or every movement] that proceedeth out of the mouth of God.” You will then discover that every word, every feeling, [every movement], every emotion, … every thought that comes to you from … [that] deep withinness … is what you now live by. [This is] The Spirit within [which] guides, … directs … sustains … [and] protects. It goes before you to “make the crooked places straight.”

Our ultimate goal must be to live in, through, and as God. If we are not to do this, why did the Master teach, “Take no thought for your life” ? Life is meant to be lived by Grace, without … power [of any kind]. And again he says:

See what happens on the seventh day: [on the Sabbath] “In the meanwhile his disciples prayed him, saying, Master, eat. But he said unto them, I have meat to eat that ye know not of.” He was telling them not to go out [and] … get meat; but to rest in the Sabbath of I have: no words, no thoughts, no might, no power.

[You students who are going through this initiation] You students who are ready for the Sabbath must prepare for it by learning to rest back in this realization: “[I] Let my Soul take over instead of my mind.” Then every time you go within, something new and fresh will come forth. Of course – it’s a new creation. Behold – I make all things new.

In the consciousness of [this] Sabbath, [in this Christ Consciousness] you [do not have to] … go out and get meat, [because] … you have it. … [How do you have it?] By your recognition that you and the Father are one. [Says Joel]

For six days you have labored to study and to train yourself, and those “six days,” remember, are for most of you many, many years. But there [does come] … a rest to My people; there comes a Sabbath; and that is when you stop all your metaphysical struggling, [and] relax, … let Grace live your life.

Those … students [in this initiation] who have been listening and studying with the inner ear [for many years] … are now … entering that period of Sabbath when they can feel [feel] within themselves: “I [don’t] know any truth. I cannot live on … quotations … . The only truth I know is what is coming [forth from that deep well within]. … I am [now] living in [a] … period of unknowing, in which every day I go within to receive the manna for that day, [I] … listen for Thy voice.” …

Thy Grace is my sufficiency …”

You see how beautiful this is, how beautiful. He says:

The Infinite Way takes you through the “six days” of labor – … thinking and knowing … truth, … searching for truth, pondering truth, meditating … truth – until [finally] you go beyond the activity of the mind … Finally, you come to … [the Sabbath] … [And] Every word that flows from God into your awareness becomes the bread, the wine, … the water. … [the] health, [the] strength, [the] vitality, and all … that … [is] necessary for your experience.

And so my dear, dear friends – as we walk through this initiation alone, yet not alone – I say to you that these moments of stepping out of the human mind – the world mind, the mental images of this world – and standing still in that pool; in that deep, deep universe within and beholding Spirit, the movement of Spirit across the waters – this is how you are made new. This is how you are transformed. This is how you are made a new creature. This is how you are lifted up to the place where Christ liveth your life. And this you can tell no man.

To him that overcomes this human mind, this taking thought, this thinking, Christ says, “I will give the hidden manna, and now we know what that manna is, don’t we? We live by it, the invisible movement of Spirit.

To him that overcomes the mind I will give the invisible movement of Spirit, and I will give him a stone, and on the white stone a new name is written, and that name is Christhood. And no one knoweth saving he that receiveth it. No one around you will be able to tell that you have received your initiation, that you have received Christhood, that you have ascended out of the mind into Christ Consciousness, into this deep universe, into My Kingdom. But you will know that you have received it. You will know.

Isn’t this wonderful? Passing … we are passing from humanhood to Christhood, from mind to Spirit, from images to the kingdom of heaven here and now. We are passing from intellect to Consciousness. We are passing from death to life. This humanhood that we thought was a life is death. Now we come into Life – Eternal life, everlasting life, Christ life, and this life will never leave you nor forsake you. And so we pass from humanhood to Christhood, right here, right now. We rest in the Sabbath. We rest on the seventh day and we behold the perfect creation unfolding before our inner eye.

[Silence] ..

Good afternoon.

This is Saturday, February 9th, and this talk is directed to the more serious students. We have a handful in our group now. We have 15, and it is assumed that each of us is serious about attaining Christhood in some measure in this incarnation, in this lifespan. In this experience on earth we are serious about demonstrating the fact that we’re not on earth, that we’re living in spiritual consciousness in our Christhood, and to that end we have made … oh, this will be talk number 10, and these talks have not been released to the public. This group of talks has not been released to the public, and so they have no idea what we’re doing. Even the website, Mysticalprinciples.com does not have a link to these talks. We are the only people that have heard them, and these talks point out principles that we should be living by, not principles that we should be discussing or principles that we should be pondering, although it doesn’t hurt a little bit to take it into meditation and ponder it that way, but not principles to be thinking about in the mind, but principles to be living.

These are the principles that Christ lives, and so if you would attain Christhood you must practice these principles such as leave your nets, which is leaving your trappings of humanhood, and such as surrender and surrendering to Christ consciousness. Such as to him that hath it shall be given, which is realizing that the only way to demonstrate your Christhood is by giving it away. So these are principles. All of these are principles, and we’ve had 8 principles, and 2 from older talks, so 10 principles. This is principle #10, and it’s going to be called Spiritual Alchemy, which means effecting a transition or a transformation through spiritual means. Now just to refresh your memory, let’s look at something from the Bible. I’ll get it … I’ll be right back.

And the first scripture goes like this:

And the Lord God formed man of the dust of the ground, and breathed into his nostrils the breath of life; and man became a living soul.

And the Lord God planted a garden eastward in Eden; and there he put the man whom he had formed. [Whom Lord God had formed].

And out of the ground made the Lord God to grow every tree that is pleasant to the sight, and good for food; the tree of life also in the midst of the garden, and the tree of knowledge of good and evil.

So, what we have here is someone called Lord God forming itself, and what do we know about Lord God? Lord God forming things out of dust, which is a way of saying forming things out of atoms, which is a way of saying forming things out of thought, which is a way of saying making mental images.

Lord God here is the mind, world mind! So we might as well read it how it is, which would be: And the world mind formed man of the dust of the ground, and the world mind planted a garden and brought forth the tree of knowledge of good and evil.

That’s the world mind making mental images.

Images of a personal life … your life if you’re living as a person right at this moment. If you’re John Smith or Doris Brown, and you’re thinking in terms of how much money you have in the bank and what you need to pay next week out of your funds, how much you will have left, or if you’re thinking about … well, I’m approaching 60 years. I’ve probably got about, oh, 12 or 20 left. Or if you’re thinking about … I’ve been pretty nice to that person, so I’ve got a pretty good relationship going and … if you’re thinking in terms of a personal life, or making you’re thinking I’ve been mean and I need to make an amends and say I’m sorry and get some flowers and candy and make up … you’re thinking in terms of your personal life.

In other words, you’re standing in the midst of this garden where world mind is forming out of the dust of the ground your entire existence. And it’s all taking place in your mind. You’re standing in the mind. Actually, it’s not your real mind, but it’s the world mind. It’s the mind thinking about the world, the world mind. Or you might prefer … the mind about the world, or the mind about the world’s business.

If you’re standing in that mind and you’re living that personal life, well I can tell you without a doubt I can prophecy that you’re going to run out of your money, you’re gonna run out of your strength, and you’re going to mess up your relationships. You’re going to end up bankrupt. In fact, the very world mind that forms these things out of the dust of the ground or out of atoms or out of mental images and convinces you that there’s evil and good in this creation, this very world mind is going to kill you.

And that’s what you have in the second chapter of Genesis.

Ah, but those of us in this group, we’ve decided … we don’t want to live in that universe. We know, we suspect, we have felt another universe, another Self, another life, or at least the possibility of another life. And so we turn to the first chapter of Genesis and the real creation, and this is the creation formed out of Consciousness, out of Christ consciousness, out of God consciousness. This is the real creation. And if you’re standing in this creation, you probably should be making some talks, and I’d like to hear ‘em. Because this creation was formed not by a world mind, a mind about the world, a mind concerned with the world. This creation was formed by God out of Itself. And it says:

In the beginning God created the heaven and the earth. That means God created the invisible, but also the forms as which that invisible appears.

And God said, Let there be light: and there was light. That’s the very first, very first thing – Let there be light. And so God expressed as light as the very first and real creation, and you, your identity, is in fact that light.

[And] God called the light Day …

[And] the Spirit of God moved upon the face of the waters.

I love this. This is the experience that I have every time I have a successful meditation. Every single time I have a successful meditation … every single time you have a successful meditation … you are standing in the first day of creation. You are witnessing the real creation because there is an experience within where the Spirit of God moves upon face of the waters. It’s a real experience. You become conscious of its movement. And if you stand there and don’t try to do anything other than behold this creation, it will form itself as your experience, and it will appear as forms.

It will appear as companionship. It will appear as supply in every form. Not just money. Money is one of millions of forms of supply. Standing outside on a summer day and having a cloud cross in front of the sun and giving you shade while you’re plowing your garden, and the shade cools you for a moment and there’s a little breeze – that’s supply too. The air that you breathe. Finding yourself in the right place at the right time. Trying to remember – where did I read that principle that Joel was talking about? Which book is it in – and reaching on your bookshelf and pulling down that book and opening it just anywhere and landing right on the principle you were considering. That’s supply. See, we tend to think of supply as money, and that’s so horrible to think of that that way.

Supply is every infinite form as which this light appears.

So – the Spirit of God moved over the face of the deep, the face of the waters. And God said let there be this and God said let there be that,

And [finally] God said, Let us make man in our image, after our likeness: and let them have dominion over [everything].

[And] so God created man in his own image, in the image of God created he him; male and female created he them.

But I think they changed that. I think it was male and female created he him. Anyway …

And God blessed them, and … said … Be fruitful, and multiply … and have dominion …

Now you see what’s happening here in this first real creation?

God is expressing as light, and that light is forming itself as man and every perfect thing.

The entire earth, the real earth, the plants, the animals, the stars, the rivers, the lakes, the mountains, the deserts, the snow, the rain, the sun – and that light expressed as your being is given dominion – dominion over this creation. But what does dominion mean now? Dominion doesn’t mean that you move into the creation of Lord God and have dominion and start pushing things around and forcing your will, does it? No.

What does dominion mean? Dominion means God has given you the ability to enter your temple, your spiritual temple of the Most High, stand ye still and see the salvation of God.

Stand ye still and behold that perfect first creation as it expresses.

You are able to go within that temple, rest, and behold the Spirit moving over the face of the waters. And then with no idea whatsoever how that will form itself, you are able to get up from your meditation, do that work which is in front of you to do, and behold the light appearing as form needed in your experience or anybody’s experience who turns to you.

This is called spiritual alchemy. This is so far beyond living in a world mind creation that it’s called not human life anymore. It’s called Christhood. And it is what you are called to do as a serious student that wishes to experience Christhood. Now in this book Leave Your Nets Joel says it like this:

Reach into [the] deep pool [within] and feel the abundance, the gentleness, and the power of … [the] spirit, and let it flow; and when it flows it will come out as in a mold.

Now we can get down to brass tacks, and we can say intellectually that … well, God and the light really does not form itself into a mold. God, the light, just moves over the face of the deep and the mind interprets that as a mold, and that’s fine if you want to go there, but I’m not doing that today. I’m just pointing out the difference in the two creations and the difference in where you must stand and which life you must live and I must live.

I have said I want to demonstrate Christhood now, here, this time around and stop fooling with humanhood. That means instead of standing in this personal life and using my money and my supply and my health, my companionships, and moving this around and trying to succeed and blah, blah, blah, blah, blah, and trying to turn evil into good and now I’m sick so I gotta get well, so I go to the doctors. I get that going good. Ho, hey … here comes a bill I didn’t think of. Now my supply’s upset. I gotta pray some more principles … blah, blah, blah, blah, blah. Trying to improve a personal life.

No. It’s time we stopped that. I mean STOP IT! Who are you fooling? Stop living a human life. Quit … at least when you catch yourself, STOP IT! But it’s much easier if you go to this inner temple and practice meditation several times a day. It only has to be for a minute or two, but it has to be long enough to make the contact, which means so you can stand still and see and behold the first chapter of Genesis, that spiritual creation happening live, right now. We behold the light forming itself or the light shining which later appears as form. So he says:

Reach into this deep pool and feel the abundance, the gentleness, and the power of that spirit, and let it flow; and when it flows, it will come out as in a mold. That mold may be money, home, companions, forgiveness, justice, mercy, kindness, or benevolence; but do not attempt to pour spirit into a mold, do not attempt to provide a mold in which to hold it.

Yes, the age of going within to demonstrate an automobile or a new job or a new partner or a new spouse or a new wife or a new husband or a new friend … that is over. Or even a new lung … that’s over. It’s over.

We go as the son of God. We go as the child of the spirit of God, and that child lives always, says Joel, and says our experience and says Christ – that child lives always as a beholder. You’re beholding the spiritual creation of Genesis. You thought Genesis was way back there in history somewhere far, far back, didn’t you? It’s not! Genesis is taking place in your consciousness the moment you drop out of humanhood and stand ye still. Stand fast and behold. Behold, I. I come quickly. That’s Genesis, and it’s an experience going on now in our consciousness – those of us in this group that are reaching or resting and beholding Christ. So he says:

Go to this pool, this infinite pool of joyous substance; [and] commune; feel it as it fills your consciousness, as it circulates within your being. [And] By this I do not mean a physical or an emotional feeling [when I say feel it], he says, but [I mean] an inner awareness of the divine. That is all! That is seeking the kingdom of God, and then the things, [the so-called things] are added …

But remember, it’s still – I’m telling you now – these are my words – it’s still the kingdom of God. It’s only appearing as things. You have the invisible spiritual creation, vibrant, alive. He calls it a pool. I like … the spirit moved over the face of the deep … so the face of the deep is a deep pool, I guess. But to me it feels like a deep universe. Anyway … it doesn’t matter what you call it. What matters is you become aware of it and its movement within you, and you can’t become aware of its movement if you’re thinking. You can only become aware of your thoughts about it, but to become aware of its movement, you must be still. And if you can’t do this, then you need to go back and read things like The Art of Meditation and Practicing the Presence and get this ability to meditate.

You must have this ability to meditate. It’s vital in order to demonstrate or to behold the Christ. You can’t do it just closing your eyes and mumbling a few words and standing there quiet for a moment. You must have this consciousness, what he calls an inner awareness of the divine. That is seeking the kingdom of God. And then the things are added because he says it pours itself forth, not as ephemeral nothingness or substance, but in molded form, and the mold is always fulfillment.

When supply of whatever name or nature comes out of the depths of [that pool of that] I, that spirit, that consciousness, out of the depths of … [that] Soul, when your life is lived in that … dimension of … spirit, there is never just barely enough, and … never too much. There is bounty, abundance, affluence, … because everything comes as the gift of God, and is meant for your use.

How can you know if you’re living in this dimension? When your entire vision is on your devotion and service to God and your expectancy is of God. Not of man, but of God. And when you understand that only in his Presence is fullness, only in the presence of this movement of Spirit is fullness. Not in the presence of a person or in the presence of a bank account. Only in this presence is the fullness of life and the ability to live, move, and have your being in that inner consciousness and that inner awareness … well, that’s how you know you’re living in this dimension.

And so in this Leave Your Nets in the chapter Inasmuch as Ye Have Done it Unto One of These the Least, he tells us how to bear witness to the first creation, the real creation which happens now. It’s a present thing! There no past in God. If God’s spirit moved over the face of the deep, then God’s spirit is moving over the face of the deep right now. And if you attune yourself with it within, you will behold that spiritual creation. Otherwise, if you can’t do that, then you’re going to have to go ahead and live your human life and have your three-score years and ten or twelve and … and die. And come back and live a human life again and experience the futility of it and turn within and say, “Oh God, isn’t there an answer?” and you’ll be directed at that time to the spiritual way of life and maybe you’ll take it up then.

Now … which creation do you want to live in? Which creation do you want to stand in? Which creation do you want to behold? You can struggle. I’ve done it! You can go out and get an education. I have degrees. I know how hard it is to get them. I’ve done it, been there, done that, and you can apply for a position and work yourself up into management. I’ve done that too. And you can try to save some money and put it away for future use, and you can direct your life in that way, and gosh – there’s so many things you can do now online. You can go to matchmakers.com or Christianmingle.com or whatever.com and find yourself the perfect mate that matches you perfectly, and you can go down to the local gym and you can get on an exercise program, and you can go ahead and get your body into perfect shape for your age, and the very next minute you can drop over dead and leave that all stuff unfulfilled.

That’s the nature of the human world mind creation, the personal creation, personal life. That’s the nature of it. It’s always a matter of turning evil into good, and it’s never ending! It goes on forever until it kills you. You have a brief vacation, and then you try it again. I don’t know about you, but I’m a little tired. I don’t want to continue to do that.

I want to see the living Christ and this perfect creation manifest itself and appear as form.

Not by telling it what I need, not by sitting down to try to demonstrate a thousand dollars, but rather sitting down with my attention completely focused on how do I experience this awareness of spirit within? And how do I rest in it with no desire of any kind, but simply an openness, a receptivity? A love really.

I can tell you there are times when I feel its movement that I can only say … I just feel within my being … I love you. I love you. It just bubbles up. I love you. And yet, I tell myself sometimes you’re so silly. You know this is your true identity, so you’re telling yourself that you love you? And yet, I still can’t help it. And sometimes I feel the Infinite say, “I love you” back. And sometimes I see it demonstrate that love.

And so there’s a love that flows back and forth, and sometimes I’m higher than that and I know there’s only I, and it’s a deep pool of Is’ingness, of Is’ing.

But it doesn’t matter. The point is that you go within whatever level you’re on and develop that ability to be still until you make contact, which is a funny way of saying until you come into the awareness and have the awareness of the living creation of Genesis happening right here, right now.

Now in his book Spiritual Interpretation of Scripture Joel Goldsmith has a couple of really beautiful things to say in his chapter near the back, which says: The True Sense of the Universe, which is another way of saying the true universe, because see, he lived in this spiritual creation. He didn’t live in a personal human sense of life, and he tried to lay down the principles as I am doing … trying to do … lay down the principles by which you and I could attain or rest back into this same sense of universe. So in this chapter he says something that you’ve probably heard … but see it in a new light.

God is the divine Reality of individual being. To avail oneself of the harmonious government of this Principle, [or the forms], it is necessary to drop all thought of human persons and conditions; lose all desire to improve humanhood …

You see, because the real creation cannot move into that personal sense of life, into that world mind creation. It can’t do it! They’re never joined ever! But rather, the world mind creation is dropped, and standing in the stillness you see these new forms appearing, and they’re not a part of the world mind. But he says that over here. He says:

… drop all thought of human persons and conditions; lose all desire to improve humanhood and let the Inner Self reveal [reveal] in Silence the harmony, wholeness and joy of real Being.

See, you become aware of Spirit. Now, he says:

[That which] Soul power – [or] that which we contact within ourselves – results in what appears to be [forms – ] health, harmony and wealth, but – now listen – these are not the same as that which is attained through attempts to improve [humanhood]. The harmony in our affairs which results from our contact [within] with our Inner Self, [our Spirit] or Soul, is the manifestation or expression of Spirit, [or spiritual consciousness], Life; and [this]is the “added things” which come naturally from the realm of real substance. [Then]Finite sense beholds these “added things,” or spiritual reality, as … material sense, or “things” and “person[s].” Well, that’s what we said before. [But] Spiritual harmony is not attained by seeking persons, things or conditions, …[we must take] no thought for these and seek[ing] only contact with the divine Reality …

All right, so on the next page he says:

Developing a sense of receptivity; learning to silence the senses – which is the tools that world mind or mind about the world uses – and gaining the ability to listen for “the still, small voice” … or feel the movement of Spirit … these are just words. The experience is the same. – this is the Way he says. Human thoughts – even good ones – will not help. So all your thoughts about spiritual subjects will not help.

It must be the conscious awareness of the movement of Spirit … or the still, small Voice … or the Presence of God. The terms he used are so unimportant. The awareness is what’s the important thing, ‘cause your awareness of the movement of Spirit, of the action of Christ – that awareness is what forms itself as this new creation.

So, he says:

It is a silent state of receptivity in which the Christ or Spirit of God is manifest as our individual consciousness. It appears principally as a “feeling” of the Presence, and [it] dispels the illusion[s] of sense for oneself or another.

In other words, this movement within yourself once felt, consciously realized … the conscious awareness of it within you … melts anything that the world mind, or mind about the world is doing. It just melts it and reveals new forms in its place. So … one more time. This is like the other chapter which I love so much, The New Horizon in the book The Infinite Way, because he says here:

… as soon as you have conquered the desire to heal or improve the material sense [or the world mind sense] of existence, the spiritual or real begins to reveal itself and unfold itself to you.

You see, you witness the birth of creation, the spiritual creation in your consciousness, and then it appears as new forms. Now listen!

Do not take lightly what I am saying. This is the Great Revelation; this knowledge will clarify for you the Master’s statement, “My kingdom is not of this world”; it will reveal to you the secret of John the Revelator, who beheld the universe which is not made with hands, – You see? – but which is eternal, as Consciousness appearing; Spirit unfolding; Soul revealing … .

In other words, the spiritual creation of Genesis 1. Now, now you understand – “My kingdom is not of this world.” Yes … yes. The spiritual creation, consciousness, the Light moving over the face of the deep, Spirit flowing appears as form, and that is not world mind, mental images appearing as form. One is a false sense of existence taking place only in the mind, and it’s a nothingness, and it doesn’t last. Very, very temporal, or temporary. But the spiritual creation keeps flowing and flowing and flowing and forming itself until your total existence is that of Christ consciousness, that of one who stands watching the Spirit form itself. Now he says to you:

The life of material man, the life of [material]… tree [or] … flower … [or] … animal [or mountain or lake or sunset] – this is not eternal Life; it is not the manifestation of the Life … [of] God; [It is not the manifestation of the spiritual consciousness]. It is a false, finite, mortal sense of life. [So] Do not attempt to patch [it] up … [but] … turn [away] from it and with your … [new] consciousness discern the Life …[of] God; “feel” through your cultivated spiritual sense … [the] divine energy of Spirit; become conscious in the Silence of your Soul … Let … divine harmonies appear as you disregard the evidence of sight and hearing, tasting, touching, and smelling.

Believe me – says Joel. Believe me please believe me – this is the secret of secrets. This is Life eternal to know this truth. Truly Kings and Emperors would give their thrones could they but [know] … this one truth … and again, for the third time in this chapter he finishes by saying:

Only to those who have eyes to see and ears to hear can this vision become a living, vital Presence [within]. Only those who have heard what is said by “the still, small voice” and seen what is visible to the “windows of the Soul” can discern “the temple not made with hands” – [or] the universe of God’s creating.

Now over here he said: … John the Revelator, who beheld the universe which is not made with hands, but which is eternal … That’s what we’re doing as Christ. We no longer are standing in a personal sense of world mind and living that existence. We have come out, and we are coming out, and we are standing, resting beside this stream of consciousness, and we are beholding the original creation happening here, now, in this instant within. We are beholding a universe not made with hands, not made with world mind. Made by spiritual consciousness.

This inner vision, this spiritual consciousness, the Soul-sense, comes only in proportion [–in proportion –] as we accept and realize [this]… great secret: – one more time – the life of material man, plant or animal is not the … Life [of] God; it is … finite sense – the manifestation of mortal, material sense. Or world mind. This false sense of life must be put off, disregarded, [and] unvalued, in order that [we may stand still and] the real Life and its … [forms] may become evident and experienced.

And so that’s why we’re calling this talk today, we’re calling it Spiritual Alchemy, because … well … hang on a second. Let’s look this up in the dictionary.

Alchemy: A speculative philosophy aiming to achieve the transmutation of base metals into gold. A power or process of transforming something common into something special. An inexplicable or mysterious transmuting.

You see – alchemy, spiritual alchemy, is taking this world mind, personal sense existence and transforming it into that spiritual creation appearing as forms. Be ye renewed, or “Be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind.”

Be ye transformed into that first chapter of Genesis, the spiritual creation, or Christ consciousness, by stepping out of a personal sense, a world mind, mental image existence. Even if you do this only for minutes out of each hour, it will become slowly, it will transmute, transform your entire existence. And Joel says there comes an exact moment, an exact minute, an exact time when It takes over and lives Itself. Then you have attained Christhood, and Christ liveth your life.

Now, Joel attained this. I can show you in his book. It’s not handy … yes it is … let’s see. In his book Consciousness Transformed, which is the same thing we’re talking about here, transforming consciousness from world mind to Christ consciousness. In that book he says: It’s not easy to stop seeing human beings, but I finally made it.

He made it. He made it. He stepped out of the mind which sees human beings and found the inner temple not made with hands which beholds Christ everywhere, which beholds that spiritual creation. He made it. And I can hear Rumi – the mystical poet, who was Muslim and who had a love affair with God in most of his poems – I can hear Rumi saying: The two worlds have become One. I made it! He was transformed. And Paul with his declaration: Ah, now I’m no longer blind. “I live, yet not I. Christ liveth my life.” And so he made it.

And so for those of us 15 who have gathered together – for some reason we have been led to this group – I did not seek a single one, but either the person asked me if I was going to start a group or the person’s name came to me as someone I should send an invitation. But I didn’t think up any of ‘em myself. Those 15 of us who are serious students who want to live as Christ consciousness must go within and become beholders of the Spirit as it moves over the face of the deep, as it moves over the waters.

And then we will behold in the minutes, hours that follow the living Spirit appearing as form, and that form always has exactly what you need because it always comes as fulfillment. And fulfillment for me might be where I am now, which is in the mountains and listening to the silent snowflakes falling. But fulfillment for you might be sitting next to the ocean and hearing the waves. And fulfillment for someone else might be walking out into the night sky in the desert and seeing billions of stars. But it will always come as fulfillment and in an infinite yet individual way.

But it won’t come if you’re running your own life. It won’t come if you’re living a personal sense of self. It won’t come if you’re planning and you’re plotting.

Now I’m not saying that going to school and getting an education is bad. I’m not saying that. I’m saying that if you live by this inner dimension, It will direct your paths. In all thy ways acknowledge It, and It will direct thy paths. So if you’re led to move into the academic world and attain a degree, it will be for Its purpose, not yours. It will manifest. Always It.

Now I have found that I gave up seeking any kind of a relationship. I just quit seeking, and as soon as I quit seeking, I had a vision in my inner temple of Mary Magdalene, and I didn’t know what that vision meant. But within days of that or weeks I met my wife, which is Madalyn, and she was named after Magdalene, and we’ve been together for 23 years and walking the same road. We both serve God and have God first before each other. And that’s why it works so well. And it works on every level. It works emotionally, physically. It works spiritually. In every level we match. And that was only after I gave up looking and according to her, in her story she was on her knees saying: “God, I can’t pick the right person, so I give up.” And then we were brought together, but that was Consciousness appearing as form. That’s why Joel says these are permanent then. These are not things that come and go like these mental images that world mind creates.

And so I invite you, all of you in this group, to step out of humanhood and find that inner place where you can be still enough to bear witness, to behold God’s infinite spiritual creation of the first chapter of Genesis, Consciousness appearing as perfect form. And this, too, is living as Christ, and this you must do. Thank you, and I love you – and God be with you as you practice Christhood.

[Silence] ..

Good morning, my friends.

I don’t know if today’s talk is going to be very long or not. It may be just only 15 minutes. I don’t know.

I wish I could just close my eyes, get that feeling of the Presence of the Christ, feel that inner humming, and transmit that through this talk. And then there would be nothing to say, because that’s the whole purpose of The Infinite Way is to bring the seeker to that point of contact, and then in a moment of resting, in a moment you think not, to that experience called communion, union with the I with God.

I don’t know how it is for you, and I might have mentioned this before, but if I didn’t I’ll say it now. There are some things that I hear, some things that I read, and even some things that come to me as a thought that stop me in my tracks. They short circuit my thinking. It comes to a stop. I don’t do it. I don’t even try to do it. But my thinking comes to a stop, and there’s an inner feeling that goes with it, and the only way I can describe it is an inner vibration, and I don’t mean a physical vibration either. It’s a spiritual vibration. It’s a high humming. It’s like when you take a pitchfork and you tap it and there’s that hum. And that’s the way this feels.

Something comes into my awareness … the written word, the spoken word … which is the word of God. I might read it or hear it or think it or receive it within, but when it comes there is this inner, there’s this moment of silence in which an inner vibration is felt. A hum, a spiritual humming. Not a noise. No … yet a hum. And I know that I must be still because there’s something about this that is going to be revealed.

And so when I say to you that some of these scriptures haunt me, I mean that they set up this feeling, and I know that there’s more to be revealed, and I must be still and let it come forth. And it may come forth in the next 5 minutes, 5 days, or even 5 months. I haven’t had one take 5 years like Joel did when he said he sat in the airport and received the words “Beyond Words and Thoughts” and wrote it down and wrote a little paragraph and nothing else came for 10 or 12 years. I haven’t had one like that. But sometimes … well, I’ve had many, many that come within a few days or a few minutes or a few hours.

And there’s two words that do that to me, have always done that to me. I can see them, I can read them, I can hear them within, and I have that inner vibration, and I know that they are from Christ. And those two words are “hidden manna.” They come from the Revelation of St. John 2:17, and it goes like this:

He that hath an ear, let him hear what the Spirit saith unto the churches; To him that overcometh will I give to eat of the hidden manna …

There’s a lot there. That’s only half of the sentence, but in that half we have: He that hath an ear – That means if you’re able to be still within, if you’re able to listen, not with your mind, not with your physical ears, but on a higher level – if you’re able to listen, you’re able to be still and let it be revealed, then the Spirit says to you: To him that overcometh – if you will overcome – I will give you hidden manna.

And what is it that you are to overcome? Well, of course it’s not out here, but it’s within, and it’s everything must be laid aside so that you can stand there as an opening, a pure opening and receive something called hidden manna.

Now, this does not have anything to do with overcoming your bad habits. I mean, maybe you made a New Year’s resolution to stop smoking or to stop eating meat or to – I don’t know –whatever your current beliefs are as a human. Maybe you made a New Year’s resolution to stop being so critical of your family members and friends or to save money. In one way or another you made a promise to yourself to try to overcome something, and well I recently made kind of a small promise to myself that if time allowed I would walk every other day at least a mile, and I’ve been keeping to that, except when it’s raining so hard I can’t walk outside without getting soaked. And in fact today I walked for a mile and then came back home and meditated and read a little and meditated again before starting this talk.

But all those are external, and as you know by now, the entire spiritual path is internal because you live in your state of consciousness which is within. So this ‘to you who overcome’ means something internal.

Now there’s another scripture which is Matthew 4:18, and it goes like this:

Jesus, walking by the sea of Galilee, saw two brethren, Simon called Peter, and Andrew his brother, casting a net into the sea: for they were fishers.

And he saith unto them, “Follow me, and I will make you fishers of men.”

And they straightaway left their nets, and followed him.

Now, if you have an inner ear and you read this, perhaps you’ll see what I see, which is that Christ walking by the sea of Galilee means on the edge of your consciousness … sitting on the well as it were … sees two brothers, Simon and Andrew, Simon called Peter and Andrew his brother. Now that’s your body and your mind casting a net into the sea. You’re trying with your body and you’re trying with your mind to reach this Presence in your consciousness, and you’re failing. Affirmations and denials … they no longer work. You’re struggling with the letter and it doesn’t work. But there’s Christ on the edge, knocking. Says to you, “Follow me, and I will make you fishers of men.” Or I will give you hidden manna. And in this analogy here, they straightaway left their nets, and followed him.

And there’s a book out which Joel said in the Kailua study series not very many people bought. It was not very popular among students, and he could tell that by its lack of sales. And his book is called Leave Your Nets, because that’s what Christ says to you. If you would overcome and receive the hidden manna, then you must leave your nets.

And your nets are nothing to do with the external. Your nets are your material sense of existence and your mental sense of existence. These must be laid down in order to receive the hidden manna, and now I will tell you what hidden manna means. It means for you to receive a new Self, a new Self, not physical, not mental, a spiritual Self, Christ. Listen to the rest of this quote in Revelation. Listen to the rest of the sentence:

He that hath an ear, – can you hear me calling? – let him hear what the Spirit saith unto the churches; Listen, listen. Christ within you has something to say. To him that overcometh – if you overcome, if you lay down your material sense of existence and your mental sense of existence, and you stand there naked, [I will give you] to eat of the hidden manna, – That is, something else will begin to flow as your very Self, and [I will give you] a white stone, and in the white stone there’s a new consciousness.

No longer a material sense coupled with a mental sense. No longer Simon and Andrew. No. I will give you a new consciousness, and in the stone a new name written, – That new name is a new nature, a new being, a new Self. I will give you a new Self which no man knoweth saving he that receiveth it.

No … no one with their material sense of self, their physical sense of self, or their mental sense of self can detect this invisible hidden Self. No one can detect it.

Okay … so now let’s read it again and see if you can see it now what’s being said in one sentence. Revelation 2:17:

He that hath an ear, let him hear what the Spirit saith unto the churches; To him that overcometh will I give to eat of the hidden manna, and will give him a white stone, and in the stone a new name written, which no man knoweth saving he that receiveth it.

And so in this book Leave Your Nets speaking of leaving the material sense of self – physical sense of self, and the mental sense of self which are both in the mind, in this world mind, counterfeit self – if you give up that self and you stand there willing to be silent, not knowing what’s going to happen next, using no affirmations and no denials, simply saying, “Father, reveal the Self,” and standing still – if you do that you will receive the hidden Self. It will begin to flow. It will begin to take over. It will begin to be you.

And in this book Leave Your Nets by Joel there is a chapter, chapter 5 called Hidden Manna. And he has something to say about this hidden manna. And remember, this entire book was written so that those that are advanced past the letter and are ready to live by Spirit, by Christ, can leave their nets, can leave their humanhood and put on immortality and behold Christhood, the ascension of Christ. And so in this chapter he says:

You will not be able to enter the presence of God carrying your burdens with you. That means carrying your humanhood or your material sense or your mental sense, your affirmations, your denials. Anything by might or by power. None of that will help. You will not come into the presence of God carrying with you any desire for God to do something, be something, or get something for you. That’s very important, because if there’s a “you” going to God, that’s the “you” that has to die. And die standing still. And die right there so that you may be a beholder, a witness to Christ coming out of the tomb, the hidden manna. Says Joel:

There has to be a purification of all human desires in the realization of his grace. You must consciously make the sacrifice of everything external; you must surrender the past and [surrender] the future. Surrender every desire for person, place, thing, circumstance, or condition – even your hope for heaven.

The presence of God is within you, and it must be consciously realized, but it will never be realized by anyone who desires God for any purpose other than the realization of God itself. Everyone who has sought God and missed the way has missed it because he has sought God for a reason: for a healing, for supply, [for a] home, [for] happiness, or for some other thing. God cannot be attained that way. God can be attained only in one way: through a complete surrender of everything … Consciously let go … “I do not want to live by bread alone. I want my life to be lived ‘by every word that proceedeth out of the mouth of God.’” Then you will receive the hidden manna.

Now this hidden manna, this white stone upon which is written a new name, this Christ – all these are terms. All these are concepts in the mind, and so throw them out. You are not allowed to bring any of these concepts inside. You are not allowed now, you who have decided to really leave your nets, are no longer allowed to live by concepts. You must find this hidden manna, this new Self, and if you have learned how to practice contemplation, if you learned how to do that maybe several years ago, maybe just last year – if you learned how to contemplate until you reach the place where the mind stopped all by itself and momentarily you were silent, and into that vacuum rushed the Presence and you felt something, what you felt was just a whisper of this hidden manna. Now the time has come for you to die. To lay down your life and to allow this hidden manna, this new stone, this new name to be revealed right here, right now. This new Self, this invisible Self, will live your life and make it its own life so that there is no longer a human being and a Christ presence, but only a Christ presence living Itself.

You said you agreed with The New Horizon that above this sense-life is a realm of Spirit governed by Love, peopled with children of God, and you said you wanted to be the child of God, that you wanted to live above this sense-life in the realm of Spirit. “My ways are not your ways,” says God, and none of your ways will work now. And so … leave your nets. Leave ‘em, all of ‘em. First here in your inner chamber. Here, right here in your inner chamber is the place to practice this principle, the principle of leave your nets. Throw them down. Let them go. Hands off! No physical self. That’s a concept in the mind. Whose mind? Not this new Self, not the mind that is in this new Self. No … this is world mind. Concept is in the world mind. It’s a universal concept. It belongs to no one, and so … drop it.

And what about this mind that has all these concepts, this universal mind thinking thoughts about a world, about a structure, a structural universe. This mind also belongs to no one. It belongs to no one. And so … drop it.

Now there’s no physical self. There’s no mental self. There’s no self here. There’s only a vast emptiness inside, a quietude, a silence.

Stand ye still and see and receive the hidden manna, a new Self, an invisible Self, an infinite Self. Receive ye the Holy Spirit. Not for any reason, not for any purpose. Just to rest in My Spirit. Just rest in it. You don’t even have to know what it’s doing. I have ways ye know not of. Rest. Behold I, your new Self. Feel your new Self. Listen … your new Self utters Itself.

You may feel this inner hum, this inner vibration. You may hear my voice say, “It is I, be not afraid.” You may feel the Spirit moving over the face of the deep, but it is I, your new Self. Stand, stop, still.

I go before you to prepare a place for you, a consciousness for you, a body for you, a Self. Leave your nets and follow My guidance, My Spirit. I have come that you might have life, a new life, a hidden manna, a new Self, a Self that is everlasting.

Yes, to you who overcomes, to you who lays down a false sense of life, I will give you a new Self, a new consciousness, a new name. This is the initiation you waited for, you asked for, you prayed for. Now stand aside, and I will give you a new Self called Christ. And I, if I be lifted up in you, I will draw everything needed throughout eternity. This is the hidden manna, which no one knows except for you who receives your new Self.

No longer must you be concerned about a personal human self. There is none.

No, your only concern is to come here again and again to drop the nets, to turn within, to be still, be silent. No desires. Only a witness, as I, your new Self, reveal your Self to you. And I flow forth and reveal to you your new Self in hundreds, thousands, millions of ways. I am infinite. I can do this.

No … no human mind will ever understand the ways of God, and that human mind will give up and call them foolish. Foolishness! Who can receive a new self? Oh, come on! But to you who overcome in your inner chamber, in the silence, I give to eat of the hidden manna, your new Self lifted up. Now be still and feel the I.

[Silence] ..

And so my friends, if you do not have a copy of Leave Your Nets and you are serious about dying and being a witness to the birth of a new Self, your Self, the I … then it behooves you to get a copy of this book, Leave Your Nets, Joel S. Goldsmith. This is by Acropolis Books, and I think it’s $11.95. It was $11.95. It says here: Acropolis Books in 1998, so for $12 here’s a book on how you can completely leave your nets. I’d say that’s a perfect price, next to nothing. I suggest you get it, but you don’t read it the way you would read a novel. But before you open it, close your eyes and have a meditation and invite the Father to reveal your Self, and be still. Then open the book, begin at the first chapter, read the first paragraph slowly. See if you can see where it’s telling you how to die and how to awaken to your everlasting Self, your Self. And read along until you feel this inner humming, this inner vibration. Then stop.

There’s something there for you … Spirit is speaking. Look at it again. Now put it down. Now take it into meditation. Look at it a few times. I might say to myself “hidden manna.” What is that? Hidden manna. Father, reveal the Self. And then I am quiet. And something will come. Oh, I can’t say whether for you it’ll be the still, small voice or the inner higher vibration or the movement of Spirit across the waters or just your everlasting Self rising up, ascending. I can’t tell you how it will be for you, but I know that something will happen, and it will be your Self, your new Self, the hidden manna being revealed. And then you’re done. You’re done. Don’t go back and read anymore.

And then later in another meditation try it again. And if nothing comes, and if I sat down and said, hidden manna, hidden manna, and nothing new came, then I would open the book and continue where I left off, reading the next paragraph. Very slowly, looking … after my meditation … reading and looking … Where is this telling me how to die and how to awaken? Now … here. If you do that … well, I don’t see how you could get to the end of this book with all of that going on within before and after your reading … I don’t see how you could get to the end of this book with all of those inner experiences of your true Self and not be another Self. I just don’t see how you could do it.

So, if you don’t have a copy of this book, get a copy. If you do have a copy of this book, perhaps you might approach it the way I just suggested. Because this gives the precise instructions for leaving your material sense of self, your mental sense of self, dropping those nets, coming empty-handed and standing before the very altar of God, open, receptive, and bearing witness as the light of the Father shines, revealing to you a new everlasting Self.

As this Self begins to rise, you will find it much easier when confronted with a problem to no longer take thought, but like Joel, our friend, our teacher … you will be able to turn within with no thought, and this makes no difference whether you’re driving a car, swimming, watering the lawn, eating. Remember, he said sometimes it comes while eating? In the Kailua study series he said that? Your new Self will begin to express Itself without your asking, and in very strange and beautiful ways, just beautiful. You will become Christ consciousness.

People will reach out to you and before they get to the phone and before they write a letter, receive something from Christ. Because this new Self is an omnipresent Self, and as it rises higher and higher within you, you’ll find that while looking at the good things, the beautiful forest as I did this morning on my walk, or the beautiful little dog who likes to follow me from down the street on my walk and stays with me the entire walk … oh, half a mile one direction and half a mile back … and then goes back home. He just decided to join me, a companion. But I know this is God. Oh sure, it appears as the forest. It appears as the dog, but something in you will reveal this new Self in whatever direction you look, because there cannot be two. There can only be one, and I within you am that One.

And so, you will find that with no effort on your part, after a time, after a while practicing this within in your inner chamber, in your consciousness, it will begin to take over. Your new Self will begin living Itself, and when you look upon the errors, you will see one Self. When you look upon the appearance of good, also errors, you will see one Self. You will see one Self. You will have that experience of Paul. In that Self we live and move and have our being, and that one Self in us.“I am in the Father, and the Father in me.” Do you not know that, says the Christ? This is the truth of your new Self.

There are 12 people listening to these talks. Well now there’s 14. I expect 14 people to lay down their lives and sometime in the weeks and months to follow I expect … I fully expect there to be but one Self. One Self speaking, one Self hearing, one Self living, one Self being, and die that self.

I want you to know that it matters to me that you come into this awareness of your Self. Though I can’t do it for you, each and every one of you are lifted up in these meditations, and it is also my feeling that each and everyone are ready for this step. We may have studied only five or ten years, maybe even only two years, maybe 20, maybe 40 as in my case … but, this is not our first time. We have studied before and perhaps we just weren’t ready, and we turned like Lot’s wife back and turned into a pillar of salt. We turned back into a human.

Now, I feel certain each and everyone is ready. Leave your nets. You that have an ear … you hear what the inner Spirit says unto you now. To you who overcomes a material sense of self, a mental sense of self and stands still, I will give you to eat of the hidden manna. I will give you a white stone, a new consciousness, and in the stone a new name. A new Self I give unto you, which no one knows about except you that receive it. Come. Eat. The table is prepared for you. For you … I give you hidden manna. A new Self, Christ.

[Silence] ..

Good morning.

The subject for today, the principle of this talk is “No illusion is ever externalized,” and that’s a quote from Joel’s book A Parenthesis in Eternity and the chapter Reality and Illusion, which we’re going to cover this morning. And I feel it’s important, and I don’t know if you have the book, so if I read a lot of it, I apologize. I just don’t know any better way of getting the message across than to use the words that float out to describe the truth about reality and illusion.

All right, so let’s begin right at the beginning of the chapter. I have the book here. Mine’s all marked up. I don’t know how you do with your books, but mine get marked up. All right, now… the chapter is Reality and Illusion, and it’s very important because in it he explains that no illusion is ever externalized, and if you think of that, if you look at that, and again I repeat that some of these things really stick with me and they haunt me for a while, and that was one that did.

No illusion is ever externalized.

And the reason why it did is because so many times we hear the expression … well, this world is an illusion and this world is just not real and this world is a world of universal hypnotism and this world … but all the time that we’re saying that, we’re pointing to a world out here, and if we believe the statement which came through Joel that no illusion is ever externalized, then there is no world out here.

No world of illusion exists out here.

You’re not moving through a world of illusion, and if you see that illusion as taking place out here, you’ve missed the whole point. But he explains it better than I can, so let’s get into the chapter, and I’m going to stress parts of it. I didn’t want to stress it all, but as I read it again for the umpteenth time this morning, I found that I was underlining practically everything, so I’m sorry (chuckles). But we’re gonna look at this chapter. He starts right off with a bang. He says:

To recognize that we live in two worlds, the world created by the five physical senses and the world of Consciousness, is to bring ourselves closer and closer to illumination. Now, the five physical senses take place as we said in the brain, in the mind. So… to recognize that we live in two worlds, the world created by the [mind] and the world of Consciousness, is to bring ourselves closer … to illumination.

Now we have said that we’re going from the letter to the Spirit. Those are perhaps archaic terms, and so to put it in more modern scientific language, we are moving from the mind to Consciousness. And then he gives an example in our Bible. He says:

In the first chapter of Genesis, God made man in His own image and likeness, without any help from anyone. This pure spiritual birth, this immaculate conception, is God manifesting and expressing Himself and His qualities, Consciousness revealing Itself as form. This is [the] pure, unadulterated, spiritual creation, the immaculate conception of man and the universe, God, the infinite Life expressing Itself individually without any material forms, processes, or systems.

Now you notice he says up here one sentence before this that the first chapter of Genesis is Consciousness revealing Itself as form. Then in the very next sentence he says God expressing Itself individually without any material forms. And there we have the whole secret. There are two kinds of forms! There are two kinds of creation. There are two kinds of body. There are two kinds of whatever. One is the pure, immaculate, invisible form, and one is the forms as seen with the eyes and felt and heard and tasted and touched.

In other words, one is invisible form which you behold while you’re standing in Consciousness in that high mountain of transfiguration – you behold Consciousness formed. Or down here in the human mind you behold the mind and its many forms. You see? Which is why he gave us the Kailua talk, talk #8 I believe, on Flesh and Flesh. Yet, I will behold God in my flesh means in the invisible Consciousness formed. But all flesh is grass means the mental images.

And so no illusion is ever externalized. There is no illusory world out here. It’s all taking place in the human mind, and it gets worse than that. I told you these talks are uncomfortable.

So, in the first chapter of Genesis we see Consciousness formed. But …

In the second chapter of Genesis, God not only creates, but He miscreates, and because of His mistakes, He has to do it over and over again. … He “[forms] man of the dust of the ground,” [and] then, He brought forth woman from man’s rib, and finally He decided to bring [forth] man and woman … for the purpose of creation. … This man of earth, “the natural man” which is what the second chapter of Genesis is talking about, created by Lord God, which is mind, the human mind … is not under the law of God, [and] “neither indeed can be,” [in fact, it] is not a man at all: [it’s] a mythical creation of the human mind …

Now there you go. And so are you standing in the human mind, looking out and believing all these images are out there, or are you standing in Consciousness, beholding the one infinite spiritual body of God?

Now, let us turn the page. There’s nothing else underlined here. Let’s see …

If we could erase from our thought everything that we have [ever] heard or read about a person – We talked about this last week or the week before – If we could eraseeverything [we’ve ever] heard or readeverything [and] every opinion that we ourselves have formed – and say, “Father, wipe all this away. [I’m] willing to start all over. Here’s a blank slate. Show me, Father. Show me this man as he is. Show me his … nature. Reveal him to me… If we could do that … we would find that by turning within with a listening ear, the truth would be revealed to us. In this way we would know him aright. The I of him would be born in us immaculately.

That’s how healings happen. Joel didn’t set out to heal. He set out to attain spiritual Consciousness, which is standing in Consciousness beholding the One. And when people came to him and said, “Would you help me please? I have a headache.” And he turned within and said, “Well, Father, I don’t know how … I can’t help anybody, and I can’t even change this picture.” So he stopped right there. Joel stopped, and in that silence, in that vacuum, in that listening he calls it, in that standing still in Consciousness he beheld and beholds the one infinite being. And that one infinite being and its form, because of his awareness of it, appears. And the person taps Joel and says, “Oh, thank you!” And Joel did nothing except stand still and behold.

And so, as we said a week or two ago: If you have love or fear or hate of anything in this world, then you’re loving or fearing or hating a mental image. Yes, even that includes your wife, your spouse, your partner, your husband, your children, your grandparents. Remember? And that’s kind of uncomfortable. That’s really uncomfortable. Yet, we are entertaining concepts which are within. No illusion is ever externalized.

All these people are not out there! I’m sorry! (chuckles). It’s true! No illusion is ever externalized. All of this is a creation of the human mind. Your entire world that you’ve been living in is taking place in the mind. You’ve never gotten outside of the mind unless through meditation you’ve stepped out briefly and you beheld the spiritual creation or Consciousness formed.

And so he recommends that you turn to God. Say, “I don’t know her. I don’t know him. Let me drop all those mental images now. What’s really here, Father? What’s really here? Show me. Reveal him, reveal her as they are.” And then in that stillness, if you attain that silence and the mind stops functioning temporarily, even briefly, only even for a glimpse, you will behold Consciousness formed, the first chapter of Genesis. See that? And so he says:

Are you beginning to see how much we all have accepted about God and about one another without any real knowledge? Or awareness, or recognition, or realization? All right … here we go …

The world that we see, hear, taste, touch, and smell is the world the Master overcame, but [it’s] not a real world … Now you can’t say that and hang onto part of it. You can’t say, “well, it’s not a real world, but I like this. I’m gonna hang onto this part. I’ve known him for a long time, and he’s my best friend, and I like the way he does this and he does that, although he has some character defects which I don’t really like. You know, sometimes he overeats a little bit …” Now wait a minute! You can’t say this world is an illusion – hang onto part of it because you like it!

This is all or nothing. All or nothing. No illusion is ever externalized. So when he says here it’s not a real world … it’s a world formed by our sense impressions or by the mind … he is saying it’s in the human mind. There’s no world out here. It’s in the human mind.

What’s out here, what’s everywhere in and out is Consciousness formed. You’re standing in the kingdom, dreaming your life away in a this world that’s only internal and all the characters in it. Remember – this world is a stage and we’re all characters says Shakespeare? He wasn’t kidding. He wasn’t being just poetic. He was declaring the truth. ”Nothing is good or bad but thinking makes it so.” Right? The world is a stage, and we’re all actors, all characters on the stage.

And so if you’ve fallen in love, isn’t that terrible to contemplate? Doesn’t it make you really squirm in your chair like it does me? If you’ve fallen in love, you have fallen in love with a mental image that isn’t even out there. Ah, but are you brave enough to face that and say, “Well, wait a minute now. Come on! I want to awaken. I want to awaken. Show me! Show me the truth, Father. What’s really here?” If you’re brave enough to do that, then … well … how did he put it? The I of them will be born in you immaculately. Which means you’ll have awareness of it. You’ll have feeling of it, and that is the eternal life that you can love forever.

Now, let’s read this paragraph uninterrupted, because I feel it’s important.

The world that we see, hear, taste, touch, and smell is the world [that] the Master overcame, but it is not a real world: it is a world formed by our sense impressions, by the mind, by what we like or dislike at the moment. So it is that this world of the second chapter of Genesis, the world of a man created out of dust, [of a] woman created out of a rib, and [of] children created from the union of man and woman – this is not a world, this is a dream.

You can’t make it any plainer than that. You know, I don’t know how people read over these paragraphs in these pages in these chapters in these books and just go on down the street. I mean … it shocks the heck out of me! It makes my thinking stand still, which is what it was designed to do, I suspect. And in the stillness I have seen many things which eyes and ears have not seen. Now …

This world of sense impressions is not under the law of God.

Now doesn’t that make you kind of shake a little bit, kind of fearful? It did me the first time I saw it. Wait a minute, wait a minute! I’m living in this world created by the senses. I never get outside of my mind, and that world is not under the law of God. Anything can happen! Anything! I could get hit by a train tomorrow. Lightning could strike the top of my head. That person I love the most could die and never return. Yes, anything can happen. It’s a horrible dream. I don’t think it’s very nice.

Oh, there are nice parts to it. You can say, well, isn’t that rainbow lovely? Isn’t that bubbling stream nice? But tomorrow the rainbow becomes a hurricane or a tornado, and the bubbling stream becomes contaminated with ingredients spewing forth from a factory a mile away. Now, that’s not a world. Oh, and the woman that you love can run off with another guy. I mean … this is … you’re spending your whole lifetime … and I am spending my whole lifetime and all of us are spending our whole lifetimes believing that we’re living lifetimes!

And as he gets into this chapter, the whole point is to try to take one of the opposites and change it. Well, we’ll get into it in his words.

The world that we can see, hear, taste, touch, and smell is not under the law of God, and yet this very world that we are living in, which is the kingdom, is under the grace of God when we see through the appearance to Reality.

And so I submit to you, here is the whole answer. All these books comes down to this. If you can see through the mind world and stand still, get out of that even for a moment, catch a glimpse of the world of Consciousness formed, of My kingdom of Spirit, of the Light, of the one Self, then you come under grace.

[So] In this world created by the senses, [the] unreal world of mental images, we are deceived by appearances because in “this world” … we are faced always with the pairs of opposites. [Unlike My kingdom] everything [in this world] has its opposite: up, down; health, sickness, life, death; wealth, poverty; good, evil; purity, sin; white, black; gain, loss.

There is nothing in the world of sense that does not have its opposite, and if we analyze [our]experience , we will see that life is just a continuous effort – human life is just a continuous effort – to change one of the pairs of opposites into the other[s].

Haven’t you analyzed it? Haven’t you looked at this human life you were living and seen that you’re trying to change … you’re trying to get just enough supply or put away enough for retirement, and that’s trying to change lack into abundance. You’re trying to find the right partner, the right mate, the right spouse, right husband, the right wife, and that’s trying to change loneliness into companionship, or aloneness into companionship. Or you’re trying to go to the right doctor or find the right herbs or the right yoga positions or the right exercises or the right diet to make your health good, change it from bad health to good health. And we do this over and over and over. We try to find the right job. We try to find the right career. We try to find the right this, the right that, and always they’re changed from right to wrong. We’re in the middle of a job that we love and suddenly it gets worse. Somebody comes in there that becomes our supervisor that’s really horrible to work for. Now we have to leave that one and go looking again for the right … and a whole lifetime passes and – Bam! – 60 years are over. Ten or twenty more years, you’re dead.

You lived a whole series of mental images and never got outside and never stepped foot into My kingdom. Oh – you may have read about it. You may have read about it a lot, but you have no awareness of it. In the kingdom of God we not only do not have all these pairs of opposites, we do not have even one of them. We do not have life any more than we have death. Now, I think I’ve told you this, but if I did, I’ll repeat and if I didn’t, then listen.

In the kingdom of heaven we do not have life any more than we have death. Now you and I, we have been thinking in terms of the only life we knew, which is this individual human life. Right? And we read the words everlasting life, eternal life, and we think of this life going on, going forward. But in the kingdom of heaven we don’t have death, but we also don’t have life.

What? That’s right, that’s right. Well then, what is meant by the word everlasting life? What is everlasting life? This everlasting thing that is never changing, never changed, never born, never dying. It’s not alive, it’s not dead. What? Yeah … it’s not alive, it’s not dead. It’s something else. There’s a third choice. We don’t know what that is. We give it names. We say “being.” That doesn’t mean anything. What is it, Father. Reveal to me. What is this everlasting life? What is life? I don’t even know what that word means. You see? And I’m not gonna tell you what’s been revealed to me. You need to take that in your own meditation.

On the next page he says:

The kingdom of God is the realm of being. Isn’t that weird that I’m explaining things to you and it’s coming out exactly what’s next in the book, and I have no way of knowing. I didn’t memorize it. Anyway … The kingdom of God is the realm of being, … divine being – … not live being because life has its opposite, death; but being – possessing no degrees, amounts, quantities, or qualities. “The darkness and the light are both alike to thee.” That’s another one that can haunt you. “The darkness and the light are both alike to thee.” That means the bad weather, the bad relationship, the bad health, and the good health, the harmonious weather, the harmonious relationship, the harmonious supply – they’re both alike to thee who has seen through them. So he says:

In this world of the senses, there is good and evil, and there is [the] centering of attention on changing [the] evil into good. [But] In “My kingdom,” … we ignore the appearance [s] and seek to realize [spiritual] truth, to realize God’s grace, [and] God’s presence, [and] God’s power. The moment that we feel a conscious oneness with God, the appearance changes. [And now] To our human sense, the evil appearance now has a good appearance, [the] appearance of lack has an abundant appearance, [and] the sick appearance has a well appearance … But we are not fooled by the changed appearance. We know that in seeking the kingdom of God within, we are merely beholding Reality, or Consciousness formed. We are merely beholding Reality appearing. … We come face to face with God; [and] we see Him as He is, and we are satisfied with that likeness.

So you see, again and again and again what he did was not healing work. What he did was he shut out the senses. He created a vacuum. He said he has … in the Kailua study … he said I have a knack for resting. That means resting out of the mind and just waiting upon the Lord. Standing still in Spirit. Remaining silent and receptive to Consciousness. And then there’s the movement. Consciousness reveals itself, reveals Its form, and he said in the Kailua study, said Joel, I myself have beheld that spiritual form dozens and dozens of times. Remember? And catching the awareness of that, then the appearance changes and more of Reality, more of God appears.

Why? Because you live in your awareness. You’re not doing these tricks like waving a magic wand and healing somebody. You’re living in your awareness, and if you’re aware only of the mind and its images, then that’s what you see – good and evil. Sometimes good, sometimes evil. But if you’ve learned “not by might,” no physical effort, “nor by power,” no taking thought, but “by My Spirit,” by Consciousness revealing Itself, and if you’ve learned how to meditate according to the Kailua study series, chapter 10 and chapter 12, then you are beginning to catch glimpses of Consciousness formed. And when you catch glimpses of that … when you have awareness, not thinking or thoughts or ideas or theories … but outside of the mind, you catch a glimpse. You have an awareness of Consciousness, then it appears. And when you have awareness of only the mind and good and evil, then it appears.

You stand and you live and you move and you have your being in your awareness.

All right? So … now listen to this next part. This next part is so very important. This page and a half is the reason for this entire talk.

To understand the illusory nature of the finite world is to grasp the kernel of all mystical teaching … to understand the illusory nature and the fact that it’s not externalized … but if it is misunderstood, it can act as a deterrent to progress as it has in India which has one of the noblest spiritual heritages of any nation on earth.

Perhaps the greatest of all the Indian seers was Gautama the Buddha whose revelation of absolute truth was so profound that while there are other revelations equal to it, there are none which have surpassed it. [He] … had the full realization of the one [Self], … the one I which constitutes [the] Consciousness of the universe, and he [himself] understood and proved that the appearance-world is maya, or illusion. [And] Because of its fruitage, his message spread like wildfire across all of India.

Now the fruitage was his awareness appeared as harmonious being inside and out, his awareness of this. Like Joel, he had the awareness of the nothingness of the hypnotic mind, but he also had the awareness of the allness of Being, and resting in that awareness, people that came around him felt it and were lifted up, and some received healings and some received awareness themselves. And so the fruitage – that’s the fruitage. And because of [the] fruitage, his message spread like wildfire across all of India, but – listen to this, because many of us in The Infinite Way make this mistake:

but his teaching of maya [or illusion] was [misunderstood]. The belief that the world is an illusion led to a do-nothing attitude, a passive acceptance of the evil conditions in the world. His followers failed to see [that it’s] not the world that is [illusion].

Before we do that, before we go there, I want to point out what he’s referring to. If you’ve ever seen pictures and photographs or talked to people from India and that part of the world who misunderstood Buddha’s teaching of maya and illusion, then you’ll hear such statements as, “Well, it’s just my karma. I can’t do anything about it. I guess it’ll just take 2 more lifetimes or 10 more, however many it takes for this karma to be lifted.” And so he says it leads to a do-nothing attitude, a passive acceptance of the evil conditions … and it does. I have a friend from India in Florida, another friend in Australia, and another friend – well, I call him a friend, but he’s the author of I Am That. I guess his name is … hmm … hang on a minute. I’ll look it up. I Am That, and his name is Sri Nisargadatta Maharaj.

Anyway, he’s a mystic, and I have no doubt about the authenticity of his experiences because he explains things you can’t know unless you are experiencing I am That. But he also suffered from lung cancer because he chain smoked. He had a tobacco store, and he chain smoked, and he had cancer. And he says in there himself it’s just something the body’s going through and it’s no big deal. It’s an illusion … all the time talking about God and his very real realization of God. So you see, my friend in Florida, he does the same thing. He has a drinking problem. He also has deep experiences of God in his meditation, and his wife is saying, “You need to stop drinking! You have to stop. You have to take responsibility. You have to get a job. You have to do this. I mean … I’m supporting, I’m raising the kids.” And he’s going on with “Well, it’s just an illusion. It’s just an illusion. What’s the big deal? You should eat, drink, and be merry.” And then my friend in Australia says the same thing. This is an illusion. It’s just something the body is going through. It’s just karma. It’s the karma of the body. Don’t worry about it. You just attain your single focus on I am That.

Now – Joel says that’s a misinterpretation! He says that’s a misperception. So he says:

his teaching of maya was misinterpreted. The belief that the world is an illusion led to a do-nothing attitude, a passive acceptance of the evil conditions in the world. His followers failed to see that it is not the world that is [an illusion]. The world is real … It has to be real. You’re standing in the kingdom. The world is real: the illusion is in the misperception of the eternal, divine, spiritual universe which is the only universe there is, and which is here and now.

You see that? Where is the illusion? Get this concrete! Get this … well, get this.

No illusion is ever externalized. Every time you catch yourself saying, “Well, that’s an illusion out there,” STOP IT! Correct yourself. No – this is mind. This is the human mind. I want to step outside of this. Father, what’s really here? You can ask that in your meditation. And when He reveals Himself, you’ll know that you’re standing in Consciousness formed in My kingdom. And so Joel says here:

Because of an illusory sense of [a spiritual]… universe,… the mortal scene appears as mortality with all its errors, whereas it is in reality [a divine kingdom], a divine universe. This world is God’s world; it is the temple of the living God; but when we see it with finite eyes and ears, … we see and hear … an illusory picture of the reality that is there. The illusion is in the mind that is falsely seeing the [kingdom as this] world: the illusion is never out in the world. An illusion cannot be externalized. An illusion is a deceptive state of thought, and it can take place only within a person’s mind, not outside [of] it.

He mentions also elsewhere that it’s taking place only in the human mind, and there’s only one human mind, and I’ll leave that with you to look at deeper. There is only one human mind.

Now, do you see the principle? No illusion is ever externalized.

I’ve done some work in mental hospitals because I got a degree in counseling, and I used to go into mental hospitals, some of the state hospitals. I’ve been to Camarillo in California and other places, and the people that are there really believe what they tell you. If you walk up and you say, “Hi. My name’s Bill Skiles and I’m a therapist. I’m gonna run a group today.” You might get somebody very nice sticking out their hand and saying, “Hi. My name is Napoleon Bonaparte,” and the other hand’s stuck inside of their shirt, you know. Or you might get someone saying, “Oh, that’s very good my child, and my name is Jesus.” Now they’re living in that delusion in their mind, are they not? Yes, they are. Now, but so are you! You thought you were well and healthy. Ha-ha! Surprise!

You’re just as insane, which is why we have to be restored to sanity. We have to have a spiritual awakening and awaken out of the insanity of the illusion. So, the illusion, pinpoint it where it is is in the human mind and the mental images. When we said last week this makes you uncomfortable when you ask how close is the world mind, only to discover the world mind has been your mind, and you’ve been living it and allowing it to live as you.

Ah, but now here comes this person doing all these healings and the message is spreading like wildfire, and you get a hold of it and what is this … what is this all about? And you discover first: “Hey, I can apply some of these principles and turn lack into supply, and I can turn loneliness into companionship, and I can turn ill health or sickness into harmonious physical health.” And you think that that’s the whole purpose of The Infinite Way. Ah, but then you dig deeper and the years pass, and maybe these principles stop working as Joel says in the original book, The Infinite Way. They stop working.

Let’s see if we can find that. Hang on … Yes, he says in Our Real Existence:

The advancing student will gradually relinquish his attempts to improve humanhood or to improve beliefs in order that [the]truth of spiritual existence may unfold in his consciousness. You see that? And he says in Putting On Immortality:

The first years of … [a student’s] search are devoted to overcoming discords and healing disease through prayer to some higher Power … The day arrives, however, when he perhaps discovers [that] the application of truth to human problems … does not “work” or does not work as it once did … Eventually, he is led to the great revelation that mortals [only] put on immortality … as mortality disappears – they do not add immortal spiritual harmony to human conditions.

You see that? So, the day eventually comes when you have the great revelation – and hopefully you’ve had it – that you cannot add Consciousness formed to this human life. You cannot add Consciousness formed to the mind’s images! Stop trying! It never was what it’s about. In fact, he says here in Our Real Existence:

There is a constant warfare between the flesh and the Spirit … and maybe you’re experiencing that … and this will continue as long as we entertain any degree of corporeal sense. That is, material forms. If you have any degree of material forms – if you still see a he, a her, an it, a corporeal creation, then you’re going to be involved in this warfare, and … The attempt to bring Spirit and its laws to bear upon material concepts constitute[s] this war,… peace can only come when the structural sense of … universe and the corporeal sense of man have been overcome.

And Jesus says, “I have overcome the world.” And in the Kailua study series, Joel says he did it in one fell swoop. Yes, he did. He stepped out of the mind concept and beheld the glory of the father. Consciousness formed. Again and again and again. Perhaps you’re called upon to do healing work. That’s good, because that means that you will have the opportunity to behold Consciousness formed.

Now back to Reality and Illusion … we’re almost done with it in A Parenthesis in Eternity. He says … I’m gonna read this paragraph again. It’s probably the most important paragraph you’ll ever read on illusion.

Because of an illusory sense of the universe … the mortal scene appears as mortality with all its errors, whereas it is in reality a divine universe. This world is God’s world; it is the temple of the living God …

Now, that’s all that’s out here. So if you ever see anything other than the temple of the living God, other than Consciousness formed, you are living in an illusion in your mind, which is the only place illusion can be. So …

This world is God’s world; it is the temple of the living God; but when we see it with finite eyes and ears, what we see and hear is … [an]illusory picture of the reality that is [really] there. The illusion is in the mind … falsely seeing the world [or the kingdom]: the illusion is never out in the world. An illusion cannot be externalized. An illusion is a deceptive state of thought, and it can take place only within a person’s mind, not outside it.

With our human eyesight we see a world constantly changing … All [of] this is an illusory picture in the human mind, but because there is only one human mind, [it’s] an illusory picture in your mind and mine. [And] Such a world has no externalized existence.

And neither do any of the people in that world! Neither do any of the corporeal forms, the material forms. He says over and over there is no structural universe, and we nod our heads and smile. Isn’t that spiritual, isn’t that nice, and then go live in a structural universe! What’s going …. LISTEN! OPEN YOUR EYES! HEAR IT!

We are aware of the world through our senses, but what the senses cognize is illusion, an illusion not outside the mind but in it. [And] To be able to understand and grasp this idea … is also to be able to grasp the idea that this illusion cannot be corrected [out here] … [That’s] why … prayer fails. … people are trying to improve [an] illusion which – he says trying to improve or add God to our humanhood in The Infinite Way – … [They’re] trying to improve [an] illusion which, if they succeeded in doing, would still be an illusion except … it would be a good illusion instead of a bad one.

[So] God is not in “this world,” – which is taking place in the mind.

Now he says there is a theory or a belief called pantheism which teaches that God is manifesting Himself as this world, and that’s not true. God’s not manifesting Himself as these mental concepts, which is why they can be smashed and changed and destroyed. He says if this were true, if this world were really a manifestation of God – now remember, this world is the world in the mind – there’s no “this world” out here. There’s only My kingdom out here.

THIS WORLD, THIS WORLD, THIS WORLD IS IN THE MIND, THE MIND, THE MIND.

[So] If this were true and [this world and the mind] … were a manifestation of God and made [in] the substance of God, it would be eternal …

People would live forever. You could drive your car; it would never wear out. You’d have trees forever. Okay?

But the substance of the forms we behold [are] not … that substance which is God … Right? That which is made is not made of that which doth appear. … and once we perceive that, we shall understand the true meaning of the word “illusion,” which is that our perception of what we behold constitutes the illusion.

So, this world is what? Perception! And perception in the mind constitutes the illusion. You’re standing in the Kingdom, living lifetime after lifetime in the mind. We’re not moving from letter to Spirit. We’re moving from mind to conscious awareness. We’re moving from mental images, thoughts, my thoughts to Thy thoughts. We’re moving from thinking to awareness of Consciousness formed. We are undergoing a transformation, a transfiguration. Now listen. Other than pantheism there is also one called theism. And that:

regards God and the world as two distinct substances … and he says: How impossible it would be for God, the creative Principle, to create anything unlike Itself.

So see … there’s not God and this world out here. You’ve got to stop that! You’ll never get out of it if you think it’s out here. So, he says:

The next question … is: What about this physical universe? [And] The answer to that is … “My kingdom is not of this world.” “This world” is the … [Adam] dream; this … world [is mortal concepts; this world is] mental projection[s]. When we recognize this and are able to close our eyes and realize – become aware, recognize, have the awareness of – I in the midst of us, [then] this body loses its sense of mortality – or corporeality, and I have overcome the world. See that? And [it] becomes what God’s world really is – harmonious and perfect.

And so he says: The truth is that God is Spirit, Consciousness, and therefore all that really exists is God formed, [or] God in manifestation.

So the world that you see with the senses and everyone in it is a world in the mind, and it’s illusion in the mind. If you can step outside of that even for a moment and behold My kingdom, then your awareness will be what you’re living. But he says you can’t do this with the mind because that’s the very one that’s hypnotized.

It takes spiritual discernment to know the things of God. So he says: Let us not look [out] at this visible world and call it spiritual, because we’re not really looking out on a physical world; we’re looking in at mental images of a physical world. So let’s not call it spiritual and let’s not call it a creation … apart from God. [Let’s] … cleave to the Middle Path which leads [back within our] … spiritual center where we can say, “Father, what is really here?” And we see the Christ of God. No human being can look upon physicality with his mind and detect Christ. Only the Christ can reveal the Christ.

When the Master asked, “Having eyes, see ye not? … having ears, hear ye not?” he was referring to …. spiritual discernment or Christ-consciousness. … if [you can] …look through the appearance to the Christ … the Christ ever-present, or Consciousness formed – although not apparent to [your eyes, you will] be able to break the mesmerism – and when you break the mesmerism through your spiritual discernment, you will behold the spiritual nature even of a dying … person. Which is how Lazarus came forth. All right? We in The Infinite Way must learn to look through the appearance with inner discernment and there [behold] the invisible, spiritual child of God who was never born and will never die, eternal right here … now.

Miracles can be performed by the person who does not try to heal …

You see that now? Where is there to heal? You need to step outside of the images that say they need healing. You need to step outside of the belief that you can do anything. You need to step into this eternal silence, into a Sabbath from thought taking and allow God to reveal Itself. And so he says:

On the spiritual path, we do not try to change [an] external world … because there isn’t one! There’s only My kingdom out there. … We seek nothing of [the] world: we seek only the realization of [My kingdom]. …

When we see fruit on the trees, we are seeing the fruitage of an invisible life … and that’s what we want to become aware of. Remember in The Infinite Way … well … in the Kailua study talks he talks about in The Infinite Way discussing the orange tree in that chapter on supply and how not very many people that he has met in The Infinite Way have connected that up with the truth of being? Remember that? Well … here he’s saying it again because he must have had a profound experience looking at a fruit tree, because he discusses it a lot. So he says here:

When see fruit on the trees, we are seeing the fruitage of an invisible life, an invisible activity … and that’s what we have to become aware of … an invisible unfoldment appearing visibly.

We have to become aware of Consciousness formed, and this awareness comes to you first in your meditation, later with eyes open. So finally he says, to wrap this up:

When enlightenment has been attained, the temporal picture is recognized for what it is: maya or illusion. Then when we are faced with evil people … or erroneous conditions, we [don’t] fight them [and we don’t] try to get God to do something to them ….

We relax! Again he says he has a knack for relaxing. We relax out of the mind. We relax out of the body and we relax out of the mind, knowing that this is an illusion in the mind.

[And] when we awaken from beholding [the] mortal dream … we will see one another as we are … we will discover that our neighbor is our Self. Because we will see there is only one Self, and I am That Consciousness formed.

All this [will become] apparent to us, not through knowledge … but because we have developed a [deep] inner spiritual awareness … The object of The Infinite Way is to develop [this] spiritual [awareness]. …

The goal is attaining the spiritual vision, so that we can behold God’s universe … [we] can commune with Him, walk and talk with Him, live with Him … Okay?

The attaining of some measure of this spiritual vision is enough. It is an awareness that reveals that God is Spirit, that all that really is must be spiritual, and … There will never be any confirmation of this through our eyes because Spirit [or Consciousness] cannot be seen with the eyes. The eyes must be closed to … sense so that we can inwardly behold God’s creation. … it is a matter of attaining a depth of inner awareness, says Joel, an awareness that expresses itself not so much in words [or thoughts] as in feelings.

And feelings doesn’t mean emotions. It means intuition or awareness. I like awareness better than feelings.

Now do you see the principle today? The principle is: No illusion is ever externalized. Right? Now listen. A couple of things. A Hindu friend of mine sent me a poem from Shankara, which as you know – or maybe you don’t – but Joel really liked Shankara. And here’s the poem, and it came to me just today, which was really quite fantastic because, well, it’s just that there’s no way that he could know I was going to have this topic: No illusion is ever externalized, and yet, out of Consciousness formed comes this poem to us today. And it says:

When one sees the image of the world within him,

The world appears as if it is outside.

It is similar to his seeing due to illusion,

During the state of sleep,

the one real fact appears as many different truths,

And he realizes, when he wakes up and sees the reality,

That he is really the one and only one soul.

Isn’t that beautiful? That’s just exactly what we were talking about. Just exactly it. And when you have that inner awareness, when you have the inner consciousness, the inner seeing and knowing and beholding of Consciousness formed, or My kingdom, then you will have that inner experience which is portrayed in the mount of Transfiguration. You see, the mount is a high level of consciousness in which you behold Consciousness formed, or the Body of God, or the one Soul, or the one Self. And here’s how it was explained.

And after six days, Jesus [took] Peter, James, and John … and bringeth them up into [a] high mountain apart,

And was transfigured before them: and his face did shine as the sun, and his raiment was white as the light.

Now … that was Matthew’s interpretation. Here’s Mark’s.

And he said unto them, – Jesus said unto them – “Verily I say unto you, That there be some of them [standing] here, which shall not taste of death, till they have seen the kingdom of God come with power.”

And after six days [took them with] Peter, and James, and John, and leadeth them up into [a] high mountain apart by themselves: and he was transfigured before them.

And his raiment became shining, exceeding[ly] white as snow; so as no fuller on earth can white them.

You see that? Both of these people had that inner experience when Jesus took them up higher and lifted them high into Consciousness out of the mind – they saw the Body of Christ, and that’s your body. There’s only one Self, one Soul. When you’re lifted out of the mind of these many forms – which now you know aren’t out here – they’re only in the human mind. When all of that is released, if only even for a moment, you will experience the transfiguration and you will see Consciousness formed, the first chapter of Genesis. You will see the Body of Christ and you will see a face shining as the sun and raiment white as the light. This is what you will see, and you will be beholding Consciousness formed, the real creation, My kingdom, in which you stand now.

Now I had a similar experience, as I’ve said many times in my talks, when I attended Herb Fitch’s seminar in Avila Beach, northern California, and in that experience he was speaking on stepping outside of time and I was in meditation. I felt lifted up on a high mountain you might say. It was a high experience of Consciousness, and when I opened my eyes everywhere my eyes looked I could feel myself in that and that in me. I could feel that I am That, and the entire world, the entire creation was in my being, and I could feel it. But I could also feel that I was the only being appearing as all that. And so I lived and moved and had my being in the awareness of Consciousness formed. And since then it has happened in meditation many times.

Well, we’re out of time. This talk is gonna run out this tape, so just let me say the principle is: No illusion is ever externalized. And wrestle with that until you make some progress and come into the awareness of Consciousness formed, the perfect spiritual creation of God.

Blessings. [Silence] ..